ychel's habitat...

2009-01-04T11:43:00.002+01:00

MERRY XMAS, HAPPY NEW YEAR....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Weee..its been a long time since the last time i wrote something here. OMG! Sorry guys, i just don't feel like writing if it doesn't comes from the heart.weehhh!

Well, im still here in the Philippines for those who doesn't know.haha! I've celebrated my christmas and new year here after six long years that i stayed in Italy. And....of course, holiday will not be completed if three kings will not be celebrated. Well, well...well...it's my BEERDAY!haha..

Yeah, i'm here already for quite long ha. Uhmm...long wait untill i go back to where i belong. But definitely i will.

The past year had been oh soooo fast and so quite difficult? Come on, who never had a problem last year i'll go and kiss your ass. kidding! For you information, im still here in Manila and already working. Im in the trend of the "call center hoppers".bwahaha! Im already in my second call center job since August. Well, call center is the one indemand here and quite easy to get in. Fast paced life and you can earn as much as you need money.weehhh!!!

After a long stay here if you will ask me, im still adjusting. Weather, people, food and los of things. Actually i still can't adjust with the time. oh well...

I spent the Holidays at work. Urghh! Christmas together with my new colleagues, but its really fun. Giving gifts and free food plus the double special holiday pay.haha! Same with New Year, midnight that your suppose to be jumping and having fun outside with those firecrackers in the sky. With us, were taking calls.haha! However, 2008 is finished and i still consider it a great year. Made me a better person, gave me lotsa..lotsa friends here, there and everywhere. Just one thing, i was far, far from also the people that i love from the other continent.

Life here is tough especially if you leave by yourself. But i know this year will be a good one. yeah, what is optimistic right? haha... I'll be good..i know just like how i passed those trials from 2008 it will be the same with 2009. Definitely, i'll be better and i'll be stronger. Ayt?!

It will be my BEERDAY in two days...weee! i'll make the most out of it. Absofu*$%(lutely! :) So long guys...Take care..i miss all of you! mwahugs...

2008-08-21T19:51:00.002+02:00

Sometimes...

sometimes you think your okay...

you think that everything is doing okay.

sometimes you think that things are perfect(which will never happen)...

you think life is in favor of you...

but MOST of the time it'll lead you to disappointments.

Inhale...Exhale...take the deepest breathe and things will turn out to be fine.

Get a cup of coffee and take a cigarette.(lolz!)

Sometimes you just need to feel numb...

so you won't get affected at all.

Sometimes you just need to listen...

just keep your mouth shut.

Sometimes you just need to write it all down...

so you can express everything.

Sometimes you just can't fake it!

You just need to take it ALL out...

get a bottle of beer and LET'S DRINK TO THAT!haha...

It is always difficult for me to express what i inside of me. I don't know why! It may cause me a bad feeling but somehow i will just keep silent. Sometimes it is better to just keep it to yourself than to be misunderstood.

Oh well, tomorrow will be another day. Hope everything will be better.

2008-07-16T08:09:00.000+02:00

ALL ALONE.

Hi everyone! Its been a while...

Busy?! nah..i just can't think of what to blab about after the last time i updated. And now, its been days that im itching to write something on my "poor blog". Luckily we already have the free wifi here at the clubhouse.

How's my vacation? Well, yeah im still here in the Philippines to inform everybody.haha! Im here now for 3months and 2 weeks?! boh... But definitely im still here and i still don't know how long im gonna stay here. errrr! I miss everything back there the weather since its already summer, my friends, my work?!, the way my life had been for almost 6 years. I miss the persons that is so dear to my heart, but what can i do. Life is full of wonderful things that makes us realize just once in our lives. Unexplainable things happened for unexplainable reasons. Surely, i will continue to survive and be strong.

Vacation with papi and mami here in the Philippines was really fun. Eventhough we were not able to go visit lots of places but just spending time with them and the whole family is really nice. Cooking, making our own pizza everynight and the pasta lovers are just some of the things that we've done to make our days happy together. Going here, there and everywhere...

I don't know where to start, i don't know how am i going to express it with my own words. I'm back to the place where i grew up and the place that i called my "home". Leaving it in the first time was really hard for me, i couldn't imagine myself living in another world. Fears, doubts and hesitations were the things that was kept on my mind. Untill such time, i started opening my mind again and have learned to face the reality. How come it made me think now that i came back "home", but then it seems to be my another world now?...

I tried observing people, places and how things have changed since the time i left. It's completely different now...or it was just me who have changed and have been acting so different? Maybe now i understand, now i realized. I tried to be just the same like the way i used too before, but i was wrong. I thought it will all be the same when i come back from my family, friends and the whole environment were i came from...but no!

My parents just left almost two weeks now. Now is the time for me to prove to myself that i can do it all alone. I'm living at the condo unit of my cousin with her kids. I've got no work just helping her out with her own business and looking for the kids while she's not home. The reason why i was left here in the Philippines is because i've got some little problems with my papers going back in Italy. It would be too long to tell the story and im kindah lazy to write it here.haha! Anyways, im enjoying my stay here for the meantime. We live just right infront of the clubhouse where there is the pool, the gym and the KTV available whenever you want to use it oh, and the free wifi that you can use from 8am up to 11pm. I guess this is the time for me to analyze things. I'm going to start with myself. I used to go at gym at least 3 times a week and go swimming almost everynight. Then we go hear the mass every sunday. I've got my plan A and B because we'll never know what will happen. *wink*

Summer is over and rainy days are coming. For us, its all the same.haha! It was always like raining problems here and there. That for the past 3 months it was full of happiness and at the same time full of sorrows and hatred all over. Maybe i can share it on my next posts. Things that happened so fast and those things that you could never imagine. It's like "telenovela's" here in Pinas.hekhek!

I feel a lot better now. Blogging is just an outlet for you to express your deeper feelings and to minus the burdens that you have inside.

Prayers and Faith just like what Arianne told me. Patience, being happy and being positive is a plus to make it better.

Sorry guys for not updating. I'll try to make it all up when we already have our own DSL connection at home. I miss you all. Take care all of you.mwahugs.

2008-05-10T19:16:00.003+02:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Happy mother's day to all the mom in the world! Thank you for giving us the best life and all the love in this world! I love you, mom.(awww!)

Weee..finally! got to update my blog already.haha! It feels like its been years since the last time i've updated.haha! Actually i was chatting with bryantot when he told that he updated his blog and i told him im going to update mine too.weehh! I got jealous eh!haha...

Im still here in the Philippines. Yes, still dealing with the VERY HOT, VERY POLLUTED Manila.lolz! But in a way im having a good time eventhough im kindah worried with some other things. I know everything will be better in time, in God's will. Thanks for all the hopes that your giving me, you all know who you are. =) God knows whats the best thing for us and what we always need. Keeping my fingers cross untill i get there. HELPPP!!!haha..

I'm still trying to find time to go meet my other friends and have fun untill i can. I MISS MILAN!!!haha...

I MISS MY DADI! =( i love you.

2008-04-18T13:10:00.001+02:00

WELCOME BACK HOME!!!

Hello there guys! I know, i know its been a long time since the last time i updated. Well, obviously you can already know just in the title, im HOME! After six long years! Its exactly two weeks the time we arrived here in Manila. Its really hot, SUPER HOOOOTTTT here! Yeah what can i do?!

Well, my travel from Milan to Manila was a bit horrible.haha! Milan to Singapore is really tiring, 12hours of plane ride.DANG! I got sick after 6hours in the plane. I got suffocated and vomitted many times, because we were experiencing turbulence. I really felt bad, they even called a nurse stewardess there to ask me on what's going on. Oh well.. Oh, Singapore Airlines is really good ha! If you will travel try them. They really serve good food and the stewardess are really nice.

The main event is already finished. On the 12th of April my brother got married. Congratulations to the Newlyweds!weee... Everything went good and everything went okay. We stayed at the hotel for 3 days and two nights before and after the wedding. Oh! and i even cried at the reception i mean on the program itself.haha! The emcee called me up unexpectedly and asked me what will be my message for the newlyweds. Just right when i got the microphone in my hand i started crying.haha! I cant stop my emotions, my mom and dad were at my back and they cried too and without me knowing everybody just started to cry. waahhh! I guess they know how i feel.

I still have lots of things to do though. I need to update my sites and upload lots of pics. I still need to meet most of my friends here but i guess everybody is still busy. Wehh! i hope they will find time to do that for me. I really don't know when im coming back in Italy eh.

For now, im enjoying my stay here. Im having fun with my cousins and seeing everybody in the family. We always try to bond with each other after 6 years. Its just that im sick now because of the weather, ive got colds and flu.errrr! I don't even have my voice the past days up to now. waaaaa! Oh, and even papi got sick here. =(

Anyway, i'll try to update you with the other stuff im doing here. I just don't feel like writing now. Im starting to be sooo LAZY! Sorry! =( Take care guys! I miss my dadi..waahh! =P

2008-03-23T22:44:00.000+01:00

I've got something.

Thank you, Bryantot. Im now giving it to Astrid, Moieee, Bam, Nadine, Lea, and Tessa. I want to share it too to Tina, Romina, Nika and Tric but Arianne have already given it to them. Thanks alot guys. I love you all.

Happy Easter to you all!

I just stayed home today. We're supposed to finished the boxes to be sent in the Philippines before we leave but unfortunately mami told me we dont have any packaging tape anymore. Oh well...

Tomorrow is a HOLIDAY! oh yeahhhh...that means i can stay more in bed. wooohooo! I dont have any plans for tomorrow maybe i will start making a list of what things i still need to buy. So i will not forget anything when we leave. Im excited i can't even sleep at night anymore.haha! I always dream that im already in the Philippines and things. waaahhh! But at the same time im worried and a bit scared. I hope my documents will all be good. Pray for me guys. =(

Have a good week ahead guys! Take care and have fun.mwahugs.

2008-03-16T08:55:00.000+01:00

THIS IS IT!

Yeah, you read it right. This is it! Im going back home after six long years. Weeee!

We've already got the ticket.haha! After getting it and have seen it i just dont know how am i going to feel. I feel happy, worried, sad, excited actually mixed emotions. Im counting the days! I can't wait to see my family and friends but then i hate to go because i will miss my one and only. =(

I am busy most of the time now from work and preparing things of course. I need to buy lots of things, you know the "pasalubong" and stuff. First time to visit home eh.haha! Its like i work double and i spend triple. weeehhh!

Im lazyyy! Blame me for this, im lazy of updating my blog, my multiply and other things. I don't know why. Im just being lazy! I miss, miss, miss my blogmates. =(

I'll update you again on what's going on. Have a good sunday and have a great week ahead of you guys! Love you all!mwahugs.

2008-03-02T21:59:00.000+01:00

I'M OKAY AND STILL ALIVE.

Helloooo! Its been a long time. I know..i know...this is not good at all. =( I'm not updating often. Im not lazy though, im not..im not! It is not all about the mood too it is on how i feel most of the time. Well, im not depressed nor sad or im not feeling bad at all. Its just that maybe this happens to somebody. Feeling nothing, just being lazy. Sorry! =(

So, updates...updates. My last post was about the Valentine's Day. I guess it was my first time to be together with someone special.haha! Im used in going out with my girlfriends way back on my highschool days and college days. But time changes and the world doesn't stop from turning.

One month from now i'll be back in my hometown. Oh yes...finally after almost 6 years of not visiting my beloved Philippines. I'm gonna be home soon. Yay! Actually, i've got mixed emotions and i can't totally tell you how and what it is. Im happy that after long years of waiting i'll be finally home soon but then at the same time im kindah sad. I have to leave this place where for some years i have learned alot. Learned to fight, to be strong, to be good and at the same time to be bad(haha!), to be brave and lots of others. Also i'll be leaving my special someone. =( We've been together for not that long, but then i know things will be okay. Even if we will miss (Big time!) each other, we have too. Anyways, it will be just temporary. I'm hoping for the better after all these things that will happen. I will always keep my faith to Him because i know this is his will. I believe and i will continue to hope and pray for what is the best.

Forgive me...please forgive me for not visiting all your blogs. =( My bad..im so bad. Sorry guys! I hope you understand. I'll try my very best to at least drop and leave some prints on your blogs on whatever is happening. I still even have to update some of my sites like my multiply and others. I'll be busy already preparing my stuff buying this and that...think this and that. Oh well...

I'll be back soon again and try to post something interesting.(i hope!) This is all for now. Have a good week ahead of you and take care always. mwahugs. I miss you all!

2008-02-14T01:58:00.000+01:00

HAPPY HEART'S DAY!!!

Just want to greet you all! Have fun and Enjoy the day with your special one. If ever you don't have somebody to spend with, i think just wait for the next year.haha! Kidding. =)

The stories are to follow, i still don't know what will happen eh. =P Oh, i've already got my laptop. YAYYYYYY!!! Actually im using it already, ahhh finally! =) They said that they changed my harddisk that maybe it causes the heating then they also changed my cd burner or maybe not just repeaired it.haha! One thing more, they reformatted and upgrade my operating system. Gosh, how i love Olidata.hahayyyy! =) Im so happy, happy.

Well, i tried to put all the programs and stuff here in my notebook but i guess one day will not be enough. trust me! But then what can i do? Nobody will want to do it for me..Anyways, this will be all for the meantime. Im really feeling sleepy already, i can't take it anymore.haha! I need to wake up early to get to work and to finish a bit early so i can go meet dadi in time.=))

Okay, i have to go now. I have a date eh.haha. How about you? Are you going out? Just take care of yourselves and be good.hehe! Love y'all guys. Take care and be careful,mwahugs..

2008-02-12T00:05:00.000+01:00

EXCITED.

Yay!!!

I'm feeling so excited. You know why? Okay, i'll go straight to the point. My laptop is already repaired and i will just have to wait untill tomorrow to get it delivered. YAHHHOOO!!! Actually i sent it 2 weeks ago and im not expecting it to be back for that short period. I'm expecting it that it would take at least one month.

Good way to start my Monday and also for my blog. That means i can already update all mt sites and write more. I miss my blog and othet things here in the net. I can't do it here in my papi's pc because they also use it. For the mean time, i'll leave you this good news and ill share some more stories when i got my laptop back. I will have to put back all my programs and Voilà...

I can't wait...i can't wait...i can't wait untill i can have it again.haha! Overreating and Exaggerated me. hahaha! Anyways, i have to go now. I'm feeling sooo sleepy already. You take care guys. Love y'all. mwahugs. Enjoy the rest of the week.

2008-01-29T21:22:00.000+01:00

2008 Contract

And here's the contract!

After serious and cautious consideration...your contract of friendship has been renewed for the New Year 2008! It was a very hard decision to make. So try not to screw it up!!!

My Wish for You in 2008

May peace break into your house and may thieves come to steal your debts. May the pockets of your jeans become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline and may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires! May happiness slap you across the face and may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! In simple words ...May 2008 be the best year of your life!

I got this from Tessa. Thanks a lot! And i wanna share it to with my other lovely blogger friends Arianne, Bam, Bryan, Astrid, Romina, Sherma, Moieee, Tric, Nadine, Nika and Christine. Well, your not obliged to do the thingy but i would appreciate if you do.hehe! Thanks for being a part of my blog-o-sphere. Thanks for all the concerns and appreciations you have shared with me. Hope that we continue to share our deep thoughts and affection through our words with much sincerity. I love you all guys! mwahugsss...

Since i am up to tagging, i still have a pending tag to make so maybe ill try to make it now too. This one is also from Tessa. I'm not gonna tag anyone if you want it and feel like doing it you are free to do it so. =)

How long have you been blogging?

- I started blogging just a year ago. Actually i've got a first blog at another site but i deleted it for some certain reasons. Now, im staying here in blogspot for a year and three months to be exact.

What inspired you to write a blog, and who are your mentors?

- Arianne was the one who inspired me to start a blog. She introduced me into this wonderful world of thoughts. She is also my mentor. =) Well, other inspiration might be the people around me. They always give me the ideas of what to blog about. But most of the time it is what i really feel about.

What are the 3 things that you love about being online?

- communication. you can keep in touch with your friends and family wherever they are.

- wide source of information that keeps you updated on what is happening all over the world.

- I get to blog (share my own ideas and thoughts).

What are the three things that you struggle with in the online-world?

- My connection. Sometimes i don't get to use the internet because the connection is not good at all.

- I stay up really late especially when my friends are online. I can't help it! I just keep on talking and talking to them as long as i want without noticing about the time.

- Time difference. Since im living in the other part of the world from my original country its really hard to deal with it.

There yah go. I'm done again with another entry. Hayyy! what a good feeling.lolz! Gonna leave you all now, i need to go. Take care guys and Have a good week ahead of you.kisses!

2008-01-27T22:32:00.000+01:00

"HIATUS?"...

No, im not in "hiatus". Absolutely not!

It's been a while, i just dont know where and how to begin another entry here. Which i've always wanted to do. Somehow, now im here and trying to do my very best.

I felt like i've passed the longest week ever. Maybe it is because of some unexpected things that happened. I always have this problems about sleeping. I'm not having nightmares actually but i feel so disturbed, bothered and distracted when i woke up. I have this unexplainable dreams which always involves my family, friends and loved ones. Is it because i always think of lots, LOTS of things before i go to bed? Oh well, who can ever tell that. I know scientifically there would be an explanation, other people can share some reasons and give their own opinions about this.

Finally, i've decided what to do with my laptop.(waaa...BIG deal!) For two years im keeping it, i guess having problems like that is normal. It's not the virus neither the harddrive or software. It is something inside that makes it turns off. Okay, i've asked some help with some people i know at least to have the minimum idea about it. In the end, since i still have the warranty up to the 26th of January i decided to send it to the maker. I tried looking for some repair shops and asked how much it will cost me for my laptop to get repaired. They are charging me some 45euros just for the diagnosis of it and more or less a 100 up to 150euros for the repair. Duhhh! The only thing that im worried about is sending it to the maker. If im going to send it by a courier and it got damaged they will not be responsible of it regarding with just what i have declared. Well, i have taken the risk. I prepared the documents that i need to send them and put it on its original box(w/c is required, thank God i still have it). And now, i need to wait for their call or maybe email so i will know whats the real problem of it. I dont know how long it will take for them to get it repaired. =( Hope they will do it as soon as they can and send it back to me.

On the other hand, im trying to update my other sites little by little.haha! I've got lots of stuck photos from my phone that i haven't posted yet. Oh well, im going to post them when i feel like. To my blogger friends to be honest, i actually visit your pages and read your posts. It is just that i don't leave comments and tags and that i dont know why. Sorry! =( And i would like to thank you those who always visit and never fail to remind me of updating my blog. Thanks guys!

I still owe Tessa a tag, i will do it don't worry. =) Even it takes me a year to update my blog.haha! Kidding. So, for the meantime this is what my brain have digested and i think i cant do more than this. Lazy me!

Have a good week ahead of you guys! Take care.mwahugs.

2008-01-15T01:11:00.000+01:00

I GOT A VIRUS!!!

Yes, you read it right! My laptop has a VIRUS.waaaa! Thats why i'm having this problem. It turns off by itself. Like Summer told me on my last post, i should try changing my antivirus. I did change it, using the Avast antivirus. It is really nice though and i have found out that my laptop has a virus. It says that something was found but it cannot be deleted because it would be dangerous for the operating system. Gosh! its really frustrating. =(

In short, i cannot update things on my site for the meantime. But of course, i want to repair it as soon as i can. I'm going to see Arianne on Wednesday to help me reformat my laptop. Too good that i was able to back up all my files long time ago. Because i really want to bring it at the repair shop.

It's sad because i need to install again the program and stuff. I need to put all things in order. Oh well, it happens. hayyy!!! For now, i am using papi's pc. I have my things saved on my external harddisk. Its just that i need to get it and plug it whenever i need some files. And of course, its more comfortable using my laptop. =(

Anyway, this will be just a quick and short post. I'm feeling tired already and i want to go to bed. I will just update again soon. I'll go hop into your pages when i have my time. Take care guys. Have a good week ahead of you. mwahugs.

2008-01-08T23:35:00.000+01:00

One fine day.

Oh, i love the title ha.

Its been days that im itching to go bloghopping and reading posts from my blog friends. I missed commenting and tagging which i haven't done for some time. Hurrayyy!! finally i did it again. Accomplished! And one more, im going to update things here in my page..have you noticed something? I've deleted some links actually lots of those blogs that i dont even visit. I'm sorry about it.

One reason why im always not in the mood is its because of my laptop. I still have the same problems. It still turns off by itself. I really don't know what to do about it. HELPPPP!!! I want my laptop back because i can use it anytime i want. Not like here in papi's computer. Now that mami have learned using it and they play this card game. I dont want somebody disturbing me when im infront of the computer and also i have all the files in my laptop. Most of all im more comfortable using it, PERIOD. waaaa...

I would like to say thank you to those who greeted me on my Birthday. I didn't expect some of those people to greet me. I did not even expect much gifts but then i received them. Thank you for those who remembered and for those who did not.hehe! Its okay anyway.

I can't say that i've started the year good enough, maybe. I always consider starting my year after my birthday, its kindah close thats why. Now, im already 26 im not sure what is on my way untill i get there. Who knows about it untill i experience and go through it. New problems ahead, new things to learn, new things to discover, new things to think about, new things to deal with, new relationship...etc.

All i want is for me to continue what i have started before. Continue growing, understanding things better than before, be stronger than ever and learn from my mistakes. Like arianne always wanted for me. I was left behind and i guess now is the right time for me to start all over again. Thanks for always being there, eventhough you're not in the mood to see me on my birthday.lolz. Its okay, forget about it.

Everybody wants something better when New years come, who doesn't want it anyway.haha! Well, lets just keep on moving and try our best. We are the only one who can do it for ourselves right? Its also the environment who helps and affects us. So, lets make the most out of it. And let us not forget Him who always listens and never fail to be there in times of the our most difficult time.

I want to accomplish more, but i guess a day will never be enough. I just felt like being lazy early today. I woke up a bit early to checked my mails and chat then had my breakfast. Then after i suddenly felt soo bored just watching the tv. So, i decided to stay in bed and i fall asleep.haha! I woke up at 4pm without eating my lunch yet. What a day..i love it! At least i was able to stay at home the whole day and take a rest. yessss!

Well, i guess time for me to go. Take care everybody. love yah!mwahugs.

2008-01-05T11:49:00.000+01:00

Late xmas update, Leaving the 2007 and Happy bday to me!

Warning: This will be a very long post.

How you doing guys? I want to apologize for not updating for quite a while. "Not-so-in-the-mood" feeling and i dont need to elaborate them at all. I have too much things to say, it would just be some random things about what happened this Christmas and alot more things that i just want to let it out on my mind. Maybe i will just make it in a bullet form type just like what Romina told me. Let the game begin...haha!

Welcome 2008!

-Holiday? Well, I had fun this christmas. I did not recieve any gift but for me it isn't that important. What makes me happy is that i gave the kids their presents and they are all happy. For me, "its better to give than to receive" thingy really works. And im not even asking something in return, its christmas and it only lasts for a day. Giving gifts just makes me happy.

-I've got my early christmas gift actually. You want to know what is it? haha...Okay, it was a box of chocolate from Texas. Actually its a BOX FULLLLL OF CHOCOLATE! Butterfinger, Cocokrunch,Hershey's Dark chocolate and hershey's nuggets with four different kinds. Thanks for the early gift boo! so sweet, it will give me a toothache and stomachache at the same time.haha!

-Celebrating christmas with my new family is a big thing for me. My step sister from Ravenna came and stayed at my cousins house in Bergamo. Seeing the kids, playing with them, and taking care of them makes me soo happy and really fun for me. Papi cooked nonstop that day seafoods, veggies, cake, sweets, peanuts, champagne and wine. Anything more?haha..

-NEW YEAR?!! I've ended up the year 2007 a bit sad because i got sick. =( Yes, i've worked in the morning and i started not feeling well. I felt suffocated in the Metro and after that i vomitted and got diarrhea. When i got home in the afternoon i got ready because my step sis' husband will be coming to pick us up. Later that night i got fever and got bodyaches. =( We have eaten early and did the "Brindisi"(cheers!) at exactly 12pm. I drank some wine and i loved it. So, i ended up finishing the two bottles that was opened actually my step sis drank too but i drank most of it.haha! I did not get drunk though.Yay! I slept at 3:30 am because im waiting for my other cousin to arrive from work but i felt tired so i have to go to bed.

-I Drank ALOT on New years! After i finished the two bottles that night, we all woke up late and started to eat again. We opened another bottle and of course, i finished it too.haha! And when we got home, papi wants us to do the "brindisi"(cheers!) in our own place so we opened another bottle here. This time i did not finish it but i still drank some more. haha! Still sick?! No, sure i got cured by the wine that i drank. I did not even took some medicine for the fever but i got well after drinking. I think wine is a medicine for me. =D

-I can't say that my 2007 went well and was good enough. I think it was all balance for me. Another year of bad times and good time, hardships, obstacles, making decisions, adventures, Failed relationship and new ones, more friends and lotsa more.

-I want to thank all my blog friends. Thank you for always visiting my site eventhough im not updating much for the last months of the year. Thank you for all the good advices and concern you have given me. I want to thank most especially Arianne whose always there for me. Always there to understand me, to care, to listen and always there to kick my ass to remind me that im losing my track. Special thanks to Romina, Astrid, Moieee, Bamtot, Bryantot, Tina, Tric, Nadine, Bianca, Nika and Sherma. From our blogs to friendster up to our Multips..Thank you! I will always be grateful in meeting you in the blog-o-sphere and i hope i could meet you for real. Thanks alot guys and I love you all from the bottom of my heart.

-I might not be good in making decisions, but this year I can say that i made myself stronger and have learned lessons again. A relationship failed not because i want it but because i guess it is the best. Sometimes you have to sacrifice things for the better ones. Eventhough how much you care and love a certain person, time will come you have to learn how to let go. You have
to learn how to stand on your own feet in times of the very difficult times you are into. That Life is never been easy. You have to learn it in the hard way and move on little by little. No matter you cried for hours and hours and even for days. But also there are times of happiness inspite of everything. If ever you'll gonna read this you know who you are, thanks for the wonderful times that we shared. The feelings are true but i guess it would just be up to here and we have to ended it up. I want to be closer to you but i think you decided not too. Things happened with reason and it happened just the way it is. It found its own way for us to know and be in reality in the end. I'm happy on what i've thought that would be best for the both of us, even it broke my heart and gave me pain. But now, i've learned how to accept it even more. Reality bites.

-Papi and Mami. 2007 for my parents was a heavy one for them. Papi got operated in the heart for four times and mami got her uterus removed. They were hospitalized at the same month, so imagine me how i was able to do things here and there. Mami is doing well but she still got some problems regarding her hands. Then the thing that made me feel bad just after New year was when i got the news that papi will have to take the Insulin from now on. The doctor said that hiscase is rare. But im still hoping for better health for the both of them.

-One thing that made my Christmas really complete was to know about my papers getting done in time. Sooner i can have my papers and get a better job that i wanted. And of course, Philippinessss im coming!!! I don't want to count the chicks yet untill the egg is hatched. So i'll just update you about it. I will just keep my fingers crossed and keep on praying for the good things to happen. So, help me pray guys.

-The last quarter of the year have made a big changed for me. Its always like "it comes when you least expect it". You never know whats on your way untill you get there. I've met Ale along the way. We met, we hang out, we talked, we laughed together, we had fun and we have gone through bad times too. Even if we knew each other for not that long enough, but we share lots of things in common and we know how to deal with each other. I hope things will go smoothly and will be better in the future. Thanks for listening, for understanding my mood swings, for keeping me in your arms when i cry, thanks for caring about me and thanks for the love your giving me. Not much people know about us because i want to keep it a bit private.haha! Just close friends know about it and i dont want to talk much of it here. You know... Well, more fun this year, more happiness, success and love for the both of us. Goodluck dadi, I love you.

-I will never promise something this year, but i will try my very best in whatever i will have to decide and i have to do. I've made a mistake and have learned from it. I will continue to grow, try to be optimistic and balance things. I will try to be stronger than ever. Who knows what the year 2008 has for me and for my 26th year of existence here on earth. I will make the most out of it. CHEERS to 2008! Happy Birthday to me!haha...

There yah go...Finally, i might have forgotten some more things but at this time i think this is enough. I will try to go through your blogs and will update my page after. I'm sorry for not visiting you pages. =( I'll make it up to you guys! And to tina, i'll do the tag after. =)

Have a nice weekend guys. Love y'all!mwahugs.

2007-12-18T14:17:00.000+01:00

Oh..i love tuesdays! My free day..no work, no stress. I can wake up anytime i want and i can go wherever i wanted to go.

The truth is i don't know what makes me think of writing something for my blog. I just woke up now, yeah i haven't brush my teeth and even wash my face. Anyway, who among you can see me and smell me.haha! I can't stop this feeling. I just want to blab something i think.

I'm a bit bothered the past few days. Actually the past week was really a week of "STRESS" for me, lots of things happened. It was about me and my mom fighting on a certain thing. This is kindah crazy i know but i can't help it. We were having this "BIGGEST" issue about me having a boyfriend. duh! I don't know if she's just getting a conservative type or somebody who really cares about me. If im going to state it here this would be a long, long post. Maybe i will just give you a brief story about it soon. Im not in the mood to reason out and tell what and how the issue have gone out. Now, the situation is worse. It would be her birthday on thursday but i still don't feel like talking to her. It was Sunday, that we really have a "talk" not just a talk...well, it was really a "BIG TALK". I was able to tell her much of what i feel inside. I know i have hurt her but she did the same thing to me. It's not im having a revenge but that is how i am. I only want to express what i feel and whats on my mind. I don't know if it gave her something to think about but it doesn't matter because i know there are some others that can understand the situation. And even if, i guess i just need to do what i have to do. It is what makes me happy. It's been a while that i haven't decided on my own and reason out for myself. I just keep silent which sometimes leads you to something complicated. Well, i was able to tell something i was able to let it out for once.

See, when i have something to say i can't help it. I just think and write whatever i have on my mind, and it doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense at all.haha!

I wanted to say thanks for those who voted for me. Thanks for the big effort, anyways, its okay if i didn't have much of the votes. It's not a big deal.hehe! I just want to participate and enjoy that i got nominated. Thanks again. And to Nadine(special mention), sorry i was not able to post something earlier that the nomination thing is already finish.:) Sorry also for those who are asking about the links. I will try my best to update things here and i will go visit your sites.

There you go, i don't know what else to say. I know i'm super lazy posting something that really makes sense at all. Im sorry about it. =( I don't know whats happening to me. It started some months ago, i always think of what to write but then i can't put it into words.hayyyy...

Anyway, time for me to go. I need to get out of my bed, its already pass 2pm to be exact and im hungry. What a lazy ass!hahaha... Just have a good week ahead of you guys! Enjoy and have fun. mwahugs.

2007-12-11T11:35:00.000+01:00

JUST RANDOM.

Hello there! Just don't mind the title i can't think of anything nice for now eh.haha!

First thing, i've got a message on my Cbox that im nominated as a Filipino Blog of the week (week 86). I'm not expecting to win actually because im sure im not gonna win at all.haha! At least i just want to participate and it doesnt happened most of the time. It happened when i least expect, haha. I've never been updating my blog recently and now i get to be nominated. Anyway, when you have time you can vote for me HERE. Just look for the lists on the side bar and check my name "bombshellot" and then VOTE. I would be glad if u will vote for me and thank you for the big effort. Thanks!

I'm supposed to be posting this last night but then im already feeling sleepy, so i just go to sleep. Now, when i woke up im not feeling well. =( I'm starting to have colds and my throat really hurts. I hope this will not get worst for me. I DON'T WANT TO GET SICK! It is because the weather is starting to change. Getting REALLY COLD and sooo FOGGY! awwww..

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I just want to share some stories on like what happened last weekend. We've had 2 days of holiday, The "Santa Ambrogio" and the "immaculate Concepcion". Actually i did not take the Santa Ambrogio as my holiday i still work that day. So saturday i took it as my free day.

I woke up a bit late, of course. Ale picked me up before 4pm, he is supposed to be here by 3:30pm but then he got lost eh.haha! We left and my parents are also about to leave they are going to the Milan Fair in Fiera. I'm craving for some "ciokoloso" so we dropped by at iper. There were lots of people but i insisted because i really want one.haha! I got the caramel flavor of course. yummy!

As planned, we will go to Naviglio and have the "happy hour" after. Gosh! we've been to this place and its really nice. It is a small type of boat in the middle of the river, where you can see a long table with lots of food.hehe! They does the "happy hour buffet" just for 7euros. Nice deal! Drink is included and you can choose among the cocktails, beers and even wine. They have fresh mozarella, bread, fries, pasta, veggies and rice. And you can go back and get what you want as many times as you can.

We stayed there for a couple of hours and drink some BEER. We actually had 4 glasses of beer! haha. Fortunately, i did not got drunk at all or maybe just tipsy. *biggrin* We had the last glass and we left. We have to go at the other bar that will have an event for the night. Gosh! you won't believe i did not expect and never been to a bar small like that. It looks bigger on the picture on thier site and it looks really nice. But i guess we are expecting too much of it. It's really small, small like a room with a bar in the middle. Oh well, the admission is free. They have good music but then its really a small place to dance. So we decided to leave. *disappointed*

We go to this another bar. It isn't a bar actually, we have just seen in the site that they will do the Reggae night. So we tried it out. Admission is only 5euros, yeah its kindah cheap. Well, im not gonna comment on the place because i don't know how to describe it.haha! But reggae songs is really cool. Very relaxing. And of course, i enjoyed the whole night because im with my special one.*issue*

Christmas is on the way and nobody can stop it.haha! People are going crazy about shopping. Well, me too. I have to go look for the best deals in buying the gifts. Not too expensive but really nice and i hope i can find some.

Anyway, i have to go. Have a good week ahead of you guys. Take care.

2007-12-04T22:24:00.000+01:00

GIMME FIVE.

Heya!

I don' t really have something to say for now. hehe! Arianne tagged me so i think im doing it so i will have something to post. *biggrin*

5 Things Found In My Bag
cellphone
ipod
comb
money
keys

5 Things Found In My Wallet
(i really dont use a wallet.hehe!)
cards
photos
money
receipts
ticket

5 Things Found In My Room
(i really don't have room.haha!)
bed
laptop
lamp
books
my stuff

5 Things I’ve Always Wanted To Do
SHOPPING!
travel around the world
sleep
eat
talk on the phone

5 Things I’m Currently Into
working
browsing the net
checking my mails
watching tv
gift hunting

5 People to Tag for This Meme
Astrid
Bam
Tric
Nadine
Moieee

There yah go! Just gonna go visit your sites now. I still have one more TAG to do and its from Nadine. Haven't check it though. hihi..

Take care guys! Have a good week ahead of you. mwahugs.

2007-11-29T17:41:00.000+01:00

STRESSFUL DAYS!!!

I've been waiting for this moment, finally im alone and in a short time im at peace. Nobody is home, i just arrived from work, i ate and sit in front of the computer. Its been a wnile since i last updated this blog. No, nothing bothers me. Im just having this attitude lately that i don't understand. Im not busy, either. I have many things in my mind but i can't put it into words.

I'm having some difficulty of expressing my feelings the past week or maybe im just really STRESSED. Work, home, things and things around me. Just the past days im getting lost again. I don't know what and where is my road will lead me, will bring me and which road to choose. I lost my direction going to the place i wanted. i just don't know where to go. I need a break and i need some time to reflect and think of what is going on right now.

I have different stories everyday, things that maybe happening normally to other people too. It all started last week when i got pissed with my mom.(i guess this is normal) I just want to share it anyway, because up to now i dont understand what she wants me to do. This is my life and i have the right to do what i want. Yes, they are my parents they also have the right to say whatever they want too but not to dictate me and tell me exactly this is what they want for me. No, im not gonna argue again about those things im tired of it. So, i will just keep silent and let them "blah...blah...blah..."

Hopes...hopes...im loosing them day by day. But still, im here. So, i think im not! It's all in my mind. Im giving up, because i dont know what to think and do about with my other problems concerning with big things in my life. I was hoping that after waiting for some months my legitimations papers will be okay. Actually it got worst. I can't have them, papi will not have the authority to do it at the moment. The lawyer here told me to do it in the Philippines because it concerns about the Family code chuva..chuva. wehhh! I dont know! So, just thinking about it gives me big headache and all i can do is breathe hard and say "hayyyyy...is there somebody who can help me?(with my face looking up there and waiting for a miracle)". Im just getting confused what to do. But as what yana have said "things have its own reasons, meaning it will happen in the right time and right place whatever is the situation."

On the other hand, things are doing good. For the mean time, i think its all balance but who knows? I just go out and try to enjoy my day as much as possible. Think positive, stay calm(as possible as i can), eat and sleep, go out and chill. Ahhh! thats how life is! We need to enjoy and live it to the fullest as what they say. Inspite of the ups and downs. The world never stops on turning. Gah! easier said than done ha!

Oh, christmas is on its way and nobody can stop it.haha! I just noticed and think that in a month and so ill be turning 26.hehe! Thank you guys for visiting. I'll hop on your pages soon. For sure gonna update my other sites too.hehe!

Take care guys! have a fun friday and a great weekend ahead! mwahugs.

2007-11-15T00:53:00.000+01:00

BLAH!!!

It's already midnyt to be exact. My mind says: "come on, update your blog. write something." Oh gosh! its been a while. Its true that i need to blab something new here, something interesting. But why do i always feel like this? I always wanted to write something but i just can't when im infront of the computer. I guess this really happens to some bloggers who used to write. It is an unexplainable feeling. I hope time passes and this feeling as well.

So, whats up with me? Nothing really big.haha! I just cant explain what i really feel for the mean time. It's a bit of everything. I think too much the past days, then in general im feeling depressed, frustrated, pissed & confused. Oh, did i say im feeling bad? hehe. Something wierd is happening and things is not working the way im expecting it. But what can i do? deal...deal...deal with it.

Im trying to transfer my files to my new external harddisk because i have to give to my papi the older one. I'm not expecting that it will take like 3hours for just some 20GB of files transfering to another. Is my computer slow? or the files is just really heavy? dont have any idea about it.

Of course, now im starting to get random again. Oh well, nothing is new with that.haha! WOuld you believe, i've drank 3 cups of espresso coffee in a half day. (just shows im a coffee addict, it's irresistable.) The first was after eating my late lunch then another one at around 8pm. Unexpected guest came in at around 9pm so i have to prepare some coffee again. Like what i said it's irresistable, i dont like to have another cup of coffee but i still did it.

Too much caffeine today and like what they always say coffee will not make you sleep. Instead, after the guest left i just lay my back on my bed for a while and "ZzzzZZZZzzzz....".haha! I guess i got high with coffee.lolz. Didn't even know what happened on the thing that i was doing. When i woke up, my laptop was off. I don't know what happened maybe my harddisk is working too much, it got hot and turned off automatically like it used too. Oh well...

Inspite of what is happening i can still say im okay. For now, i just can't focus on other things. Im kindah disappointed with what happened on something that im expecting about. It's like when it comes to serious things, i never fail to have those "shits" happening. But then just like a friend says: "things happens with a purpose and its always have a reason. Meaning there is always a better one coming.". I hope for the better.=)

Now, i dont know what else to say.haha! I'm starting to feel lazy again. My brain has something inside but i just can't let it out.waaahhhh!!! what is wrong with me?

For the time being, im enjoying of going out and hanging out with somebody. I have met somebody else along the way and not everything has always a good result.wehehe. I'm kindah sorry on what happened the last time i met someone but then why do i need to pretend? this is me, im just being me because that is how i really feel. As well as to avoid acting rude.

Change...another topic, another story, what else? say something more..more..haha! I like it when my friend Astrid visit my page and and leave a tag "Ate!!!!! update na." It's really cute.haha. I just find it so sweet and i don't know why.

So, time for me to go. My brain cells are starting to freeze again. Speaking of freeze, gosh! its starting to get cold here. Anyway, no matter what we do and say it is already autumn and winter is on its way. So, useless to talk and blah..blah..blah. Time for snow..snow...snow..again. weeee!

Oh, now my bed is calling me.haha! I better go now. Thanks for visiting my blog eventhough im not updating it often like i used too. Thanks guys! I'll hop on your pages as soon as possible. Hope it will not take me years to do that. haha! *crossing my fingers* Enjoy the rest of the week guys. I miss yah all. Love yah.mwahugs.

2007-10-31T23:00:00.000+01:00

"SHORT STORIES."

NOTE: A post that is supposed to be posted last sunday. =)

What's up? How's everybody doing? Been a while since i wrote my last post. Well, im guess im just having my "writer's block" as what they to call it. I always had lots, lots, lots of stories to tell and some topics to write and it just got stucked on my mind. Whenever im infront of the computer i just can't think of anything, really blocked. I hope this time will pass, i dont really write that often now like i used too. =(

My week is a bit of everything. It all started Monday, im supposed to wake up at 6am. I'm sure that i've set my alarm but then i did not even hear it rang. So, when i open my eyes and look at the clock it was already 6:40am. My eyes really got big and i don't know whats the first thing to do. I took my shower really fast and dressed up and run to the train stop. Thank goodness that i was able to make it, im late for only half an hour. haha! Followed up by the next days of the week. I don't know why i do not hear my alarm rang and it makes me think how do i put it off. Impossible that i don't hear it but i turn it off.haha! Well, its like there are two things that used to happen to me in the morning. If i don't wake up in time, it would be the train taht is late because of traffic or some accident happened. ahhh..I just need to get used to it.

Rainy season is up too. It rained the past days and it would rain for the next days. I hate rainy days, i hate it when my pants gets wet and my shoes(haha!), i hate to bring umbrella, i hate it when i get wet. In short, it sucks! haha. I know its rude, but hey thats how i am so mind your own.haha!

And for now, everything is under control. I wake up in time and arrived work just right. Too much things to do, some stress but everything is okay. Normal days like it used too. Some good things and bad things came along but need to know how to deal with those.

Yesterday, i've had a great day. Food tripping! I met my new friend...I used to call him "dadi".hehe. He was scheduled for an interview for work and he doesn't really know the place so i accompanied him. Imagine, i came together with him up to his interview.haha!(no, i mean i've waited in the sala of the company untill he got finished) Kindah funny! Goodluck again! I hope you will get that work. :)

So, after that were both starving. We decided to go at the resto were we used to eat. I ordered the "latin plate" well it was really good..im oh so full!!! I have eaten fries, wanton fritti, fried spareribs, chinese rice and salad. Oh, i did not eat the salad though.hehe!

We decided to go at the mall after. We just did some window shopping, there were things thats on sale and i cant resist on buying one.haha! I'm goin back next time! =)

You see the pic? Well, its an ice cream! There was this promo "5euro for a 750grams of ice cream". We asked the lady how big it will be and when we saw it oh..it would be really lots of ice cream and we really want to try one. We chose 4 different flavors pistacchio, straciatella, amarena and i dont know the other one how it is called but it as nuts and oh i really dont remember.haha! Then the girl gave us lots lots of that biscuit. awwww!!! It's
really good! We never thought that we will be able to finish it. First time to eat that much icecream.haha! It's almost a kilo.haha! Were the real "ICE CREAM MONSTERS". oh, too bad no panna(whip cream) available.

I would like to thank those who visited and greeted my blog. Gladly appreciated and was really happy that you all became a part of my blog-o-sphere for a year now. You're all my inspiration. Thanks a lot! I love you all!

Tomorrow is holiday!!! yay! But i know we will have some visitors.(just like everyday!) Anyways, i can stay in bed as long as i want and get lazy. awwww...

Happy Holloween to everybody! Have fun and enjoy the rest of the week. take care all of yah! gonna start hopping. love y'all!

**For more photos you can visit my MULTIPLY SITE. Thanks. :)

2007-10-18T18:16:00.000+02:00

RENEWED.

Yayyy!! It's my BLOG's first birthday today!. Happy birthday blog!. More years of posting and writing! Thanks also to all my BLOGGER's friends, you're all my inspiration. Love you all!

Honestly, i forgot the exact date of my blog's birthday. I thought it was October 16 but when i saw it it's the 18th of October.hehe! Good thing because im kindah worried about my layout thingy. I really wanted to change it, new look for its first year. And yay!!! i was able to do it last night. I wanted to say thanks to Arianne for helping me with all the codes and things. love yah girl. It was her birthday the other day, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YANI! Sorry, for the late greeting. lolz.

Many things have changed for the past year. Having a journal like this helps alot. Learning about the codes, the creativity, gaining lots of friends on the cyber world, letting you express your deepest emotions, learning about others experiences, learning to give your own opinions and learning how to appreciate others.

It makes me feel happy when i know others feels the same way like i do. Though, they just read, think and imagine what was written. Somehow they are able to give advices, choices and helps you think what can be your best decision would be. They make you feel better at times, just reading the comments that in the other part of the world there are people who cares for you.

They became my inspiration and influenced me in many ways. Aside from being bored most of the time, you learn lots of things just browsing and reading other stories and adventures. Making them part of your life and getting to be your routine.

I love my blog.haha! It never talks and never complains, instead it helps you to feel better. Just think, then tick-tack your keyboard and all those positive and negative things will get out of you. I know sometimes i post nonsense or things that other people can't catch up but then this is mine and i can do, write and say WHATEVER i want too. Because, i also RESPECT the others.

I'm happy from the bottom of my heart to be part of this so called "BLOG-O-SPHERE". And im loving it more....

Have a great Friday guys! Take care always...mwahugs.

2007-10-11T22:08:00.000+02:00

I'VE GOT ORANGE!!!

What Color is Your Brain?

ORANGE: At work or in school: I need to be "hands on": I like to play games, to compete, and to perform. I enjoy flexibility, changes of pace, and variety. I have difficulty with routine and structure. My favorite subjects are music, art, theatre, and crafts. I often excel in sports. I like solving problems in active ways and negotiating for what I want. I can be direct and like immediate results.
With friends: Planning ahead bores me because I never know what I want to do until the moment arrives. I like to excite my friends with new and different things, places to go, and romantic moments.
With family: I need a lot of space and freedom. I want everyone to have fun. It is hard for me to follow rules, and I feel we should all just enjoy one another.
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TOINK! i got tagged.hehe! thats it. I don't have much to say at the moment. At least tags is a big help! hurray... It's easy to do rather than thinking of what to say here in this big blank space. Most of all, you have something to do out of BOREDOM.

I'm just chillin' at home the past week. I'm kindah enjoying it anyway. Just chatting and going out at the same time. Camwhoring and exploring Photoshop. That's how my time passes, a bit of everything everyday. Work, home, chat, internet, talk on the phone, chores(haha!), sleep, eat...same things everyday! B-O-R-I-N-G!!! haha.

Anyways, still not sure what will be my plans this coming weekend. Im thinking a lot of things to do but we will see which will be the best thing. I hope it will be fun. =) At least to take away all the stress from the past week. Im not making sense i guess i need to stop! haha...

Have a great weekend guys! Take care and have fun...mwahugs.

*Im tagging: Aryan, Bam, Tina, Sherma, Moieee.

2007-10-05T01:36:00.000+02:00

"IRRESISTIBLY UPDATING."

U-P-D-A-T-E...

*Warning: could be a long post (as usual) and of course randomness.

I have not been updating my blog for some time. Reason? I don't know. I just don't feel like writing at the moment. I feel like "im-not-in-the-mood" thingy for the past week. At the same time, i have been busy with other things here and there. So, this time i have updated everything and every single site i've got.lolz! Okay, time for me to start my ramblings. Get ready!

Events in the family never stops, even after the wedding and things. Two weeks ago, my aunt from Norway have visited. I thought they will not come anymore but then they arrived saturday afternoon. We were not able to look for a Hotel for them here or near at the center because they are all fully booked because there is an EXPO happening at that time. It's been a bit difficult for them becuase they have to travel long just to get at the center. Anyway, everything turns out good. We have seen them again after a couple of years. And they have already promised us that next year they will spend more days staying here and will tell us ahead. I hope everybody will be able to come and visit because there were some other that was not able to go with the gang.haha! Thanks for the visit and i hope to see you all soon again.

The past week was full of happenings, as always. Yana and I have seen each other as often as we could. Haha! We were just making up the days and months that we were not together.lolz. Rain or shine. I even skipped work, because i'm feeling LAZY! We just want to make "bonding". haha Actually..nevermind. Nonsense.

Accident Updates: One day, i hit my head on an angle under the stairs. I thought i have fainted and i've seen stars all around.lolz. "OUCHNESS!!! IT REALLY REALLY HURTS!" Good thing that it did not bleed, actually it happened twice already. I hope there will be no third time.haha! Another thing, my right thumb is swollen for almost 3 days. I don't know what is wrong with it. I'm not sure if it is a small sprain or i've hurt it really bad on doing something. I don't know what to do about it, just gonna wait untill it goes back to normal.

Oh, i would like to thank my dearest blogger friends for those sweet tags.haha! Somebody is messing up on my tagboard again. For me, it is not a big deal anymore. It will be just a big waste of time for me. I might be insulted with it but who cares, that what makes the person happy so let it be. It happened not only once, not twice but many times. So im used to it. What caught my attention is when i have seen the email addy he/she have left on the tagboard. "illpullyoudown@yahoo.com" Oh, scary? NAHHHH!!!! Nobody can ever do that to me. Nobody will have the chance to do that, unless you come infront of me, face to face and kill me. *oh,thats kindah harsh ha?!* So, if ever you know how to read..i mean if ever you'll gonna visit again here and read this well, be happy this will be the last time that i will give you my attention. Your not worth my time.

Who got a MySpace account? I finally signed up on it.haha! I've already got two sites besides here and still i have extra time to update it. I think im enjoying anyway.haha! I'll put it on my links anyway so you can just click and visit it when you also have your extra time. I'm still planning to have the last site, the Deviantart. I need it, i have to open one because that is where i can put my works and serve as my portfolio. I'm excited about it.

It was funny, the other day you won't believe it. I chatted for five long hours straight and after another 3hours. My mom was observing me and told me if the keyboard are still okay.lolz. Never been doing it for some time, i have fun for a while.

I'm a bit frustrated yesterday. We've been at the store where i have bought my laptop. I bring it there because i still got the warranty untill January 2008. But then, they did not accept it. I lost my receipt of purchase, which is without it they could not really do anything to help me. I was really really frustrated. I tried looking around and check on my old things but i have not found it. So, now i have to pay for my own expense and take the risk of bringing it on a technician. I hope nothing bad will happen on my laptop. Hayyy...

It was strange that i have had this feeling of updating everything continously. I was able to do my MULTIPLY, FRIENDSTER and my new MySpace account. And my blog will be the last thing for me to do becuase i know writing here will take me sometime. Anyway, i will change my layout again. I'm excited that my blog will be turning "one year old" in some weeks now. WOW!!! So, expect for a big change. I HOPE!!!

I'll try to visit all your blogs as soon as i can. =) Thanks for always visiting. Take care guys. Have a great weekend!

2007-09-20T19:34:00.000+02:00

"ONE AFTER THE OTHER."

I dont know what to put on my title eh.hehe! Nothing in particular, just random things and events that happened for the past week. Some are good and some are bad? maybe or maybe not!

TONY AND LINDA! (the newly weds)
After celebrating my parent's 1st year wedding anniversary, another couple from the family have made their vows last saturday 15th September. Actually, the day was kind of a disaster for all of us. It started just in the morning. My cousin's husband have told us that they will come here and pick us up as early as 10am. Since me and my mom are sooo "VAIN" then we need to get up early and get dress slowly.lolz. I used to sleep at 3am everyday but since we have too much things to prepare mami and me slept at 5am. haha! Mami needs to clean and color her nails thats it and prepare papi's things. Me? nothing...just want to stay with her until she's up and chat.*biggrin*

I slept for only 3hours and took my shower and prepare. Have eaten my breakfast and wait for them to arrive. Papi called them to ask if what time are they coming. They say they are almost ready and ready to leave. Anyway, we dont have any choice but just have to wait. For me its okay because i will still have my vain moments.lolz! Of course,picture...picture...picture!....

The wedding ceremony will have to start at 11am. I've never seen an italian wedding ceremony so i would really love to witness it. Waiting...11:30...still waiting...12noon...still in the house. Go out..walk...sit in the couch...lay down...ZZzzzzZZZzzz...and finally fall asleep. Dang! 12:30...*raise eyebrows* *sniff*. Ask papi: "Are we still going to attend the wedding?" *pout* Papi is already mad and im already complaining im kindah pissed already. We all woke up soo early just to prepare and for them not to wait. Oh well, they arrived at 1pm. They explained that they got lost and everything. To think that they already have their navigator with them and still they got lost.duh! lame excuses..lolz. Anyway, and the adventure did not ended up on our way there we got lost once again. And finally we were able to reach the place before the groom and the bride entered the garden. uff...

After saying hi and hello to everybody, making beso beso and shaking hands to the other persons to were i have seen the first time. It was really fun because i was able to meet almost the whole family and other relatives. Uncles and aunts, little cousins, niece and nephews. The feeling was great. We had fun dancing and singing and of course the long serving of the food. haha! We started eating from 2pm and finished untill 7pm. that was totally crazy! From apperitives to antipasto then served first plate and second plate,fish, meat, veggies and salad up to desert and finally the cake. And dont forget the first class wines, red and white wine and of course champagne and spumante. I almost got drunk though.*devil's laugh*

Oh and the boquet throwing and catching, it landed just infront of me.haha! funny. I wont get it anyway.lolz! All in all it was fun! Im happy to be part of the new family. I was even called for the picture of the whole cousins. I was like: "oh, am i included?!". One great experience and actually there was already a line up for the upcoming weddings. For 2009 it would be my cousin stefania and his boyfriend and for 2010 it would be tony's brother named marco and his girlfriend...then 2011 would be ychel and...ha?WTF!!! just kidding. =))

On the other part, the week ended up a bit heavy. I mean because some other things turned out to be "bad". It was just like a glimpse and ta..tannn! Oh well, one couple have announced their love for each other and the other had broken up. Balance of Nature as what they say.haha! Did you get me? =D Oh well, that's life. Move onnnnn...

Im a bit scared that one of these days i might be ending up at the emergency room again. My kidneys are starting to fail again i think.It really hurts this morning that i almost cried at the train because of the pain im feeling. Too good it stopped for a while untill i reach home. Thank goodness!

And oh on my way home, ive encountered this two kids. Not just kids, but two kids who robs or pick pockets. I just knew those faces, because most of them has their own territories. I mean those two kids make thier life in that place, they stay there the whole day just looking and staring at everyone from whom they can make the robbery. And they dont even get shy, they just knew that i was at their back and still they tried to rob the other woman infront of me. but then the woman knew that somebody is trying to open her bag so she turned her back and have seen the two kids. And you know what? the other kid came close to me and hold my arm. I keep my hands on my cellfone on my pocket because he was looking at it, and i screamed at him. He just got my arms unexpectedly and i was shocked and pissed. Then i turned my back and told them to go to hell.hehe! i know its R-U-D-E! amen.*biggrin*

Well, to sum it all up im okay and im doing good inspite of and despite of everything that is going on. I can still cope up with things around me. I know that the decisions i have made is all in the right time and place. Maybe or maybe not..who knows? But as far as im concern, i think its time. Some were happy and some are don't.hehe! Anyway, i dont want to elaborate things here i would rather just keep it to myself. And to whoever wants to know about it then just ask me.haha! too controversial ha.lolz!

I would like to share a conversation with a friend. It was really cool, funny but really true. I dont know how he came up to think of it but it was really interesting.haha!

girl: eh how bout broken hearted, something that we can do to repair it?
boy: same
boy: reboot
boy: find some1 good like a best bud to reinstall trust
boy: just like a good virus always get free anti virus
girl: wow
girl: tnx
girl:ill try to do that
boy: but if it is not that damaged or broken dont reformate heart
girl: haha
boy: and pls dont use windows on it
girl: wat do i need to use then?
boy: linux na or mac
girl: haha
boy: opera for surfin people
boy: less virus and people can send trojan to ur heart

(thanks to you! you know who you are.hehe! you never fail to give me simple advices and hugs.thanks! =D)

Cool and interesting.haha! Im happy..so happy that my partner in crime just came back! awww..Anyways, eventhough we're kindah occupied of things i know we can pass this through..oh and to our friend Bryantot! haha..super uber busy to the max. And to my fellow loving bloggers...i miss you guys! i know you are all busy with school and stuffs but im just here. I'll wait for your posts, hehe!

Take care all of you and be good. Goodluck! Love y'all!

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2007-09-12T20:02:00.000+02:00

"SIGNS..."

I have always thought that dreams are good signs and serves as my guide. I know not everything are true but they can always happen. Their meanings could be good or bad. It could also happen not exactly on what we have dreamnt but then could be similar. I don't usually have dreams at night but when it happens it always remains on my thoughts and really meant something. When i wake up, its always fresh and lingers on my mind untill i found out what could be the possible meaning of it.

Two days ago, i have dreamnt of a dog who is attacking me and have bitten me on my legs. This is how the story goes. I was with my friends, my highschool friends in the Philippines. I could not remember the exact place but i know im in the Philippines and it is somewhat like we are having a gathering. I told them i forgot something at home and i will go and get it and go back to them. Going back there, what i have seen is a long way not actually a street but with typical houses at the side of the street. I've returned at home 3 times because i can't get what i really needed. On my way, i cross the street and took the other way. I thought it will lead me on the place where i have to go but it is somewhat like a private place or something. So i have thought of coming back and will go the other way. But then a small dog was coming near me, its not barking and not really mad but then i know it will really harm me. Then as soon as it approach me it bit my lower legs and then came another 4 different dogs. They really want to hurt me too. Two of them are big dogs and the other is i cannot remember. Then i started crying and asking help. Then i have seen that my mom and dad came over to get me. Then its like the owner of the dogs are mad and saying it is all my fault. Dang! when i woke up i looked on my legs because it seems it happens for real. I tried looking for what it means and here is what i got.

Dog
As a general rule dogs in a dream are a good omen and symbolize friends. Of course, the interpretation varies according to the action and other details in the dream, but it is fairly straightforward. If the dog was friendly and affectionate, it signifies pleasure and happy times with friends; a fierce or snarling dog suggests disagreements or an untrustworthy friend; and if it bit or attacked, you are being warned to look out for actual deceit or harmful trickery from someone you have trusted. To hear a dog bark happily signifies pleasing social recognition, but if it barked fiercely, you are being warned of possible legal troubles. To see dogs fighting indicates that you may be called on to arbitrate in an argument between friends, in which case you must be extra tactful to avoid ending up the odd man out. If the dog in your dream was an exceptionally large one, it signifies protection through a powerful friend.

There you go. Well, i feel a bit upset of what it means. I know it is really a sign or really means something important to me. I only have few friends around and i know they are real and are true friends to me. And if ever it is true im not sure what will really happen because my friends are one of my weakness. I don't really like hurting and losing them. But i think i need to be very careful about it. Who knows?!

Well, its not yet finish. I fall asleep again and my dreams continue.hehe! Another thing that i have dreamed about is im together with another friend. I have in my thoughts that we are going in a certain place. And we are thinking which way to go. I told my friend Allan that we could take a jeep or a bus going to the place. But then we have seen long streets or road that was a railroad before. I told him maybe we can try that way, just that we have to walk and choose if we are going to the left or at the right. Then we ended up asking to somebody on which way to go. The man told us that we are in the right path, the way that we are thinking will lead us to the place that we are going. By then, we decided to go and started walking. End of the story, because i already need to wake up and go to work.hehe! So here is the meaning that i have found.

Street
Strange streets signify profitable new ventures or associations. Curving or crooked streets indicate travel and surprises. A very long street suggests that you will need much patience before you get what you want.

Railroad
Whether they were old-fashioned or the streamlined type, railroad tracks in your dream signify good fortune in the offing. If you were walking the ties, you will achieve your aims through prudent hard work, but if you were walking the rails, you will be helped by influential friends.

The dreams matches i think. I want something or maybe really want to achieve something so that means i need to be more patient. Anyway, i have been patient for almost 26 years.haha! And still im trying to move on and striving hard to get what i really wanted. I know thats a good sign for me not to give up on anything. Meaning everything is on the right track just need to hold on and be strong so as to reach all what i desire.

HAPPY 1st YEAR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!!

It's their 1st year Wedding Anniversary today, September 12. And also it's ERICK'S birthday, my best bud from the Philippines. I wish you all the luck, success and happiness and more love.
Time really is so fast, that we never knew a year have already passed. That our lives has changed soo much for a year now. The way we speak, the way we act, the way we eat, the way we dress...everything. But still we are Filipino in our hearts and in our blood. Im happy that my mom have found somebody like papi. He is really a good person. He is full of love, wisdom and brave enough to face everything in life. He loves me like his real daughter and as well as his family. We are treated like not other people in the family, that they have accepted us inspite of our different culture. One of the blessings that i'm really thankful. God have given us another chance especially me to have a father that will guide me and give me advice even if i dont need them. Im wishing both of them more love, happiness together, stronger faith and most of all good health. Take care always and i love you both soo much.

So, do you like my new hair cut? i did not cut them really short because winter time is coming and better if i let it grow longer. My hair really needs a trim, at least every other month or every two months. I also keep it as layered, i dont know why. hope you like it. Oh, one more thing. Arianne is arriving tomorrow. Yay!!! She was gone for almost 2 and a half months for her vacation in the Philippines together with her sister. And i miss her soo much. Anyway, nonstop stories ahead when she arrives tomorrow.hahaha!

Finally, was in the mood to change my layie.hehe! Just want to change the color and the image and some other things but not really a new, new layout. At least, my blog goes with the owner new hair new layout.lolz. If i still have time i'll try to change my friendster layout and update my multiply.

I better go now. Have a good weekend ahead of you guys. Take care always. Love y'all. mwahugs...

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2007-09-07T22:49:00.000+02:00

BACK TO REALITY!

Finally, i am back here! Got the "mood" to at least write something new here. Sorry for not posting that often. Im not in a "haitus mood", not even that "uber busy". I think im just being "LAZY" for a while and i dont know whats the reason. Well, everybody has the right to become one sometime.haha!

Summer is almost over in a week. Sun will start to rise a bit late now or sometime soon you'll not gonna see it everyday again. Cold and breezy early in the morning. Those beautiful flowers that bloom for at least three months will soon be dry again and their leaves will begin to fall. Sun will not be up until late like it used too two months ago.

Mind will be always be occupied and "STRESS" will always be there again. Work, work, work, and work! For another half year, people will all be "WORKAHOLICS" again. We are back to reality!

I'm just worried about the coming season again. Fall/Autumn and Winter will be coming soon. I hate rainy seasons, but i love snow. Oh well, nobody can stop it. I hope we will not have too much rain this year and too cold. Like "my ass is freezing". LOLZ!

Enough. Let's go at the other part of the world now. Since i did not post something for a while i would be random this time. Did you hear it? RANDOM...

I was sick for a while, i think it was two weeks ago. I always got stomachache and my lower right side of my stomach is aching, up to my lower right back/hips. My father is worried that it might be my appendix. I was asking him to bring me at the Emergency but he told me that we cannot go there unless it will really be emergency. If ever i will have to be forwarded to a private doctor and will have to pay for it. It will costs me alot for just that visit. So, i have waited untill last monday to go at my mom's private doctor. The doctor said that it is my previous Urine problem. I was hospitalized for a day because i've got that pain all over my lower stomach up to my back. It means that my kidney is not working properly. I was also examined and they have found a small piece of rock where my urine passes through, which makes it difficult for me to pee. The doctor advice me to at least eat foods with less salt, avoid eating junk foods (grrr..how can i do that?!), not to eat oily and fried foods like french fries, hotdogs (NOOOO!!!), fried chickens and all the same. I cannot drink softdrinks and sodas anymore. Also to do the diet for at least two months. DUH! What you think of her advice? not eating those foods will really make me thin. AHH!! DO you think i still have to do the diet thingy! thats R-U-D-E!!!ampf.

Anyway, im trying my best now to avoid them.(ahuh!!!LIAR!haha.) Since my father is the one cooking his trying to be careful of the food that he cooks. (not true! im spoiled, he just bought me some fried mexican chicken!)haha! Well, i have to avoid them little by little. I hope i can survive unless i want to spend another day in the hospital in the future. But i hope not! I'm afraid of the injection and dextrose. i hate them!

I thought my vacation will end up really happy but oh well, something bad happened. The last week of my vacation turned into "NOTHING & BORED!". Im all prepared and was doing all that depiling the day before my departure. Papi got a call from Enrico saying that i dont need to go at Ravenna anymore because my sister and the family is already preparing going to Naples. The father of my sister's husband is given 12hours to live. He cannot breathe anymore so they need to make a hole in his neck and one of his lungs were already removed. Then other complications came along. He died last Sunday and was buried Monday. Let's just offer some prayers for him that finally he will not suffer and will have pain anymore.

So, after that we were all shocked and at the same time im kindah disappointed. But anyway it means we will have more fun the next time. Im expecting that we will be going at the amusement park and then i will have to spend the last two days at the beach playing with my niece and nephew. Kindah sad that it did not happened. Anyway theres always be the next time.

I spent the rest of my vacation at my cousins house at Bergamo. Well, i got really "bored" there but thank gawd that my niece and my nephew is there to make me happy, at least. I have fun playing and taking care of them. The weather is not that good so we can't go at the the swimming pool. So we stayed at home. Papi did some artwork on the wall because my cousin is renovating their living room so i helped out. And the truth is, im LAZY! haha!

My right shoulder hurts now, i guess i got some cold outside. The weather is changing from time to time. I can't really move it and i still have to work tomorrow. And earlier this morning, my nose is bleeding. But i think its normal for me, because it always happens when season is changing. Oh, i also got a small cut on my face i dont know how i was able to get it. hehe! Don't worry guys, im okay and everything will be fine.

I want to take this chance to say THANK YOU to all of you. For those who used to drop by at my blog, for those who reads my post and leave their very touching comments as well as leaving some tag. Thanks a lot! Your opinions and advices helps alot. It really shows that most of you appreciate what im writing and accepts me for who i am. Without you guys, i will not be inspired writing one. You're my inspiration and my strength. You all give me hopes and helps brighten my mind. Thank you to all of you. You all have been a part of my life for almost a year now. I may not be visiting all your pages that often but always think that you are remembered and loved by me.awww! I love you all!

Yayy!!! my friend ARIANNE is coming back from the Philippines by next week. I can't wait to see her again. I really miss her sooo much! She's my little sister here and we are partners in crime. Oh, we've got one thing in common. We are both "CAMWHORES"...so better watch out "PICTURE ADDICTS" will be back very soon!haha.

I will have my haircut tomorrow. yahooo! New look again. I have to cut them, they are getting long again and got dry because of too much expose under the sun. Just on timing, by next week we have to attend a wedding. I still have to buy a dress i think but i still have to check my closet, maybe i dont need a new one because i still got some clothes that i have not use. We will see.hehe! Mami just bought me a new hand bag. DAMN!!! i really love it. It's really nice together with a new sandal.haha!

I have to go guys. Have a great weekend! I'll go drop by at your pages as soon as i can. Take care all of you! mwahugs.

2007-08-28T02:00:00.000+02:00

CONSTANTLY CHANGING...5 YEARS!

This will be another big day for me. Another day that i will never ever forget in my whole life. I still remember, i've weeped not just only a pail of tears but drum-full of it. I can't imagine that up to the airport untill the time the airplane had just take-off still my tears keep on falling. My last words were: "I don't know when i'm going back home again, but i know i will see you all again. No matter what happened."

So much have changed, too much. For 5 years, everybody are making the most of their lives now. Others were success of their careers, others had been married and now building their own family, others aren't that still fortunate enough to find a good life but still striving hard to get one. We have grown a lot from the past years. Time flies that you did not even notice what could have been changed untill somebody noticed it.

We were always happy. Everyday of our lives, the time we spent together. We have grown and have known each and every character we had. We fight, we argue, we hated each other but still the neverending love and support was still there. Miles and miles away, but i can feel all the affection deep in my heart. All those concerns, even if we do not chat or talk that very often. But when i hear those voices, it goes deep through my vains and feel it deep within me. How much i miss all of those happenings we have had, from our childhood days untill the moment i have left all of you. That i could not imagine after all those years, i am the one who will leave. I'm sorry for leaving guys, but you all know that even we're far from each other i always carry each of you in my heart. And never will, i will ever forget all of you. I love you from the bottom of my heart.

Life is too short for us to live. We have to make sure that we always make the most out of it. "Live life to the fullest." For a short time of period, i've learned a lot. I have known myself for who i am and have learned to deal with other people around me. We've spent alot of trials together, too much sacrifices but in the end everything has its priceless reward. You might always be busy, but you all know how much i missed you and wanted to know atleast how you all doing now. But i am happy just to see and hear the news that your all okay and doing good in your own careers. I can't wait for the day on when i can see you all again.

We were all innocents, on the first time we've met each other. We love to talk, to run and play around the school ground. We are all curious in each and every little thing we saw. We were always seperated by the class, but after school we always get to see each other and spend some time. We make it sure that we will have to share our food and other things we possess. We watch horror films, but we make it a comdy film instead. We will buy barbeque and eat like a family. We will do every project together and will not leave anybody to fail. After we finished that last day of our almost 7years together i thought it will already end there. But no, untill to this point in time we still continue our everlasting friendship. I just love the way we care with each other inspite of the distance. Don't asked me how much i miss you, because my words will not be enough to tell you.

We all have waited for the right time to come. "Expect the unexpected." We have lost a lot in the past, but now things are coping up. Seems like destination and fate is giving it back to us. Just like we deserve it just right in time. Problems never stops, but i know everything has its reason and purpose of why they happen. Inspite of all the bad things that happened, were still a family. One thing that i am always longing for. A father's touch, care, love, words of wisdom and a father's advice that i always wanted to hear. And not only i gained a good father but also a big and wonderful second family. Im loving it! We are treated not like we are strangers but they love us just like their real family with the same blood running unto us.

I couldn't imagine how we became so close. The first time we met, its like we are both snob. But i think that was the first thing that we have in common. We get to know each other and have shared lots of our nonstop stories. We confide and trust each other soo much. We have helped and never leave each other through good times and bad times. We are really like sisters that have shared everything. We talk everything under the sun. We share the same interests all the time. We share the same thoughts and feelings. And of course, we love the camera. We were brought by our own fate here. Thanks for sharing all your wisdom to me, thanks for all the support you gave me. Thank you for all the strength you gave me all throughout. Saying thank you is not enough.

I miss grandma, i miss my lovely cousins and my cute niece and nephew. I miss the family gathering were we used to share and eat lots of foods. Sing the karaoke and dance, make some barbecue and talk about lots of things, makes jokes and laugh the whole time around. I miss everything now. The outings at the beach, spending some days at grandma's house playing cards and drinking some beer without grandpa knowing it. (when he is still alive) I miss him a lot though, so much. But i know he is happy from where and what the family have reached. I know he is always around guiding us and never stop loving us.

I have too much memories to share but this are the things that i remembered. Actually everything is still fresh on my mind and in my heart eventhough 5 years had passed. I'm really waiting for the time on when i can finally give all of you a hug.

Now, i want to thank everybody that has been a part of me within this 5 years. I would not have reach this place without the help of you. Thanks for all the prayers, for giving me lots of strenght, neverending support and love. I want to thank Him most of all. For all the blessings he have given me and for all my loved ones. For guiding me and helping me throughout my trials and obstacles. Thank you to all of you from the bottom of my heart.

I have made a small presentation. This is the only thing i could do to show how greatful i am and how everybody have touched my life. I hope you like it. And also i want to thank all my "BLOG FRIENDS". You've also been a part of me for almost a year now. Thanks for those sweet words and the concerns. Thank you soo much.

Have a good week guys. I love you all.mwahugs

**Here is the link if you want to here the song clearly and view it better.

MY 5 YEARS VIDEO! **

2007-08-21T18:01:00.000+02:00

WEEKEND ADVENTURES!

This is my 101th post!awww..

Papi's cousin invited us unexpectedly for a weekend over the mountains. This is kind of a different one because nowadays we are supposed to spend more days at the beach. Its summer time, its hot. For a change, and to get some fresh air we decided to go even just for a day.

We left saturday early morning. It would take 1hour and 45minutes to reach Modena and there uncel will have to pick us up. It would be my first time to meet him, he is papi's first cousin. He is the son of Grandma's sister.aww..good thing i can still remember the story about it.lolz. We arrived there at around 11am. We need to travel for another 1hour to reach Castelnuovo Ne' Monti. Where all you can see around is big trees and dangerous curves on the road going up the mountain. It's like Baguio in the Philippines, but more curves and it is 600meters high. Going up there you can feel the different air, not like the one in the city that is polluted and hot. There all you can breathe and inhale is fresh air.

The city was cool. They also have lots of stores around to shop and everything is on sale. Tourist spots are most likely far like traveling for half hour to reach a castle. The "Bismantova" mountain where most of the people visit and go freeclimbing. Not too high though, like what i have said its only 600meters high. Not like the one we have been visited, the Morisolo. It is 1200meters high. Yeah! Aim for that really high mountains...I really love visiting such kind of places. It is really different because, reaching them its not a joke. You have to walk 1hour or more just to reach the top. Looking down from where you have been too, it is unbelievable. Just like when were trying to reach our own dreams. The feeling is so wonderful and so fulfilling. Under that mountain was constructed an antique small church. It was built for centuries. I'm sorry i dont have any picture to show you. But it is really simple and beautiful not too small and not too big. A sacred place where you can talk to him and thank him that you have reached the place with such good health. And oh there is also the small wishing well near the church. The traditional tossing of coin and saying your wish in your heart secretly.

We have eaten our lunch at the Restaurant near the house. They serve the famous "tortellini di zucca" and other kinds of it. It is tortellini filled with squash inside or you can choose others like with spinach and ricotta or maybe meat. Oh and for our anti-pasto we have eaten some special salami with bread and wine to start with. Then for our second plate, grilled meat, hotdogs, scamorza(kind of cheese) and french fries. Of course, to end up our lunch we have had coffee at the bar.

The house there were really cute. They are made of woods and antique big walls with the terrace outside with lots of flowers around and small fruit yard. They have provided a place just for thier guest. They have their own house downstairs were you can see all their collections. Uncle is a Hockey Referree before at his young age. Not Ice hockey though, but it was Hockey using the old roller skates. Cool.hehe! Then the other part of the house was upstairs. It has two rooms and it has its own kitchen and sala for the guest. My room looks really cute, with the window at the side and with a single cute bed. I love it.

They were so accomodating. We were out the whole day climbing up and down the castles and mountains around the place. And of course, pictures..and pictures...and films. Actually, im the only youngest among the group.hehe! Everybody is already old so its kindah difficult for them to walk and go up the place.haha... But the important thing is we had fun and we enjoyed the company. Wish we could have spent more days but maybe we will just come back next time again. I can't wait.

I still have another week of vacation and i will be spending it with my sister and another cousin. I hope to see them by next week. Because my sister's father-in-law is in the hospital and im not sure if they will be back this week. If not then the plan will be cancelled i guess. I hope not, ohh im crossing my fingers for that. We are planning to go at the amusement park all together and will be spending the last days at the beach. I hope everything will all go according to plans. Oh..please...

I chatted with my bestfriend earlier. As usual, tears fell down again. I just can't help it, because iv'e seen her in cam and i just felt that i missed them so much. I know in time and in God's will we will see each other again. And also i would like to thank Romina for the very sweet gift she gave me and boo on our 2nd year. As well as the others who greeted us. Thanks guys! We appreciate it soo much, you're all so sweet and thoughtful. Thanks!

ROMINA'S GIFT!THANKS...I LOVE IT. SO CUTE! =)

I have to go for now. I still need to update my MULTIPLY SITE and my FRIENDSTER, for more pictures. Have a good week ahead of you guys! Enjoy and have fun always. Take care. Gonna hop on your pages. Love y'all.mwahugs...

**im planning to have a new layout. i hope i could find time to do one asap. for those who wants the link exchange ill try to link you all as soon as i updated my blog again.thanks. =)**

2007-08-16T16:29:00.000+02:00

100th POST and 2YEARS!

Weeee!!! Hurray, for my 100th post in my blog. I couldn't imagine i would be reaching this lots of entries. But i guess should have more if only i have more time to tick my keyboard and is always in the mood. Thank you also for all those who read my previous 99 posts. Thanks also for the comments...oh i love them. Keep on visiting...

Today, im celebrating two things. The first one is because i have reached my 100th post and the other one is celebrating our 2nd year anniversary?!...Well, im not sure if i can call it anniversary. But this day is just a very very SPECIAL one. This is the day were i've first recieved my very first mail from him and the day that has changed my life. I'm happy that untill now his still part of my life and always here whatever happens.

First, i want to THANK YOU for all the support and love all throughout this years. I've never imagined that we will reach this far. Thanks for being there always especially when i needed you most. We have fought many battles in life together and have face lots and lots of problems and dramas all throughout. We have been into many trials and challenges, the good times and the bad times, even the darkest days of our lives. But still here we are, trying to keep and hold each other. Thanks for the neverending understanding and patience. Thanks for being brave enough, the courage and the will to move on in whatever happens. I might have said all this a million times but i will not get tired of saying them. I am grateful to have you here in my life. A million thanks to you.

YOU...you are the reason on why do i still exist here and the reason of why i still keep on surviving. You always help me in times of troubles, you are there when i feel so lonely and sad. You never let me fall, you always give your shoulders for me to lean and cry on, you always hold me when im about to give up...You always let me stand in every fall i've got, you give me that 'kick on the ass' whenever i needed it most. You will always be the man i admire and i adore since the first time i have met you...

Remember, i will always be here for you no matter what happens. I will be here to continue my support on whatever decisions you will make. I will be here to hold you like the way you are holding me each time i fall. My words will not be enough to say how and what really my heart says. I will always keep you like the way you keep me. You will always be my one and only 'Boo' and you know that nobody will ever take you place. Goodluck...in the future and always. Keep your dreams and hold them because i know in time you will be able to fulfill all of them. I will be here all the way through, to push you and remind you in everything. God bless you and your family. I know he will always give you His blessings, He knows you deserve something in the end. A little price or a little reward for all the hardworks. Take care always...I love you with all my heart.

HAPPY 2ND YEAR, BOO!

...more love and happiness. Goodluck..God Bless. I love you.mwah!

For some more updates im ok now...im feeling better. Hope everything will be back to normal, in time. I want to thank you also to those people who showed their concerns. Thank you soo much, i appreciate it alot. Have a great weekend guys. I miss you all and lov y'all...ill blog hop as soon as i can..thanks.mwahugs..

**I made the video myself. Hope you like it!**

2007-08-13T15:37:00.000+02:00

THE STORY.

It was raining hard for the past week which you should not expect because it is already summer time. At the same time, my tears were also running through my eyes. It seems that the weather is giving its sympathy, knowing that my heart is in pain.

My life is an open book to public. I've got my blog friends who knows my problems most of the time. I share my stories and experiences in life for them to know for who i am and what i have. For them to know more about my life, on how i handle them and manage to live each and everyday even with so much difficulties. I struggle in dealing with it, because i know there is something waiting at the end.

I've learned and have taught myself about patience and understanding. Hardworking, respect, love, determination and perseverance have been my guide to reach the place for where i am now. Praying, my faith and believing in Him are the things that i never forget all throughout the tragedies and journey that happened into my life.

I know everybody was shocked about the last post i've written. I know you can all feel the pain deep inside me and wanted to know what happened or whatever the reason about it. The question remains to all of you who are concerned, whoever wants to share some good thoughts and advices. Thanks, just seeing the "why's" and wishing that "im doing fine" just give me that relief and the feeling of i am not alone. Just knowing that you are all around there eventhough you're all busy was a big help for me. Thanks!

I wanted to share with you the story but i can't. It will remain to be private, it is all about a family problem. I hope you all understand. I just want to share you on how i feel, i just want to release my hard feelings inside and my pain. And i guess this is the only way. My blog, for where i share each and every thought i've got. It never says no to me and never judge me. Never tells me what to say but instead let me do and help me take out everything here inside of me. My deep pains...the hurts and the wounds that i have got...that in time help me make it heal.

I felt so devastated, thinking that my dreams and hopes are all washed away. I kept silent for a week because i know i can still manage, but i pretended. I am weak, i'm in pain, i am hurt and i'm hopeless. After waiting for a long time thinking that finally i could fulfill even 1/4 of my dreams and now i am here trying to hide myself. Not only my eyes are swollen because of too much weeping but also my heart. I could not imagine that this things are happening. It is out of my control, things happened to its worst.

"Expect the unexpected." This are the words that remained in me for sometime. It is true. After all, they are just two. It can be the good thing or the worst thing around you. So you should always be ready for whatever will happen infront of you, to the people you love or for those who lives far away from you.

I really don't know what to say more. What will be the right word to describe me, to describe what i am feeling. I don't want to hear those voices anymore, they keep me insane. They drag and really pull me down. I feel so disappointed.

I have been through alot, lots of problems that others could have been worst than mine. Should i be thankful for it?...They say He will not give it to you if you can't handle it and if you could not carry them. But what if i can't? Will they call me a loser or somebody who is really weak? What if i want to give up now? Will they just tell me i am a coward who doesn't know how to fight after all? That long before i was telling everybody that i am brave and i will continue to battle even if i don't have any weapon on my hand. It was really hard for me to accept it...was really hard for me.

I am not perfect and who is after all, nobody is. I don't know what to feel anymore. I dont know what words to utter because i am afraid that the more i comment and the more i talk the more i damaged things. But i guess i also have the right to do that, i was a part of it.

All we want was to help and to give happiness to our loved ones. But then it was all destroyed. It turned out to be a nightmare that untill now it keeps on haunting me. Sleepless nights together with the tears on my eyes that i can't help but fall. I don't want to pity on myself. I want to fight over and over again. Because i know there are people who still believes in me, my capability and my strong personality.

Will you get mad at me if i tell you im giving up now? Will you not love me anymore? Will you not care about me after all?...I get tired too. I have tried my whole life to be a good one but then is this is all i deserve? They say the world is turning, but how come mine turns out so fast that i could not even notice i was happy for a long time. It was just like a glimpse. It arrives and leaves too fast.

I dont want whatever i am feeling right now.(well, whoever wants it anyway.) But i can't control it and you can't say just do this or do that. "Easier said than done." Try to put your feet on my shoes and tell me how is it to feel like this way.

I don't want to say goodbye, its harsh. I don't want to say im giving up, because it hurts. I don't want to say im leaving. I will be around, i will try my very best to stand up again. If i can still do it. I will try to be strong and fight over the pain. I will keep my faith. I will try...i will try...

I hope this will not be the last time you will have to see me here. If you need me i will be around, you know guys, where and how to contact me anyway. Just help me pray and thank you for everything. I'm gonna miss you all. I love you all.mwahugs.

2007-08-10T22:32:00.000+02:00

I AM...

totally

DEVASTATED!

2007-07-31T23:13:00.000+02:00

VACATION HANGOVER!!!

Fresh air in the morning and the sun is up as early as 7am. I love that breeze...i love that white sand...i love the wind that goes through my skin and make my hair fly away...I miss the voices around..It still lingers in my memories. I'm missing the beach...I miss the whole of it.

I can say im still having those hangover from my vacation. A week of fun and laughters with my sister and other new friends. Spending the whole day at the beach with those lovely kids. Playing, running, singing and joking. Eating our favorite ice cream and flavored iced coffee espresso. How i wish i can come back again...how much i wanted to be there again.

Oh well, i have to accept the fact that im back here in Milan and have to work. Stresssssss.... errr! that is what i get here but anyway i've already enjoyed and have fun. Too much of it will be bad, so i think i need to balance. Honestly, i really have to work again.haha! The first reason? I don't have any money anymore.lolz! Going on vacation make you spend double, but like what they say "Its the happiness that you can't pay." So, i'm back here to work again and then have a weekend vacation after a week. I still have plans of going out of town eventhough it costs me lot. Summer came once in a year so i need to be sure that i make the most out of it. Traveling, going at the beach and spending time with my other cousins and friends. Is it possible to have summer the whole year? ^_^

Ahh...too much of it. Enough! I have other things here to do and deal with. Papi was sent home today from the hospital. Thank goodness! I missed him for a week but anyway we have our first dinner tonight. We've had "spaghetti di mare", it is made of tomato sauce with fish, small octopus, squid and shrimp. Damn! it was really yummy!

Im really sad this morning and was really frustrated. My laptop was having problems since last week. It turns off by itself. The first thing i thought was the plug or the electric socket. I tried to turn on it again, it did but it turned off again. That is when i started to be preoccupied with it. Then it happen again and again. I told myself that as soon as i get here in Milan i will go at the shop and talk with the technician. I did it yesterday, Monday. He told me that my laptop doesn't have any big problem. It is just overheating from time to time then the fan stops from running so it turns off itself. He let me buy that cooling pad for my laptop. I need to put it under and it will maintain the right temperature of the laptop and will prevent it from overheating. Oh well, i think its not working. Still happening the same thing. =( I tried calling the technician again but they have gone for their vacation already and i will have to see him on September. sooo damn frustrating. I still have the warranty of it but it will took me long because i need to do something online and send it then wait for their call and send my laptop to the maker. Dang! i can't take it! No way!!! If you have the same problem before could you tell me what could really be the real problem of it. Puhhhleaasseee! Let me know and leave me a comment. I would really appreciate it. Thanks in advance.

I will have to start saving all the files so at least if ever worst comes to worst i have them all saved and safe. I just hope that the problem isn't that really big. I need to work on it little by little as long as i can. Wish me luck! lolz.

I was a bit stressed today. But with all those...only one thing can make me feel a really better. SHOPPING!!! hehe... Mami asked me to go at the bank later this afternoon, but instead of going there first i tried to visit the shops first. Were on a summer sale from July to first week of September. I go around and drop by at the shops that i mostly visit. I ended up buying three shirts a gray tube, one pink top and another black one. hehe! I got inlove with the bag on display at the other shop, but i go out late and they closed at 7.30pm. So i have to wait untill tomorrow to buy it.haha! I like it..i mean i love it! Im going to buy it, it is on sale! awww...

My apology for not dropping by on your pages untill this moment. Im not feeling well just the other day. Maybe it is the weather here or maybe because of not doing the right diet. I will go through your pages as soon as possible. Thanks for those who left the comments and for greeting my boo. Thanks soo much. He wanted to thank all of you and says God bless you all. =)

I better go for now. I will have to update things little by little and maybe i will have my new layouts. wow! i cant wait.haha! Take care all of you guys! I miss all your blogs. Love y'all.mwahugs...

2007-07-28T11:42:00.000+02:00

FRIDAY HOTNESS!!!

I thought i just need a very quick post. Nothing really much happening for the past days. Of course, were always at the beach and yeah don't ask me how much i got "DARK" already. I'm just enjoying my remaining days here, which im not sure when im going back again.

It's Boo's 30th birthday yesterday. haha! I talked to him and said i should not mention the "30th" because it just shows his getting old. lolz! I hope he will not see this post.hahaha. Which is very impossible because i will even tell him to look at this one. Anyway, age is not that important because i know his getting old by his age but not his heart.awww! And for the last time, im wishing you all the best. All the happiness, success, good health for you and your family and most of all love...love and more love. haha! God bless you always and also your family. You've reached this far and i know you'll gonna succeed more. You know i will be just here for you no matter what. You take care always and i love you. Look what martina did for you. Your Italian family wants to extend their greetings for you and oh the whole family of mine. =P Hope you like it.

Martina got that paper early in the morning and called me up like she is telling me to take a pic of her for real. So there you go, she pose and put it in place on her own. So sweet.haha.

About my dad, he has been operated once again. His doing fine but still in the hospital. He had been operated again for the third time in his heart, this time they have to control it and observe to know what is really going on. If ever he will have to come back again and need to be operated again. hayyy!!! I feel soo sad about this things. Just hearing papi that his not feeling well, the feeling is double. I know his really trying to recover and trying to be strong just for us. I hope everything will be ok and will be back to normal again. Oh God help me please! T_T

Guys, im sorry if i can't blog hop for a while. My net is slow because im using just my phone as my modem and all. I will make it up to all of you. Thanks for always visiting and dropping love
and concern. Thanks a lot guys! I miss you all. I love you guys...mwahugs.

I will update my photosite soon. Tomorrow i will be back to Milano again and gonna start working once more. Hayyy! One week just passed, anyway i've enjoyed here and have fun with my sister and the kids. Oh, last night we have seen a fashion show.

Damn! there was this guy...gah!oh soo HOT!!!....He really look..ahhh!! SOO HOTT!!!hahaha...I have to go now, were off to the beach once again. =) I look like ohhh sooo NEGRA!!! Have a nice weekend guys. Take care..love y'all.mwahugs.

2007-07-25T20:47:00.000+02:00

BAD + GOOD NEWS.

Let's start with the BAD news. My papi is in the hospital once again, he is not feeling well most of the time. The doctor said that the operation is all good but there is something that makes him feel that way. He used to have headache and then makes him feel dizzy. The pain will start from his neck going down to his left arm and finally up to his right leg. He still got a mark on his right leg from the operation that most of the time, when he moves and walk a bit he feels nothing. Like it is a bit paralyzed or something. Kindah sad to know about it, because for now i cant do anything. I'm here at my vacation enjoying and having fun while my father is in the hospital again. He won't allow me to go back in Milan just to see him and spend the rest of my vacation. He wants me to have fun with my sister and the family thats why he sent me here eventhough im alone. I still have to wait untill my mom tells me all about the examinations papi had to go through. Im also kindah preoccupied about mami, because she's all alone at home. We were all in different places at the same time. Im here at Ravenna, my father is in the hospital and my mom stays at home alone. All i can do is to pray for my father and be healthy again.

At the other part of my life, im still here at Ravenna. Spending my one week vacation and enjoying it to the fullest. I've been at the beach twice and oh yeah...im really getting dark! ahaha. But thats the real color of a pinay so just deal with it. Im enjoying my stay here, eventhough everymorning the kids wakes me up soo early like 8:30am. Its still early right? Then i have to prepare going at the beach or if not we have to go in another place. Last night we go out and have some walk at the center. We had some ice cream and milk shake made of ice cream.hehe! Oh, and im still having the diarrhea for now. Hope it will stop as soon as possible. Besides that im having some sunburn but not that so painful like the first time.

I have met lots of people here. Ale's family(pami's husband) and then pami's friends, that we used to see around the beach and outside the house. I also met lots of new playmates.haha! I love kids and i love spending time with them and playing. Just like running and making fun with them makes me happy. They all call me "zia" meaning "aunt" in english, calling me that way will be easier for them and pami told me that is almost a tradition. It's windy today at the beach and the waves are really big. So i just stayed in my chair and chill with some kids. Have been at the swimming pool for half an hour then enough.

The very "GOOD" news was, the lawyer have been at the hospital the other day and have brought the documents to be signed by papi. He told me that he already signed all the papers that should be needed for the processing of the documents. Damn! i think it is really geeting near.awwww! And my sister was also happy to extend to me the great news. She said that in time, finally, i will be a real and legimated child of papi. I will be officially one of the part of the family. But anyway, she also say that eventhough without those papers we are already accepted but just to follow the rules then we have to do this. That is sooo sweet!

I just finished watching the Transformers. It's nice though i did not really understand it because it was in italian. It is really different when you really knows the language. Tomorrow, we will not be going at the beach. We have to go out and do some other things. Guess what?!!! hahhaha..yay!!! SHOPPING!!! awww..Oh i have also done my new henna tattoo. One in my ankle and the other one is at my back. I'll post again all the pics in my MULTIPLY SITE.

Sorry for not hopping on your pages for the meantime. Im a bit busy and my net was slow. Oh, i want to ask for your prayers again. Thanks alot guys! Take care and love y'all.mwahugs..

2007-07-24T00:37:00.000+02:00

I L♥RVE d' BEACH!!!

Yay! After a waiting almost a year...Now, i really feel that its already summer time.haha! We have been at the beach yesterday, from 11am to 5:30pm.haha!*biggrin* First day of my official vacation and my sister wake me up at around 9am..ahuhu! early...anyway, its because they need to go out for a while. Nobody will have to look for the kids, so she asked me if i can look for them for the meantime. Its ok, i love my niece and nephew they are oh soo lovely.

I chat and check my mails for a while then called mami and papi to know how is milano doing.hehe! They told me that it was really hot in there..ahaha! Its hot everywhere.lolz! Then when pami and ale arrived home we prepared and get ready for the beach.awww!The day was really great and of course, the sun. It is a bit bit cloudy in the morning when we go out of the house. Then later in the afternoon, damn! the sun is SHINING!!! But before we finally reach the beach we have to go pass by at pami's friend first.

Wow!!! And have seen that place again after a year. The beach chairs, the white sand, the waves and the sun shining that will really burn your feet. The kids immediately run in the water and damn...the water is really cold and also with the wind around the place. Really hot but it was really a great day to go out and get tan!haha.. They are my niece and my nephew, named Massimo and Martina. They are so lovely yet oh soo tremendous kids.haha! But they are soo sweet.

Well, if you'll gonna ask me about how is my color now.haha! Damn, i just love the beach and i love the sun and the water so...I'm oh sooo getting dark again. And my sister is kindah pissed about it.haha! She told me that why is it i've already got this color to think that i've never been at the beach the whole year but just now. Even her other friends, ehehe..anyway, us filipinos just have the dark complexion so our skin gets dark easily. Ahaha, i know i have the guts to wear that two piece. Oh well, i dont care about my big tummy.*biggrin* Together with me is pami and her friend with the kids playing.

Sunday, im soo busy the whole day. I woke up as early as 6am because, i need to attend the mass. I have to go and witness the baptism of my tita's baby. Her name is Alyssa Donna, and shes only 3months old. Im so honored, i didn't know that somebody trust me and know how i am really to be one of the godmother of the baby. =)

In the afternoon, we have to attend the celebration of the baptism. So we went at the restaurant to eat and take some more pictures together with the baby. And of course to recognize the Godmothers and Godfathers. Oh, the food was great! Its quite long since i've been able to eat pinoy foods. So, i've tasted a bit of everything.yummy!

At around 5:30pm, we left the house to go at the central station. I will have to leave for Ravenna for my one week vacation as what i've written in the last post. Mami and Papi accompanied me because i've got lots of things to bring.hehe! I got the ticket and the train is leaving at 7pm. They said their last goodbyes and left me alone and wave outside my window.(just like in the movies ha?!) Need 1hour and 45minutes to reach Bologna and there pami will pick me up by car. Arrived at Bologna at around 8:45pm and ale(pami's husband) helped me in by baggage. We left the station and have to travel an hour to finally reach home.

I've had fun at the beach, i've met some of pami's friends. It was really nice knowing them. They don't treat me like other people. I played with the kids the whole day and now im SUNBURNED!!! damn!!! my back and my shoulders were really TOASTED! ahahaha...It's ok anyway, i love my color..better than looking pale. lolz!

For today, no beach for the meantime.hihi! It is cloudy here anyway so we will be back again tomorrow. They say it will be really "HOOOOTT" tomorrow. It will be like 40degrees outside. Gosh! i can't...oh no i can't! My skin will get totally burned if ever. I will just stay under the umbrella and sleep.haha!

Maybe if it will not rain until later we will be going out for a while to go at the center to do some SHOPPING?!!! huwaaawww!*biggrin* Then after we will treat the kids an ice creaammm! awwww..O_O

I will try to hop on your pages as soon as i can, or when i have time. And thanks for those who used to visit my page. Thank yah! The other photos will be uploaded at my other site, MULTIPLY SITE. I'll try to post everything because i'm just using my phone connecting as my internet.

This are my updates for the meantime. I'll post more whenever i have time. thanks guys. Take care guys! Have a good week ahead of you! Love y'all!mwahugs...

2007-07-21T01:06:00.000+02:00

VACATION TIME!

Yay!!! Time for me to go on vacation...FINALLY!!! After some months of stress and hard work, finally its time for me to take a break!awwww..

You've heard it right, im going out for a vacation for one whole week! weeee... This time i'm going to travel alone. My parents cannot go with me for a while because both of them have just got operated.

I'm going at Ravenna, i will be staying at my step sister's house which is near the beach. awww! I'm gonna be one of the beach babes for a while. ahaha! I'll let you see what i look like after sunbathing for 3hours. Oh..i hope you won't get scared.haha! I'm gonna be really dark im sure. Anyway, it doesn't matter at all, as long as im enjoying my vacation, the beach and being together with my step sis and the kids. It would be lot of fun!

I think everything would be exciting to think that i will have to travel alone all the way then if they will not go on the weekend then i will have to go back again on my own.haha! Anyway im already old to do that.lolz! Maybe because im used to travel having somebody with me. Well, time to change.

I'm kindah excited, eventhough im not sure what im goin to do there and where are the places that we will have to go. But for me, just being together with my little cute niece and nephew will be all fun. And being free from stress...damn! far from worries and everything..ahh! oh soo relaxing.

On sunday, i will have to go to a Baptism. I was chosen to be one of the Godmothers.aww! Then in the afternoon is the celebration. And i hope i can leave at night, so i cont have to travel early in the morning on monday and waste half of the day. Because they say that there will have a strike of all trains from saturday 9pm untill sunday 9pm. Thats why i'm praying so deep, "pleasseee, cancel the strike so i can leave...pleaseee." haha.lolz!

Latest update is Papi is at home already. yay!!! Finally he was sent home by the doctor and his doing ok. Thank God! and thanks to all of you who offered the prayers. Thanks a lot!

After my one whole week vacation, i have to go back to work of course. But then after two weeks i will have to travel again. My tita is inviting me to stay with her even just for 3days. It is in Forte dei Marmi. I have not been there before so we will see what is up there. I know they also have beaches there.haha! I will be a real negra this summer but anyway doesnt matter to me because thats the trend here on summer days.haha!

Don't worry i will still update because im going to bring my boyfriend with me.haha! What im talking about is my laptop. Just can't live without it.

So, untill to my next post. Tell you much stories soon. Take care guys, and have a great weekend! love y'all!mwahugs..

2007-07-19T00:10:00.000+02:00

FIRST SUMMER OUTING!

As what i have promised im going to post something about my first summer happening. So here yah go...Gosh! i really had sooo much fun. It's my first time to go out alone i mean together with my italian family. =) I used to go with them but with my papi and mami but then this time, im all alone. So i've got no choice.haha! I need to speak just italian and no tagalog or english for a day. Also they speak another dialect called "napoletano", anyway i understand a bit of it now so its ok. I've learned some expressions and words and on how they act so i can understand more and better not like before. This post will be most likely a photoblog.hehe! I will have to show you some of the photos and then the others will be posted on my MULTIPLY SITE.

We've been at the place called "MINITALIA". It is a place where you can see the whole Italy in a miniature type. You will have to go ride a small boat around the place to see its overview. After you will have to go to actually see the different places or famous tourists spot here in Italy. Like Milan, Sicily, Sardigna, Florence, Naples, Rome, Turin, Tuscany, Bologna, Venice and other beautiful places here.

Other than having this miniature place they also have their mini-amusement park. Where of course you can see lots of different rides. Like the Galleon of the Pirates, were me and my cousins have ridden i think for 5 times or more.haha! I know its funny but it was fun its like im inside a baby's cradle.lolz!

The first ride we have riden is the small log..they call it "tronky". I go there with uncle aldo(papi's bro) and pamela(my step sister) as you can see in the photo. Its just small and not too high so it doesnt really make me scared.lolz! The other one is a bit high, but oh well still im not afraid of it though. haha!

Then the other pic is with im together with my other cousins named loredana and stefania(they are sisters). They told us we are wierd and so crazy. We have riden on it for 3 times i think just to do the pictures and make fun of it. haha!

I still want to show you some but its not good to put the pics here. Anyway i will post it on my photosite, so if you want to see more then just go and visit my multiply.*biggrin* We have riden also the roller coaster, but its not really high though. We rode it for 2 consecutive times then another time.haha! I'm not scared of it but instead i got bruises on it after a day. Because of the the impact and too fast. Anyway, i enjoyed it.haha!

Then the other one is what they call the "sky tower". It's 51meters high. It will go up slowly untill it reaches the very top of the tower. Then "fwooom", it will go down very fast like 3seconds and your already down from the top.haha! It's crazy...you will see almost the whole park on the top then suddenly it seems you lose your heart for 3seconds. But damn! the feeling is oh soo good! =D Last year i have tried also the other one from the other amusement park. It's much higher, like 60meters. I tried both tower, one going up slowly then down for 3seconds and then the other tower will pull you up for 3seconds then will go down slowly.haha! Both are great..damn great!

The last thing we visited is the Aquarium. Obviously, you know what they have in there.haha! They've got piranhas and oh nemo was there and a small shark too. They also got the reptile section. Damn! snakes are really big and scary. There are some of them that is very dangerous. So, imagine that what if one of them escaped on their own cages. Gossshhh!

There you go, i wish i could go out with them again. It was really fun and a day full of laughter. I also got the chance to see my niece and nephew. And the whole crazy gang.haha!

As for other updates, papi is still in the hospital but then i hope he will be going out by tomorrow or at least by friday. Oh please, i hope and i pray. Pleaseeee! Everything is doing good with him now and i hope he will be healthy continously from now on.

Thanks for the drop guys. Thanks for the comments, for those sweet comments and the tags. I know some of you were really busy regarding school. I wish you all goodluck and have fun always. Enjoy!

I better go now. I think i still have to update my multiply.haha! Take care guys. Love y'all!mwahugs..

2007-07-16T22:55:00.000+02:00

MONDAY ATTACK.

I've got sleepless nights the past days. I don't know whats going on. Maybe it's just the weather because summer had just started and its really getting hot. It started from the first week of July were i started to get worried about my parents. Both of them have to undergo operations, but anyway they just did. You can just read it on my previous posts.

Mami is ok. She still have to rest and recover from what she have had. She still have to heal from the pain and the operated part from her body which makes her difficult to move. Still feel uneasy and sometimes having headaches. Anyway, what is important is she's at home now and can rest as long as she wants.

I was late this morning. I'm supposed to wake up at 6am but then i slept from my alarm. I did not hear it rang. Since mami knew what time i go to work she tried calling me up and told me it's already 6:45am. Damn!!! I really overslept... Thank goodness...i still was able to make it to work. I was late for 15mins. so not a big thing. Bus was on time and as well as the train. geeee, thanks!

I felt a bit heavy, but not feeling like lazy. A sudden attack of boredom and a bit of depression which i felt the past few days too. It passes by itself, but it comes back maybe because im missing somebody and wants a company. Then all this things that is going on around me. Both parents at the hospital and getting stressed from work. One of the reasons why i don't blog that much. I don't want to write something that is too emotional and be ambiguous about it.

Late this afternoon, mami called me up. Saying papi got an attack. I have just said on my previous post that papi got operated again at heart and plus his veins connecting through his throat. Like the first operation he have had, since his a diabetic he got an allergy. He can't take normal medicines like others, that doctors need to control on what to give him. For the second time around, it happened again. After the operation was done he immediately got it. They gave this medicine to control the allergy but giving him another effect, which makes his blood sugar too high. And he has to suffer about it.

After eating lunch, he was sitting at the table and started feeling bad. Sweating and his feeling dizzy. He can't move anymore like he doesn't have any force. His roomates called the doctor immediately and they attented him right away. He got a measure of 460 from his blood sugar that's why he suddenly felt that way. They gave him oxygen and put a monitoring gadget in his body which they are able to control his actions from time to time. So they will know if there is something wrong with him. Actually, i have not seen it mami just told me what happened. Papi said it also happened to him once when he was at the rehabilitation.They also gave him a shot of insulin, which will help him to feel better. I felt bad hearing about that news, but whats important is his doing good before i left him this night.

After work i go directly at the hospital. I want to see papi and to know how he is doing. The doctors was visiting him when i arrived then after i hugged him and gave him a kiss. He said his feeling a bit better and i dont have to worry about it. We stayed there with him until he finished his dinner. So now, we still dont know when his going out of the hospital. But anyway, hope he feels better and recover as soon as he can.

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mija: Gud am boo! papi got an attack after eating lunch. 2 high his sugar,dn inject an insulin. and im still hir almost dying at work.hayyy..can i just die?! tc. lov u.

boo: No mija u cant die. U have to go be with gino. Ur his inspiration to survive. Be strong mija. Lov u. Mwah.

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Hayy...what would be my life be if there would be nobody like him that reminds me about this things. His the only person i used to text when i feel bad and whenever i feel like im down. But then he never fails to remind me of good things and tell me those words that can help me gain my hopes. Always there to support and care for me, not only me but also for my family. Thanks boo...thanks soo much. I dont know what to do if your not gonna be around. And if ever, i will always be here for you too no matter what. Thanks once again.

I always do this whenever i write a post, thanking my good friends...my very lovable blogfriends for all the support and kind words. Thanks for the comments, you always touches my heart. You make me feel happy and blessed just having you all guys. Thanks a lot..and im just a click away whenever you needs me too.

Too much for a Monday, soo much to start the week for me. Well, i have to deal with it. This is life! Eventhough every "DAY" would be full of stress, bad feelings and depressions i have to go on and battle. Not easy and will never be easy! But i need to move on...

I'm sorry for not posting something interesting or something happy for the meantime. I know you all understand how i feel. I promised to tell you about my first summer outing, dont worry i have not forgotten about it. I will as soon as everything turns to be ok. I'll keep my word.

I need to go now. Oh...i still have my bruises from my falling at the chair. I still feel my bones in pain and my back and hips still hurts. I still feel those after-falling-effects. lolz! But im doing ok, nothing to worry about. =)

Take care everybody! my apology if i can't go through all your pages, but i will promise. Love y'all!mwahugs... Have a good week ahead of you too!

2007-07-12T22:13:00.000+02:00

PAPI'S TURN!

Just a week ago, mami had been operated and now its papi's turn. Papi was called by the hospital yesterday and had been scheduled today for the operation. Early morning at around 7:45am he called up and was saying he is already preparing for the operation. Then i say my byebye and told him to stay calm and take care and gonna see him in the afternoon. For those who doesn't know about papi's health problem, he has to undergo an operation because a vein or artery that connects through his heart and neck is close that makes him difficult to breath. Also will give other complications for his heart to malfunction.

I go to work and was a bit worried about papi because i know he will have a major operation. It's dangerous though. At around 11:45am i called up mami and was asking how was papi's operation. I heard papi's voice and saying "ciao bimba mia..."(hi my little girl...). I got shocked though and asked him if he already did the operation. He told me that they did not let him do the operation. They say papi has a small collar meaning his neck isn't that long to be operated. It will be difficult for them to do it and it will be alot of work and pain for papi if they did. Also the doctor told him that the medicine he was taking for this is not that strong. The medicine might help with it so they say they will just give it to papi and we will see what happens after.

After work, i go directly at the hospital to see papi. He explained to me that we still have to wait untill they are ready to do the operation or maybe not. So we still remain worried and everything because i thought it will all be finished today. We go home and told papi we will just come back after 5pm to see him again.

Well, when we come back at the hospital once again we have seen papi with all this apparatus on his arm. He was smiling and saying: "adesso tutto a posto, stato già operato e sto bene."(everything is ok now, ive already been operated and im ok.). I can't believe it, after two hours just right after we left him he was called by at the operating room and was brought there.

He did another cardiogram were they put something at papi's heart to open the blocked vein or artery. He did it just a few months ago. But the doctor said it was starting to close again so they have to do it again. Then after that, they proceed on doing papi's blocked vein or artery in the throat. The operation was successful. Doesn't need to open papi's neck just to unblock it. They were able to pump and remove the closed vein. yay!!! The doctor gave him lots of compliments after the operation saying :"sei un paziente meraviglioso e stupendo."(ur one of a kind patient, ur amazing and wonderful). He said papi was so calm and didn't gave them any problem while the operation is going on and wishes that every patient is like him. hehe!

Now, everything is ok. I want to thank every one of you who have offered their prayers and have given me support. Thanks guys and maybe someday i will also return this favor to all of you. Thanks so much and God bless you all. Special thanks to Boo for all the prayers, the support and the love your giving me and my family. God bless you and your family too.

Well, got a short story for you. Yesterday, i was at work i was trying to get something which is a bit high. I got a chair and stood up there. And BOOM!!! i fell down on the chair and found myself at the ground. =( I'm so lazy to get the ladder so this is what i got. Damn! i got bruise in my arm, hurt my back and my shoulder, also my hips and my buttocks. It really hurts though, and now a part of my left arm is swollen and really feeling the pain now. I know im stupid, should have not use that chair. But i got out of balance thats why...but anyway, im still stupid. waaaa... And now im suffering from pain. Oh well... About mami, she is doing fine and starting to really recover and yeah im still doing most of the chores at home. Anyway, for me as long as they are healthy and in good condition that is what really matters.

I still owe you guys...i will go bloghoppin later. And i still got to tell you some story about my first summer outing with my cousins. I should..i mean i must do it immediately before i forgot it once more.haha!

Thanks again to all of you...have a wonderful weekend. Take care always. love you all.mwahugs.

2007-07-08T19:45:00.000+02:00

MAMI is HOME!!!

THANK GOD!

Thanks..thanks for all the prayers you've offered for my mom. I really appreciate it. Eventhough they say that the operation isn't that "major" or that dangerous still you can never say whatever his plan.

Mami was sent home by his doctor yesterday. She doesn't need to stay there that long because she's doing well. Just that she's still feeling some pain from the operation she have had, but mami is doing fine.

Tomorrow she will have to go back at the hospital. They will have to remove the stapler-like-thingy on mami's operated area. That's the new thing they've got nowadays. They dont have to make some stitch on the operation but they will put this metal, the stapler-like-thingy. It will just close the operated area and then when it heals they will just remove it.

For 4 days i was like "ychel in the morning, Mami like in the evening". Kindah hard though. I have to do all the chores my chores and mami's chores. errrr! I have to think not only of myself but also papi. I have to prepare his medicine and things at night and in the morning before i go to work. I need to do the ironing and laundry for some days that mami was not here.

Well, the important thing is I SURVIVE! yay!!hehe. For now, i still have to help mami with some other things. She still needs to rest for one week before she can finally do the usual things she used too.

I'm sorry for not updating that long. Anyways, i'll make it up to you guys. I was out yesterday together with my italian cousins. Gosh!!! i really had SOOOO MUCH fun! I enjoy too much with my CRAZY cousins. I will tell you the story on my next post and will also post some pictures here. Take care always. Love you all!

Have a great week ahead guys!mwahugs...

2007-07-03T21:42:00.000+02:00

LIFE w/out M-A-M-I.

Today, mami was admitted at the hospital. We accompanied her to see where will be her room and help her to arrange everything in the hospital. The nurse told us that she will have the operation tomorrow early morning around 8 to 8:30am.

Before we left the hospital, the nurse brought her food. Damn! i got shocked mami will have to eat only that soup. Take note...a soup! just a soup with nothing else on it, oh she can put that parmesan cheese. errr! i was like "is that the only thing you can eat?!" Well, papi explain it to me, coz i just cant imagine how people were treated in the hospital. I told them they aren't keeping thier patients in good condition but they help on killing them.haha! kidding...

There would be no "mami" for a couple of days. No mami who will do the laundry and prepare the table for us. No mami who will sweep the floor and keep the table clean. No mami will be there to remind papi about his medicine. There will be no "screaming" and "arguing" for the mean time. Gonna miss those things though even for a couple of days.

What is important, mami will be healthy again after her operation. She will be able to work again normally and freely like she used too. I just hope everything will go smoothly. And i would like to Thank everybody who offered their prayers for mami. Thanks guys! i really appreciate it. =)

Now, for the mean time i have to do all the chores here at home. Anyway, im used to that. Just need to do some extra things over here. Because im used to have mami around so what i cannot do will be left for her. Actually, i go to work and leave everything to her.haha! She have just told me what i need to do tomorrow, the other day and for the rest of the week. Ohhh...why mother's like that. It's ok, all i want is for her to be healthy again.

I want to apologize about my tagboard. If ever you see some 'not soo good' tags there just ignore them. It's just there is this somebody who wanted some attention but nevermind it, i can manage. Aha..there you go 'spanish girl', special mention.ahaha! I gave you a special place here for a while, ha.*wink* Is that what makes you happy? Do whatever you want, pretend and destroy people. Everything you said will bounce back to you. Anyway, its you wasting your own time pissing your ownself. Goodluck! *devil's laugh*

There you go, i cut my hair again. My hairdresser cut it a bit short. =( But i think it looks nice. I need to cut them every other month so it will grow faster and better as well as to remove my split ends. I have it layered and has a style below it. What you think about it? =) Actually, i've got lots of events to attend with this July. I will have to go with my step sister and my cousin at the amusement park this weekend. (they are both italians) Then i have to attend a baptism before the end of the month, and i will be one of the godmothers.hehe! Also, finally i will have my one week vacation. It means i will be out of town. yay! To enjoy my summer vacation. I will tell you when and where i will be going. I'm sure it will be a lot of fun.

I better go now. Take care everybody and thanks for your prayers. Love y'all. mwahugs..I miss my yana. =(

2007-07-01T01:34:00.000+02:00

LOVE♥

When you LOVE, never stick only to what your heart feels...

Remember that sometimes using your brain is a necessity.

Next,

Never use your eyes to cry for the one who fooled you...

Instead, use it to search for the right one.

Lastly,

Don't be scared breaking up...

keeping a relationship with an evil person is much scary.

Take note:

"Love the one who will fight for you and bravely face each and every consequence...

Someone you can call a partner rather than a lover."

I have recieved this text from my good friend ARIANNE. I was browsing my phone and looking for those messages that can be interesting and i've seen this one. Just want to share it though. Isn't it nice?

I spent my whole saturday with my mom, of course doing shopping! awww! I'm oh soo happy because finally i was able to find and have bought the sandals that im really looking.yay!!! Then have bought some other things.

Next week, my mom will have to undergo an operation. Well, finally because weve been waiting for that long time ago. At least she will be free from her worries and will be healthy again after the operation is done. I hope everything will be fine and the operation will be successful and will not have any other problems. I would appreciate if you will include her in your prayers. Thanks in advance. =)

I better go now. I miss my arianne but i know shes having fun now there. Gonna call her later when i woke up. Excited about the stories. hehe...Take care guys! mwahugs...

Have a good sunday!

random

2007-06-27T23:37:00.000+02:00

RANDOM.

I don't know where to begin. It is not that i don't have anything to post, it's like because i am soo LAZY to update. At the same time, im not in the mood. Sorry about that. =(

My whole day was devastated just because of what happened this morning. Was not able to do the things according to my plans that which made me feel a bit frustrated. Oh well, it happens. I tried to catch the early bus going to work so i can finish early and do other things in time. Unfortunately, the train suddenly stop in the middle of the street. "Damn!...there is no electricity to make the train move. grrrr!! what the heck?!" I can't think of anything to do but just to wait because the other train stop is too far. I want to get the alternate route but its the same. All train are in the middle of the street and all blocked. NO WAY OUT!!! dang!...

I got pissed because i will be late for work. Actually i was late for 30mins. but what can i do?! It is a chain reaction. I missed the train that i need to get at 7:50a.m. so i need to wait for the next that will arrive. So, instead of doing my work and finish it as early as i can then i have to adjust. I need to go out a bit late and everything was ruined. Hayyy..got soo frustrated. That's why when i arrived home im feeling oh soo lazy. I'm hungry but i dont want to eat. What i did is hop on my bed and sleep without putting anything on my stomach. ohh so bad! And the time i woke up its already late and my stomach is aching.hehe! Too good i have my dad who are willing to prepare and cook something for me. i'm a spoiled baby girl of her!lolz...

The truth is im just missing someone. ARIANNE!!! ....Oh well, no matter how loud i scream she can't hear me.hehe! She just arrived today in the Philippines together with her sister. She's my best bud and my little sister. She will be there for vacation and maybe for good?!lolz.. Who knows, but like i always tell her i know she will be happy there. I just miss the company, its a different thing eventhough we didn't see each other here but i know she's just around. She's not gone anyway, just a thousand miles away.

That is our last picture together with her sister, the night before their departure. Anyway, i will just tell you the stories again some other time.hehe! I miss you guys! Be back soon! =( Enjoy your vacation and have fun. Love you both.

And the following day, we celebrated gianni's feast day. Well, here it is called "onomastico" meaning it is where you derived your name from a certain saint. For italians, it is some what like celebrating a birthday. His name is "giovanni" in english it is "jhonny" and June 24 is the feast day of St. John the Baptist where he derives his name. We had some pizza that night and some fried seafoods. ohhh soo delicious!

I will post more pics on my MULTIPLY soon when i have my time.*wink*

Take care everybody and enjoy the rest of the week. Have fun! mwahugs.♥♥♥

2007-06-19T17:59:00.001+02:00

Meaningful Dreams.

I'm always wondering about my dreams, that sometimes i know they really have this meaning. I've dreamnt about FIRE, WATER & COINS just in that one night. Recently, was all about a BUS. When i woke up, i remain puzzled for what is it all about. I wanted to know if it is good or bad. So i tried searching for it and have found some interesting things.

FIRE:
What i've dreamnt about it, is i was in a certain place like it is a church. There were lots of people then suddenly there was this big fire with all the smoke all around. Me together with the others were falling in line going down the stairs calmly while the others are in panic and running all over the place. My dream ended up like watching the people around and by then i woke up.

"The portent of this dream varies greatly according to its details and action, so all aspects should be carefully considered, but as a general guide: A fire is an omen of impending trouble if it burned you; good news if it didn't. To observe a house or building that is on fire forecasts an urgent appeal for help from a close friend or relative. You can expect an exciting romantic adventure if you built a fire or stirred one with a poker. To dream of putting out a fire or escaping from one predicts ultimate success over all obstacles. A small, cheerful fire in a fireplace indicates contentment. A dream of setting fire to a house, building or anything of value is telling you to control your temper or be prepared for serious consequences. A roaring big fire (contained in a grate) signifies new hope after a time of discouragement."

Fire Escape
To dream of being on, or using, a fire escape is a warning to guard against stretching your credit too far.

WATER:
Then after some few minutes i fall asleep and this dream followed. I was watching TV or i guess a film with somebody, but i know im together with my relatives. I stand up to drink some water. I saw a pitcher and get a glass full of water. I drank it the first time and some of it spilled out then drank the second time and the last time and spilled out some. The water is clear and not so cold but refreshing that quench my thirst.

"The meaning depends on the details and the action of your dream, but as a general guide, clear, calm water is a favorable omen, while rough or murky water signifies difficulties. A dream of drinking cold water is a sign of good luck, but throwing or spilling it on anyone indicates a need to control your temper. Hot water (unless it is appropriate to the action) portends a season of social and/or business setbacks, but running water predicts lasting happiness. A waterfall in your dream forecasts a happy rise in status and/or an imminent increase in material wealth. Gently flowing water promises contentment and peace of mind."

Drink
The significance depends on what the drink is and its condition. Water that is cloudy, dirty, warm or hot predicts a loss of money and/or status due to unfortunate circumstances; but a drink of clear, cool or cold water is a very fortunate omen for anyone, especially for students or those in academic life. To drink milk is also a happy omen of coming success. Fizzy soft drinks signify exciting happenings ahead, and any very sweet, syrupy drink predicts a passionate love affair. However, drinking from a bottle indicates an unsatisfactory romantic experience.

COINS:
My dream continued that i remember i was counting some money to send to somebody. I put it on a white envelope like it was 8euro coins of 50cents. Then asked my tita to send it for me and she even told me that she will add more coins because she still got more untill i found out that it was already 10euro and the envelope was really heavy.

"The meaning of money in a dream is as variable as its meaning in conscious life. Although there is some disagreement, the general consensus is that to pay, give or lend money augurs well for all that concerns you. Receiving money is also a good omen, providing it was honestly come by; it signifies security through development of your own resources. To dream of finding money is a sign of mixed blessings; your financial success will be accompanied by disappointment in its effect. Losing money in a dream is an omen of opposites; you are likely to have a windfall. To change money (as paper for coins or large denominations for small, etc.) indicates problems created by your own carelessness in the handling of your affairs. A dream of exchanging money (as for foreign currency) means an increase in material wealth. To borrow money signifies a need to retrench and could be a warning against extravagance. To spend money prophesies an unexpected profit, and to steal it predicts an unexpected stroke of luck. To dream of counting or saving money promises personal happiness providing it was not done in a miserly way."

Coins
If the coins were counterfeit, the dream foretells a minor illness; otherwise it is a fortunate omen of unexpected gain. However, this is, in a way, a peculiar dream in that the smaller or less valuable the coins are in the dream, the greater will be your gain.

BUS:
The last thing i have dreamnt of was im inside the bus riding it and doing nothing. Just im inside looking around and observing the people inside it. Did not see any familiar face but i know im safe and im going somewhere.

"Traveling by bus indicates progress toward your heart's desire; waiting for a bus signifies setbacks that will be very temporary. A bus accident predicts a period of frustration due to financial embarrassment."

There you go, what you think about it? I think i should be thankful of this dreams because i know they are very good signs for me. To continue whatever i have started and to where i am now. I just need more patience, determination and will. Continous faith and perseverance, I know whatever my heart wishes for someday soon i will have them little by little. Thanks to Him.

What about you guys? Do you have some interesting dreams like mine? share it too and i would love too. Oh, and i got these informations at SWOON.COM. if you want to check some more things about your dreams go and check it out at this site.

I don't have work today, so i just stayed home and chill. Earlier we have had a visitor and papi cooked some "linguine con polpi". Linguini is a kind of spaghetti which is flat and "polpo" is a small kind of octopus. Dang!!! it's fresh and taste ohhh soo good! hehe...

Got to talk to our lawyer too today. We talked about our legitimation papers that is in the process. I hope everything will go smooth and the processing will be fast and quick so i can have it before we go back home. Help me pray for it pleeassseee!

I better go now. Im hungry and want some "kebap", its called "shawarma" in english i think. Enjoy the rest of the week guys! take care and have fun. mwahugs♥♥♥

**Bryan a.k.a. mr imbisibol! Whats wrong?...hope your doing fine.take care.

Busy bee...

2007-06-13T23:00:00.000+02:00

BUSY BEE!!!

I've been busy again for the past two days. I always arrive home late, i work from 8am to 8pm.hehe! No, i told you im not that too busy. =P

Last saturday, i got addicted uploading those brushes for my photoshop. Damn! i couldn't imagine thats the only thing i did the whole afternoon. But i think those things that i have uploaded will be really useful in the future especially for doing the layouts.hehe! I just stayed home with yana. I don't want to go out because im trying to save some money. Then sunday, same as usual just did some chores and stayed in front of the computer for the rest of the day. Ahhh!!! so boring...

I feel soo tired when i arrived at home so i don't have any time to update. So now, i guess i will have all the time because i don't have any extra work anymore. My schedule will be back to normal. But still it will depends on my mood.hehe!

I will post something about what i have dreamt last time, its kindah interesting i think so i would love to share it. =) I would like to say Thanks also to those who greeted my papi a happy birthday! thanks guys! =)

I have updated also my MULTIPLY SITE. Have time to visit and look at my recent uploaded photos. And as by request, Romina asked me to put my Guestbook and it was granted. I would love if you can go check it out and dont forget to leave that comment. Thanks in advance!

School just started in the Philippines and i know most of the bloggers will be getting busy. Just take it easy and have fun! Goodluck to all of you!

Oh, as far as i remember i still got one more tag to do and its from Romina. im soo sorry it takes me years to do it.hehe! i will try to post it asap.

Im starting to have some headache now, guess i need to go. Take care guys! Enjoy the rest of the week. mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-06-08T20:49:00.000+02:00

"No Martini, No Party!"

I was busy for the past days, because i have to attend some events outside. Last wednesday, i've visited my school, from where i studied the italian language for two years. I should be taking up the 3rd Level but i have decided not to go anymore since i have more work to do. I know two years isn't enough but i have my father who speaks italian at home so we are obliged to speak.

I was just amazed when i saw the school again. Not too much students attending now, but actually on the registration day you will see at least 300plus and most of them are Filipino. But then, as time goes by and since school starts in autumn some are getting lazy to go to school. Especially when its rainy days then followed by winter.ohh soo cold! Untill they decide not to continue anymore and just stop going to school. Kindah bad though.

I have been so affectionate with my teacher. I remember on our first day, i don't want to stay in her class because of the rumors that i have heard about her. That she teach fast and not as nice as anybody else. But then, as time goes by i'm enjoying her class and decided to stay there. I also have this very nice classmates and we always have fun every time i go to school. And that we all became so close with each other. I love going to school but i can't anymore because i have more important things to do. Anyway, i can go back there anytime i want.

That's my teacher, Michela on the picture together with me. She's lovely, sweet, very nice, patient and yeah oh soo pretty. We used to talked on the phone every now and then just to know how things going on. She's a bit busy now, because she's studying at the University and wanted to pursue her career as a real teacher. She told me she have tried teaching kids recently and she had fun. "Auguri di tante belle cose miki, a presto. ti vogliamo bene. tanti baci."

Yesterday, its my PAPI'S 59th birthday! We celebrated it outside together with papi's friend. We had some pizza, drank some wine and champagne and sang Happy birthday for him. Some were not able to make it, but anyway the dinner was good and we had fun. I know papi was happy eventhough the celebration was simple. Actually, i don't have any gift for him.hehe! But what he always say is that, as long as we are happy and were together that will be the greatest gift he will ever have for his whole life. awwww!

"Tanti Auguri papino mio!, ti vogliamo un mondo di bene!"

It's saturday once again, chillaxin' and shopping will be the best thing to do.haha! I'm sorry if i wasnt able to go on your pages the past day, don't have time. But after this im gonna start blog hoppin'. I'm gonna update my multiply (photo site) asap so you can see some more photos.

Have a nice weekend guys! take care always. mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-06-05T00:11:00.000+02:00

REROUTING + METRO-FART-ING.

What you see in the image is a notice in every bus and train stop. It says that those usual train that are going on that certain part will have to reroute and will have to transfer on a bus up to its final destination.

I forgot that it will be starting today. I used to go out and catch the train at 7:05am to be exact. I ran after it but i wasn't able to get it.dang! So i have to wait for another one coming. It's really a chaos though, taking the bus then go down at a certain bus-slash-train stop and have to ride another one that will bring you to your destination.

This happens mostly in Summer season, they took the chance because most of the people in the city are in vacation. But hell, how about the ones who will be staying here?duh. What i've read on that thingy on the first time was it will take only 5 days for them to repair the road but heck! it will take them almost 3 months. Starting today up to September, err...don't know the exact date. Sigh! that means transportation during this time will be really hard. Oh well...I just hope it will be done as soon as possible and as early as expected. *cross fingers*

Actually, im just preoccupied about my work because i dont want to be late. It takes time waiting for the train then the substitute bus to come. Hay...just gonna deal with that. Just need to get used where and what will be the easiest way to reach work and home.

Up to my next story of the day.lolz!

I used to take the Metro going to work. For those who doesn't know what Metro is, it is our underground train here. It's the most accessible transportation here that is why lots of people used to use it. No traffic! The only problem is, there is always loads of people that you can't even move your hands.

Taking the Metro is a risk.haha! You know why? here are some examples...

-I used to get up early, just to take a bath so when i go out of the house i will look neat, fresh and of course i smell good. But then be careful when you go take the Metro, there are people who doesn't do the same thing like us. ok, i'll go straight to the point. They S-T-I-N-K! and they really STINK! period. am i acting soo rude? sorry. =P

-You have to be aware of your things and watch out over the people who are near to you. Because you'll never know!*wink* There were this good-looking people who will stand by your side but then after without you knowing your wallet was already gone, or maybe your cellphone or IPOD.dang! that's scary...

-Last, and since Metro in the morning has always lots of people you have to be very careful at once. You'll never know that those men or women wearing those black-formal-suits can kill you.haha! Ok, what i mean is..."Damn, somebody put a bomb in here!" Will anybody ever tell you who among them did that!

This morning i was standing against the door of the Metro. Two persons in front of me sitting and two men standing right beside me. The open window gives that air comes from the outside. Then after stopping in some station i was like "ERRRRR...What the hell is that smell?!".*looking around* I looked at the man in front of me then at my side. (talking to myself)"Aha! gotcha...it's you. your the one who put the bomb! *paksh***". Damn! i can't breath...im suffocated! ampf! In short, "that uneducated guy F-A-R-T-E-D!". He didn't even think about the people who will get poisoned by his..ampfness! Anyway, so much for the fart thingy.

I still have one more tag to be done and it is from Romina. Don't you worry i never forget about it.hehe! Yay! im off from work tomorrow! No work day for ychel. So, it will be a lazy day for me!hehe.*biggrin*

I better go now. See yah!

2007-06-02T22:36:00.000+02:00

Give me FOUR!

I've got tagged by BAM.

4 JOBS I’VE HAD
Housemaid (same as bam! i've been doing all the chores since i was 11.hehe! and yeah without the salary! errr...)
Production Assistant
Freelance Artist
Babysitter.haha! ( i love kids!*wink*)

4 MOVIES I’VE WATCHED OVER & OVER
Prince and ME
Along came Polly
300
The Sweetest thing

4 PLACES I’VE LIVED
Milan
Mandaluyong
Batangas
Manila(Sampaloc)

4 TV SHOW/STATIONS I LIKE TO WATCH
Sex and the City
MTV!
Canale 5
Discovery Channel

4 PLACES I’VE BEEN ON VACATION
Ravenna, Italy
Batangas
Bergamo, Italy
Genoa, Italy

4 OF MY FAVE FOODS
Mozarella
Shrimps
Chicken
Pasta

4 PLACES I’D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
My bed! =)
At the BEACH!!!
HOME (Philippines...I wanna go home!)
Disneyland!

4 PEOPLE WHO WILL (hopefully) RESPOND TO THIS MEME GAME
len
astrid
cai
luki

Aha! Done.

Got tagged by the same topic by arianne so, here yah go.hehe! Safe! I still have one more pending tag from Romina. I will do it the next time im gonna post. =)

Today is holiday here. Italy is celebrating their "festa della Republicca". Im really not sure what this is but it has to do something with the Italy's republic. So i've got the chance to stay in bed untill late and then go out.

SHOPPING! SHOPPING! this what really makes my day.*biggrin* I go out with my mom this afternoon eventhough were having some bad weather. Just exactly when we go out of the house it started raining but nothing can't stop me! It's been three weeks since the last time i went out and go shopping.hehe! So, im really excited to go out and see what i can buy. Well, shopping while raining is just perfect and worth. I have bought lots of things for myself, my mom and a friend. =) The day just went good inspite of the bad weather.

Oh, for Tina, my parents are doing good. They still have to wait for thier scheduled date on when they are going to have the operation. But papi, sometimes or most of the time doesn't feel well. It is because of the medicines he is taking. Oh well, need more patience then after everything will be back to normal. Just pray for the successful operation of both of my parents, soon. thanks! =)

I'm not sure if im done hopping. haha! I have lots of links, thats why. =P I still have one more pending tag then some links to add. I'll do it asap. And thanks for those who always visit, tag and comment.hehe! if there is any.lolz!

Take care guys! Have a good Sunday...mwahugs.♥♥♥

2007-06-01T01:41:00.000+02:00

AFTER 10 YEARS!!!

Weeee!!!! Finally after 10 long years i was able to update.haha!*biggrin*

I'M BACK!!! I missed my blog...i missed the blogosphere and damn! i miss you all!...I've got lots of pending tags and some people that i need to add on my link. Don't worry guys, just wait and i will do everything little by little.

This will be a quick post because it took me long doing my new layout. And now, im tired!hehe. I'm supposed to have my new layout 2 days ago but then i still have to finish some things. Then i got sick for a day and yeah my computer was almost at risk. But thank God! everything was back to normal, i hope. I need to scan all my files, reconfigurate it and do the defragment. It took me almost 6hours doing the defragment but at least something improved on my laptop! Whoa...

I will do my pending tags tomorrow. im so tired for now and im gonna hop on your pages. PROMISE!!! because...IM BACK!!!yay!!!

Have a nice day guys! Take care. mwahugs ♥♥♥

2007-05-16T01:49:00.000+02:00

Tag...tag...tag! I got tagged by LUKI♥ .

I've already done one like this before but since i got tagged then i have to do it. Anyway, i dont have any particular topic for now. And i guess i have discovered more weird things about myself.lolz! Here yah go...

Rules:
Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. I talk TOOO MUCH! I used to talk on the phone for long hours as in LOOOONG hours. =D I remember when i was in the philippines i used to use the phone for at least 7 to 10hours.hehe! I really enjoy talking and making stories. But here, hmmm...just two hours because our wireless used to run out of battery. I think i have to buy the one that lasts for at leasts 5hours.haha!

2. I spend years inside the bathroom.haha! I guess its a girl thing. Most of the girls spend hours inside the bathroom. Combing, putting lotion and other creams, shampoo plus conditioner, make-up (but i dont use them), plucking and shaving.lolz.

3. Talking to myself alone. I can make a story and do my own dialogue just talking to myself.haha! I can make a scenario with the exact time and date an introduction of the story and its ending. Or maybe just a plain talk to my conscience or myself. Thinking of what i need to do for the whole day, what happened and preparing for whatever can happen. I dont know if it is normal but yeah, there are other people who does it too. right?

4. I'm an OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE. (Click it for more info) Do you think that cleaning the bathroom and toilet at 1am is normal?hahaha. *biggrin*

5. I'm obsessed to Sarah Jessica Parker's "Sex and the City". I just don't know why i got so addicted with this TV series. I started watching it when i was in college. Then as time goes by i love to see every episode of it. I even downloaded it and have a chance to watch the very first Season until the third one. Actually im on the 2nd Season and about to finish its episodes. Well, the show isn't really all about sex but then you will learn about lots of lots of things about dating, handling and dealing with people and practically with relationships.

6. I've invented my own motto: "What ychel wants, ychel gets.". hehe! I know it sounds kindah scary, but i always have the determintion of getting what i really want. And i guess it also works with other things.lolz!

7. I used to eat Jack n' Jill Chippy with rice. yeah, i eat chippy together with rice well better try it because it really taste good*wink*

8. I love earrings and other accesories. I think girl's are really obsessed with those kind of things just like me.hehe! I've got this collection of earrings especially the stars. And yeah i l♥ve bags and shoes too.hehe! I've got every color that matches my clothes. I guess im gonna be that next Imelda Marcos in the making.lolz!

9. I used to sleep 3 to 4hours everyday. I know this is bad for my health. I don't get enough sleep and rest. I go to work in the morning and out in the city most of the day walking, running to catch the train and buses and traveling long. And i dont feel like too tired after the long day, i can still watch tv and chat for the rest of the night.

10. I can kill myself by my "morbid thoughts".(from arianne) I think harsh things..really harsh until i got scared by my ownself. Like when I travel everyday and used to ride the Metro.(underground train) I will think that there would be something bad that will happen like someone will gonna leave a bomb, it will explode and then everyone's gonna be dead including me.haha! Or somebody will gonna push me on the train's railway while it is about to arrive at the station and will find myself on the ground into pieces. *biggrin* haha..forget about this one.lolz!

11. How about eating rice with gravy, i mean lots of gravy..yummy! I used to put gravy on my rice just like a soup.haha! It really tastes good. Especially when it is KFC's gravy. Damn...i miss KFC soo much.

12. I don't eat PICKLES and OLIVES! I dont know why, i just dont like them. Hamburgers here used to have pickles in the middle and i will remove them first before eating. Most of the pizza here has olives in it and yeah like pickles im gonna remove them one by one before eating it.

13. I'm MOODY! I'm super moody! i can change moods in half an hour or every hour. Maybe there would things that would trigger me to change my moods but most likely i can feel very happy and bad at the same time. I guess i need to consult somebody about this.haha!

14. I'm scared of reptiles like snakes, crocodiles and the likes. But when i was in my sixth grade i was able to touch a phython at the zoo. You know, that snake that is big as my legs(just imagine how big my legs are.haha!) and is long as 2 to 3meters.*biggrin* And oh, i even owned an iguana. Yes, i took care of a little iguana it was a bday present of a friend. She was named as "spice" with that beautiful spikes at her back and her long tail. I used to feed her with live cockroaches and she loves it. And since nobody likes to take care of her at home i always bring her at school inside my bag and hang her on our green curtain.*devil's laugh* Nobody will notice her because of the "comuoflage" thingy. did i spell it right? correct me if im wrong. =P

15. I consider my laptop as my "boyfriend".hehe! i can't live a day without seeing it or touching it. I would rather forget my toothbrush and other important things when going out of town but my laptop... NO WAY! I'm ready to sacrifice carrying it everywhere "with handle" and no matter how heavy it is. I even miss it if i don't get to touch it for hours.haha!

Tagging: Yana, Romina, Bianca, Bryan, Moieee. Sorry! sometimes you really need to break the rules.haha! cant think of anybody. =P

Finally i was able to finish this tag.hehe! Not that its hard but i really dont have any time. And im sorry for not updating that often. Been through with lots and lots of things to deal with. Stories? yeah, i've got lots for you.hehe! And yeah, my page is begging for a new layout already, soon i will.*wink*

Thanks for all those who used to visit my site. =) I really appreciate it and i'll make it up to you guys! PROMISEEE!!! and I'm MISSING you all soo bad! I'll be back ASAP! And for my pending tags just wait and i'll do them soon.

Yay! I've started sketching tonight for my papi's exhibit this coming 27th of May. And i hope i can finish many paintings as i can. Goodluck to me! lolz...and this is what really makes me busy again.

I better go now. I'll hop with your pages soon. =) Take care guys..I miss you all. love yah.mwahugs.♥♥♥

2007-05-06T01:20:00.000+02:00

Hey yah! Guess i really need to make a quick post, hmm..to update? no..just feel like dropping by here in blogger and type something here in this section.haha! I sound really wierd now...What you think?lolz..

Well, saturday wasn't really good. Got to work then go home, eat, watch the tv and sleep untill 9pm. whoaaa! I feel lazy and dont want to do anything the whole day. Just want to lay down, stare at my laptop and think of nothing. I have thought of doing some other things but then i suddenly felt this emptiness in me. I don't understand all things are mixed up. I was trying to organize and accomplish some works but then dont feel like doing it. Am i just lazy or maybe there were things that bothers me?...who knows?...MAYBE!!!!

My new "UPDATED" Windows Media Player was not doing good as well as my itunes and i dont know whats the reason. I'm trying to burn a cd, i tried doing it for 2hours but nothing happened. A very simple thing but then i was not able to do it.hayy...so frustrating!

Earlier my internet is not working. I left my laptop on and my ym online but when i got home everything isn't working anymore. So i tried figuring out what is wrong about my connection. I called up my network provider ask them about what is happening. Oh well, its my router i guess from time to time it will happen. I needed to reset it and configure it once again. anyways, thank God everything is back to normal again. *wink*

Since nobody is online and i was not able to accomplish things around here i decided to just watch my favorite series "Sex and the City". I don't know whats with this TV show has that it bothers me most of the time after watching it. Maybe because i can relate about Sarah Jessica Parker's topics. Take note, the show isn't really about just "SEX" itself. It tackles about different relationships, i mean how to handle relationships, learning about men's and women's bad habits or attitudes towards each other, some crazy and weird things about sex.hehe! Well, try to watch some of the episodes and tell me how was it.

I just got curious about the last episode that i've watched earlier. The previous one is all about Carrie's breaking up with his boyfriend Big. Then followed up by this episode that i've seen a while ago. Carrie's topic was about "Do we have to play a game to make a relationship work?"..i have found it soo interesting. Then followed up by another question "Does HONEST relationship do really exist? Were was it true?", or it is just like were playing chess that we have to make a move and strategies towards our opponent and win the game. Oh well, as i've watched it i got to realize some things. It doesn't really answer those questions but it is for you to know, discover and learn about it. Guess this was a big help.hehe!

Ahh!! then finally, i got the chance to write and tell you whatever is on my mind for the meantime. I was trying to finish my supposed-to-be-post last night. Because i got tagged by Luki, and while i was doing it i felt this sudden attack of laziness.*biggrin* So, i'll have to finish it soon and post it as soon as i can.

Time for me to go...Have a good Sunday everyone! take care..and i miss you all!mwahugs..i'll try to hop on your pages very soon. love y'all!

2007-04-30T22:15:00.000+02:00

UPDATE! Weeeee...Finally! =D

Hi guys! How you all doing? Im really sorry for not dropping by and updating my blog. =( Im uber busy! errr...But anyway i guess everything is doing fine. ahh! at least..hehe..

Actually i don't know where to begin my stories, im agitated about that something i can't really explain. Oh well, i think because it took me sometime to write one again and im gonna try my best.lolz!

First, i would like to thank my blogger friends who never fails to drop by and leave me comments and tag. thanks guys i really appreciate it. and also for those who included me in their prayers for my papi and mami. thanks a lot guys! and oh, I MISSSSSS YOU ALL SOOOO MUCHO! hehe. love y'all.mwahugs.♥♥♥

Work..work..work..that is what i am doing the whole week i mean 6 days of the week. At least i still have one day of rest.haha! I've started my new work a week ago, and yeah its kindah difficult for me because im not really used of working that long now. I have to wake up as early as 6am then i need to be out by 7am to catch the train. I should be on time if not im gonna be late for work. Oh well, which always happens and nothing new with that.lolz! Sometimes i dont have anytime to eat or at least take some break because i dont want to waste any minute from my time.

I used to get online late now. I usually arrive at home at 9pm and then i have to eat and have to take some break and yeah im still the one who is in-charge of washing the dishes.dang! But anyway, i can manage im still adjusting for the mean time i guess but i know i will get used to it. What i hate is the long travel that i need to do, i need to catch the train on time so i always need to hurry up and run as fast as i can. On the other side, i know its good for me though because its a good form of exercise.haha! I've already lost some fats and my belly is a bit small now.lolz.

Oh i've cut my hair a week ago too. =) I need to trim it as often as i can because its getting longer now and im lovin it!*biggrin* Actually me and yana cut our hair at the same day were supposed to go together but sometimes shes lazy.haha!

I still dont have any idea what to post in particular but then ill try to update and drop by on your pages. And also if ever i forgot somebody who wants the exchange links then just remind me. Sorry don't have time to do it but sure thing ill do it. =)

Yay!!! tomorrow will be holiday again. May 1 and it's labor day! too good they honor this day here at least i can rest. Aha! no not really summer is fast approaching and its already spring so we need to change our sets of shoes once more. I'm done with my closet anyway, ive already put out my summer clothes.hehe! Need to get ready because they say that it would be really hot this summer and yeah i think it will make me really dark.awwww!

What about my other plans for the future, i mean in the coming weeks ahead? First, of course, nothing but to work, work, work again.=D Then i've got free tickets for two at the cinema. Me and yana is planning to watch the Spiderman 3.hehe! Glenna left me a tag saying she wants to go too for me its ok that would be fun. =) Then papi will hold an exhibit of paintings and others regarding about arts. It would be in the last week of May. I want to do at least one or two paintings but i dont have much time to do that. I'm moody and i dont think i can finish it with my small time remaining in the evening. But we will see, i hope i can do at least one. And i really want a NEW LAYOUT! too bad, im too lazy for now but i will try to work on it little by little. Goodluck for me! lolz...

Anyway, i think i better go for now. Im feeling really exhausted. Im gonna drop by your pages asap. PROMISE!!! take care always and have a good time! mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-04-17T23:01:00.000+02:00

UPDATE! my blog is begging me to update.hehe!

I just finished talking to yana on the phone for about hmmm..guess almost two hours.haha! It's almost a week since i've updated this. Well, there were things that happened previously but then i would rather keep it to myself.haha! Kindah private.lolz.

Regarding my papi, thanks for the prayer guys. i really really appreciate them, thanks for all the concern and sympathy.love you guys! Papi is doing good, we have started our diet.haha! Everybody needs it, its already spring time here and were getting ready for that summer...summer time!bwahaha... And my mom, she still have to wait untill she get the results then the day she will have the operation. So, need more prayers. thanks! =)

Last week was kindah stressful. Work, family and everything around me but then i'm still here writing and telling you some stories. We've been at the lawyer yesterday regarding about my documents. Well, i've got positive answers and some possibilities to have them as soon as possible. I just have to work on everything like the documents and the modules that i need for the processing of the papers. It really needs time and patience and as well as prayers. Oh and also a lot of money.hehe! I'll have to keep my fingers cross untill the time that i've got them.

Im not gonna make this a long one for now, im just missing my blog and my blogger friends. I'm sorry if im not able to drop by on your pages for some time. forgive me guys! I promise i will...and for those who want the links ill link you all up now! hehe...

I'm waiting for a package, dang! When it will arrive? hayyy...im so excited about my chocolates.hahaha!

Take care guys! thanks a lot for dropping by here. I miss you all...SUPER!!! love y'all...mwahugs...♥♥♥

2007-04-12T14:59:00.000+02:00

Welcome Home PAPI!!!

Weee! yeah, finally papi is already home. He was sent home by the doctor yesterday afternoon. Finally, they set him free.lolz! But then they have talked to papi before he was finally released. They have told him that he needs to have another operation. hayyy! Well, they should have done it after papi have the "angioplastic" but then the doctor said he couldn't. He have taken so many medicines and then got an infection and or allergy. So they cant do it immediately. And the allergy was really horrible, it leaves lots of mark in papi's skin. It will take a week i guess for everything to get dry.

Papi has a problem with his throat. He used to sleep with his respirator beside him at night. One of his throat's artery is blocked and i guess that is the cause. (i forgot how they call it) He needs to get operated once again, he needs to undergo some examinations and then they will tell him when. But i think it will be soon, probably after 30days and maximum will be after 60days. My boss told me that its one of the dangerous operations papi could have. If not done with care then papi's life with be at risk. poor papi!=( Because one of the artery in our throat gives blood all the way to our brain (correct me if wrong) then if it gets block it could cause some failure in his respiration and others. Sorry, im really not good in explaining this things i just hope you get them.lolz! Well, im asking for your little prayers. They will be greatly appreciated. thanks in advance! =)

Oppsss..not yet finish! =P I still have got one more thing to tell you.hehe! Yesterday before i go to work mami is not feeling well. She wake up feeling bad she told me, it is because she had her period. In a week now, mamina will undergo examinations regarding her illness. She will have to spend one whole day in the hospital doing all the examinations she needed. She will have to wait for the result and then the doctor will tell her when she will have the operation. Hayyy...too much of this. oh well, i understand it anyway. I guess they really have to do all this. At least better do it now than later so it will not have to get worst. And when it is thime for us to go back home, there will be no more problems regarding thir health. Here they are all free.hehe! but then im still too occupied about this things eventhough the operations aren't that serious or something still thier lives are at risk. Guys, please im asking for your little prayers. thanks a lots!

All im hoping is they will feel better and will have to maintain themselves being healthy. That is the most important thing for me. And yeah i hope they will not be admitted both at the same time.haha! How could i attend to both of them if ever, i cant cut myself into two.lolz! then plus my work from morning 7am to 8pm.haha! What you think? Oh well, im hoping that everything will be all finished...ASAP! i couldn't take it anymore always in the hospital. Because in our family nobody gets to be hospitalized. As i remember, its only my grandfather who has been confine once because of heart attack then after nobody else. And now here, there, right and left...my mom and my dad. oh well, i really have to go through this and i know this will pass and together we will be happy in time. Hayyy....I need to stay firm and be strong enough with all these things. Help!...Oh God! help me...

I've met my friend yesterday, she will have have her vacation in the Philippines this month untill June i guess. I said my goodbye for the mean time. Oh well, i was sad that she have to leave but then behind it theres also this one reason.haha! She told me that i look really sad and she knew it was because of another thing too. But then she suddenly told me: "Hey you can do it! we have known each other for some years now and i know you are always that strong. You can always go through with all this problems and stuffs around you. I always believe in you. YCHEL is ychel! and nobody else. Come on, you can do it!". ahhh! What a relief though. She really knew me. She told me that i just need to burst it out and cry (which i used to do) then after im gonna be fine. Oh well, i've already cried(after trying to control it for almost 3days). Its one of my outlet to really express how i feel. Maybe i feel a bit better now, i guess. :) errr...enough of this!

I still got a pending tag from TINA. Here yah go:

"3 or 4 funny things you do to relieve stress. When deadlines are fast approaching but you’re not even halfway through. When your boss is on your ass like a crazed bullrider. When you feel your salary (or allowance) just doesn’t fit your preferred lifestyle. When you partner feels he/she just isn’t getting enough from you."

1. When im stressed i used to go out. I'll call one of my girlfriends and take some pictures.hehe! Will gonna make some funny faces and have fun. Laugh our ass out.haha! laugh without caring with anybody else around. hehe!

2. Well, im gonna think and think and daydream. Then im gonna talk to myself and think of a scenario and think of something funny and laugh at it alone.haha! that would really relieve my stress.*biggrin* but dont think im crazy!*raising eyebrow*

3. To relieve stress is what you saying? i'll go SHOPPING!!! but then if my money isnt enough anymore...i'll go bring mami and papi with me so they have to pay for me.haha! *devil's laugh*

I really dont know if they are funny but then those are the things i used to do for me to relieve my stress. And im tagging astrid and cai.

Ok, i guess this post should be enough for today. Actually im supposed to post this last night but then stupid me! i dont save my post ever just gonna write it in an instant then poof! when its gone its gone. Anyways, i have to go. I came from the hospital with mami and papi. We have visited papi's friend there. They say that they are really happy to know us and the same with us. Then maybe sometime we will have to go out all together and eat outside. =)

Take care guys...Have a great Friday and weekend too! mwahugs♥♥♥...

**thanks for letting me know how you doing. i just cant live a day without you. but then if this is what you want then its ok, i understand and i respect you always. i will keep praying for you. I hope you will find that peace that you wanted.i will be strong enough for you so that maybe one time you'll gonna need me then you can always lean on me. i will hold your hand and will never let you fall.Im just here. im gonna wait for you.I miss you badly...so bad! i miss you like HELL!...take care always. hope you feel better soon and all things will be back to normal. my love for you is always here. im with you in spirit. i love you and i always will.**

2007-04-09T22:02:00.000+02:00

I'm BACK!!!

hi guys!!!!!! I miss youuuuu!!! I miss BLOGGING and I MISS YOU ALL!

Anyway, im here now and im back.hehe! Honestly, i didn't go anywhere i just need some time to think over some things. Need that S-P-A-C-E. Guess it helps.lolz!

First, my papi is in the hospital. Actually it will be two weeks this thursday that he is staying there. We didn't know that he will be staying that long inside the hospital. He was called a week ago to have an examination for his heart. Then after that, they have found out that his heart's veins or artery are 99% close. He always complain about his heart lately, thats why. Once he got angry and really mad then that will give him a heart attack. Three more days and he will be confine in the hospital but then the doctor was just in time calling him and admitting him immediately.

Monday, he was operated again it was called "angioplastic". Were they took the chance of opening papi's veins and arteries through his heart. Papi is still fortunate, the doctor have tried putting the device in his wrist instead of putting it under his stomach and or cutting his upper right leg. He is fat and putting the device under his stomach will give him much pain and it will be a really long process untill it gets into his heart. So, thank God! They were able to open up everything in just one try without giving papi that much pain. Because if it didn't open, then he needs to have another operation. He will have to get a heart bi-pass. Thank God! papi doesnt need it anymore and he said he really feels good and have a new heart. Well, i guess his really just inlove with my mom.lolzzzz!

He is still in the hospital untill now because he got poisoned by the medicine. Instead of intoxicating and removing the anesthesia in papi's body it happened the other way, papi got intoxicated. So it became complicated. Papi has diabetes, there are medicines that they cant give him. Saturday, we have seen papi with his eyes and cheeks swollen up to sunday. They made a mistake giving him the medicine. Then after, papi got an allergy. Hayyyy!!! sometimes doctors really are hmpf!! They made it worst for papi. This last two days, he really got lots of scars in his skin because of scratching too much he cant even sleep at night. poor papi!=( Hopefully in two days he will be out of the hospital.

I've got 4 days vacation this holy week. Too bad we were planning ahead that we will be out of town but then it was all cancelled because of what happened. We have celebrated our Holy week and Easter Sunday inside the hospital. Mami have prepared some sweets and same thing with the other family that we have acquainted inside. First time for me to experience staying with my loved one inside the hospital. Because in the Philippines nobody in the family gets to be hospitalized. As i remembered, once it was my grandfather but then after that none of us anymore. And to think now, it is my father who was inside the hospital and got operated.

It was a good experience too. Knowing and being acquainted with the other patients there and their family. We have known some other people inside and treated like good friends. I even made jokes with the nurses there.hehe! We get along with this family which is in the other bed near papi's. They are so nice, we tell stories and exchange sweets almost everyday. We share foods on Easter sunday up to today. It was really great! =) Just hope we can get to meet again some other time, because they live far. They live outside Milan, one and a half hour travel.

Other good news, is that i guess a week ago my papers from the Philippines just arrived. weeee!!! After papi gets out of the hospital we will then have to get an appointment with the lawyer and we will talk what is the first thing we have to do. But then i hope things will turn out just right. Im really afraid of getting disappointed if ever! =( I have to cross my fingers untill i get my papers done. ahhh! Help me pray...Thanks! =)

On the other side, guess things are happening just good.haha! Inspite and eventhough the last few weeks was really hard for me. I got depressed and was really hopeless with what had happened. But then i was able to regain and recover or still in the process of recovering.hehe! Things happened unexpectedly and yeah kindah ironic. It really hits me like a thunderstorm. Then other persons were involved. It was really sad. But then in time, i get to realized and analyzed some more things. I was able to control and think of maybe better things to do.ahhh, i think so! Too much dramas had happened, too much pain and certain persons were really hurt. Hoping that things will be clearer in time.

Oh well, guess this is all for now. But then im gonna be busy because i've found a new job.weeee!! But i'll make it sure i will have time blogging. You know, i cant live without this. Being in hiatus for a week is enough. Oh, and ive got a new record.haha! it has been 3days that my pc was on.lolz! i just leave it open since the hospital is near our house. Damn! i cant believe...leaving this on without turning it off!err...hope it will not get tired untill wednesday morning. =P

The image was a gift from len last Easter Sunday! thanks your sooo sweet.mwah! Thanks for visiting my blog eventhough i was absent for sometime. I'll make it sure that i'm gonna drop by in your pages. PROMISE!!! Thanks guys! Love y'all! mwahugs♥♥♥

Have a great week ahead guys...

**im sorry for all the stress, the dramas and pain. I know things will get better in time. Im just here anytime you need me. Take care and i love you.**

2007-04-03T14:20:00.000+02:00

...i'll be back!.

I miss you guys! love y'all...take care...mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-03-28T18:23:00.000+02:00

I dreamed of you last night,
I see that smile on your face
I feel the warmth of your embrace
I feel that soft lips.

We were together,
looking each others eyes
holding each others hands
those sweet kisses.

I love the way you comfort me,
the way you stroke my hair
the way you look at me
I just l♥ve the way you are.

A day full of L♥ve,
a wonderful night
You and I,
whispering our "I l♥ve you's".

...it was just a Perfect Dream.

-by Me- (dreamin' of you!)

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Ti ho sognato questa notte,
il tuo sorriso
il tuo abbraccio
la tua labbra.

Insieme, io e te,
ci guardavamo gli occhi
mano nella mano
I dolcissimi baci.

Stiamo bene quando siamo insieme,
mi piace quando mi acarezzi
come guardi,
mi piace come sei.

Il giorno pieno del'am♥re,
Una notte meravigliosa
Io e te,
sussuriamo "io ti amo"♥.

...a un sogno perfetto.

-by Me- (dreamin' of you!)

2007-03-26T23:32:00.000+02:00

How's everybody? Im a bit busy this last few days, im busy sleeping.haha! All i want after work is climb up into my bed and sleep or just play with my new psp-like-toy.lolz! Just want to free my mind from stress.*wink*

This weekend we were not able to go out of town. oh thank goodness! But...i was asked to help prepared a place for a baptism.hehe! The event happened last sunday and so saturday i was asked together with my girlfriends to design something in the recemption. Im glad though, because finally i will get to see my old girlfriends again. =) Donna, jeng, wena and I had fun that day. We did our normal "laughing trips", jokes, cam whoring, singing and dancing. That we used to do when were all together, it was like "there will be no tomorrow" for us. haha! t'was really fuuun!

Then on the day of the event, we had muchooo fun! We were asked to do some task like giving the souvenirs and cake and ask people to sign for the baby-guests-signature-thingy.lolz! Then we all dance together. The highlight of the event is when mami and arvin (aryans bro) dance some chacha in the dancefloor. Then we (my girlfriends) had fun dancing all the way and aryan sang three songs i guess. hmm...as i remember it was "fame", "i will survive" & "dancing queen". Well, i didnt expect aryan will be there but then good thing she came over with her mom. Mami and Papi was there also and im glad that finally tita mildred(aryan's mom) and my mom were able to meet personally. hehe! Yana and I used to hang out she used to go to my place and same with me but then our parents never meet at all. =P

Many things happened in the past week. My last week was kindah depressing but then thank God i was able to survive once again. =) Some problems just popped up once again, unexpectedly. Anyway, it happened already and like i used to say "just have to deal with it".

I also had fun together with the "accursio boys". I don't know much of them but there are some who really are very close to me. We had some laughs and was tripping with each other. I didn't even consider myself as their "Ate". Im the oldest girl in the group, but then i put myself and think the way they are.haha! So, it was like i feel 18 years old again.lolz! And just like what boo said: "keeping yourself young at heart". =D

The day was great eventhough it was kindah tiring and also had a bad weather. It was raining since saturday then the whole day of sunday. Anyway, as long as we had fun! =) I hope there would be another event though, so we can see each other again.haha! The event makes its way for us to have bonding.

I would like to congratulate astrid and paeng and all the others who were able to make it finally to finish thier school wheather it is highschool or college. Sorry i can't remember the others. Goodluck to all of you in your future. And yeah, its already summer vacation in the Philippines...Enjoy your summer vacation and had fun!

Thanks for always visiting my little home. =) And dont forget to leave a comment and a tag. lolz! Have a great week ahead guys. Take care always! mwahugsss♥♥♥

**to see more of the pictures CLICK HERE!**

2007-03-23T00:44:00.000+01:00

Finally! sorry for not updating my blog often, just got some things to do.lolz! But its not because im uber busy like others. There are just things that happened recently, maybe im gonna tell the stories when im not that emotional at all. =P

Monday, we have celebrated Father's day here. It's St. Joseph's feast day, the husband of mary. Well, on that day we were not able to go out because i've worked untill late so im tired already. But then papi have cooked some baked pasta with cream, hotdogs, ham and cheese. Then he bought a particular sweets that is special on that day it is called "zeppole di san giuseppe". You can buy it on that day only they are specially made for the Father's day.hehe! It is like a doughnut which is coated with sugar and cream filled inside with a piece of cherry on top. its really yummmy! =) Then we opened some champagne...cheers!!!

The next day, i treat papi out for lunch. Well, its a disaster.lolz! Mami told me about this "pinoy restaurant" that cooks pinoy dishes with an affordable price. So to be different i'm gonna treat them there. We got the address of the place but mami didn't even remember the name of the resto and even its number. So, we were there at pass 4pm then find the place but no..nothing..NO pinoy resto at all! Oh well, mami made a mistake.errr! I was really dreaming of eating "adobo", "tilapia" with rice and sinigang or mongo. ampf! So we ended up eating at the same resto we used to eat. It was then almost 7pm when we reached the place. I soo hungry! So i have eaten rice, spare ribs, french fries, spring roll and ravioli. Actually, that time i've got a toothache.lolz! There the day ended..."Ti voglio un mondo di bene, papiii!♥".

That day also i've got a really special gift. =) a gold necklace with a diamond amethyst. hmm..it was given to me by a person who cares. awww! im soo touched! i feel soo special. Don't have a word! Thank you very much..."mami paula♥". hehe! feeelinggg! =P lolz! thanks...thanks...boo, give her another hug for me. =) And another gift from papi. I told him i want a psp but then since papi can't afford it for the mean time he gave me this psp-like-toy.haha! I feel like a kid though, it has lots of games and has a memory card slot. oh well, as long as im enjoying it. Thanks papi!mwahugs♥♥♥

There you go for now, other pics will be uploaded on my multiply site. Check it out whenever you have time. Thanks for those who commented and who keeps on visiting and leavin their tags. Keep it coming guys! I've already updated my links for those who asked the link exchange.thanks guys! I miss you all and i he♥rt you. mwahugs..♥♥♥

Have a great weekend! take care y'all.

2007-03-19T00:29:00.000+01:00

I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

-Dangerously In Love by Beyoncè Knowles-

"Love is a choice. It is, primarily and basically, a choice. It is you who decides whether to love or not. You can fall in love with anybody. Falling in love is different to love itself. Everyone has a notion of love. Some poeple may categorize love as an inexplainable emotion felt with someone. The way their hearts skip a beat, or when they feel that "somebody takes their breath away". If someone satisfies your idea of love, you may have fallen in love with that person. But then again, there is a nuance to the situation. Falling in love becomes a myth in search for true love.

Love is never a happy word. Love is coterminous with suffering, pain, and sacrifice. And that is what makes it a choice. When you choose to accept a person despite EVERYTHING, that is love. When you choose to love, you CHOOSE to be hurt. You CHOOSE to suffer. You CHOOSE to sacrifice.

Love is sacred. And so is commitment. Commitment symbolizes the decision to love. You can love a person without commiting, but you can never commit yourself to that person without love. Commitment marks love. It symbolizes your decision. Commitment in a relationship need not to be hard work. It does not require anything but love. That itself is enough.

Love is willing. Love is rare. It does not happen all the time. It does not happen in an instant. It takes time. Because it takes time to decide."

-by Bam the Great (Muffled Chatterbox-Moonstruck Glade)

I was on my way home when i have heard that song in my ipod. I was like "ouch", it was like it slapped me on my face. It really striked me..."rawr!". I cant really express how and what im feeling right now but maybe the song and that post from Bam may have given you the idea. My last post is a song also and its a bit confusing. And now, i know you might be thinking that im "Inlove". haha! I guess im starting to reveal something now. lolzzz! But just leave it as it is, I can't tell you more than this. I will make you think and leave you puzzled about this things. haha! as if...lolz!

I would like to thank my ♥blogger friends♥ for the neverending support and love. Thank you for the kind words, the comments and the tags. mwahuggs♥ I can't tell you that im ok now, but im feeling better not like the past week. I hope everyting will be back to normal as soon as possible. I'll be starting to update and post something different. Some interesting topic and stories that is happening to me everyday. So, i hope you'll gonna continue visiting my blog. =) Have a great week ahead of you guys! take care...mwahugs♥♥♥

Auguri Papino mio! Bouna Festa del Papà!
Ti voglio un mondo di bene.♥♥♥
*(happy father's day) [feast day of St. Joseph (mary's husband)]*

2007-03-14T18:50:00.000+01:00

I want to paint my face
and pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even wanna look at myself

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over

I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
And you might think its easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty

Sometimes I find myself shaking
in the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't
even believe this is my life

But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go an shut their mouth
I'm not strong enough to deal with it

-Stand Still, Look Pretty by the Wreckers-

**this song was given to me by arianne. she used this as her blog's song for a while. the time she's bit a depressed i guess.(arianne correct me if im wrong.) im not depressed..i dont know why this is happening again.err! sudden attack of "don't know"?!!...i really dont know what's the reason. sometimes you really just feel like this way and don't know why and how and what...blahhh.. i even dont know what to write. but this song could hardly express whats really inside of me now and maybe things that i maybe thinking. oh well...if you want to hear the song just CLICK! this link. I'll gonna hop on your blogs when i have more time. im gonna miss you guys! take care..mwahugs♥♥♥**

2007-03-11T17:34:00.000+01:00

Up to my second post for the day. I've seen a friend yesterday morning on my way to work. We exchange blahs..blahs...and blahs. Then she ended up asking me something that made me think and made me come back from the past year. Damn! it really hit me, i almost cried though.

The past year was a real blast for me. It is all mixed up with lots of emotions and happenings that made me think along the way. Happiness, sorrows, pains, insults, lots and lots of problems, breakups?!, friends, depression, l♥ve and the likes.

It was hard but then i was happy, because i was able to go through with them and had passed every trial and obstacles that i have had in the way. Many times i have intended to give up but then I was strong and have thought of moving on.

I remembered late last year when i started blogging. I never knew how it was, all i know is that i will write and tell stories on my posts. I never knew it was a big, big world where you will meet lots of people and lots of friends. I have learned a lot, from doing the layouts, the words that most of the bloggista's used to say and use, the expressions, i've known some of the genius persons, lots of funny & touching posts, and most of all the 'REAL' persons. Through their words you can say they are true and thier very touching words that will always wake you up and help you to get through on whatever your feeling. They always give you hope, love and wisdom. They never let you down and will always appreciate everything in you. They never 'JUDGE' you. They will love you for who you are and what you are.

I have gained a lot and have lost some. But i know this happens with purpose. It means that something is wrong and some of this are things that i don't deserve. Then the 'Expect the unexpected' thingy will came along the way. I never expected that i will lost a friend-ship relation-ship. I have tried to understand and think of the best reasons on what to do and how to repair but then it was broken. Never had the time to talk and clear things out. It remained just broken. I don't know what happened, i don't understand but somehow and someday it will find its way to be understood. 'Life is full of surprises'.

Then another one came along. I never talked about it, never revealed anything about it. I don't want to get affected. I just let things happened the way it is. Because maybe untill now i'm afraid to face the reality, which is just right in my face. "hey, wake up! open your eyes and your mind." But i know i'm getting close with it and the more i live each day the more im getting scared. "NO! im not afraid, i know i'm brave enough." It is just a matter of expressing what i have here inside of me and i'm not afraid to let other people know about it. I will fight and i will stand up in the battle even without any weapon. Because i know there will always be somebody who will always be there to help and carry me when i got wounded once again.

Feelings that was left unsaid, many things have left undone and many questions have left unanswered. Life was really hard to deal. Living each day was like a journey from rocky mountains, rapids on the river and just walking on a plain street on the city. And the truth is you have to learn and understand what are the best ways when your on a certain scenario. It will be harder and harder but in time, experiences will leave marks and will teach you. It will guide you no matter how bad it was.

Sometimes i'd rather keep silent and hide myself. I don't want others to know about how i feel because they might misunderstood me. Everybody is not willing to put their feet on your place. Somehow, i understand. But sometimes i think, why is it always the worst things always happens to me? still it will remain a big question and will be left unanswered.

I remember arianne saying "it is the balance of nature". You will not be experiencing the same thing all of your life. There will be ups and downs. Happiness and sadness. The sun will shine but darkness will always arrive. It will rain hard and destroy everything in you. But then another tomorrow is waiting. Another day will pass and will give you hopes and dreams.

I don't want to be left behind. I know i should move on. Face everything with lots of courage. Go on and walk through that dark streets. I know time will come all things that i desire will be reachable. I will not stop, i will not give up but then i will continue to have hope. I'll keep on dreaming...

Of course, i can't promise that i will always be that strong like i used too but then i will try my very best. I will never stop thanking all the people who always help me in times like these. And of course, i will never also stop from giving you my shoulder to lean on and my ears to listen. I will always be here...anytime.

Have a great week ahead guys! take care...love y'all.mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-03-10T22:24:00.000+01:00

Toink!(the bam way!)..I got tagged by Bam again.hehe! So here you go...

A - Available/Single? - SINGLE!!! but can be taken.lolz!

B - Best Friend? - Jhoan...one is enough eventhough i've got lots. =)

C - Cake or Pie? - Cake. fruit cake, ice cream cake, sponge cake.yummm!

D - Drink Of Choice? - Fruit juice can be pinapple,orange or apple. *softdrinks* WATER! ♥rum,tequila,vodka♥ *biggrin*

E - Essential Item You Use Everyday? - Cellphone, laptop and my bag which contains all important things.

F - Favorite Colour? - Any shade of Brown, Red..hmm all colors thats inside the color wheel.lolz!

G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? - Gummy Worms. i just love that long gummy thingy.=D

H - Hometown? - MANILA, Phils....arghh! i'll be home soon.awww!

I - Indulgence? - FOOD. NET. COMPUTER. ARTS♥

J - January Or February? - JANUARY! it is my beeday month! =D enough said!

K - Kids & Their Names? - ha? don't have one. like bam ive already got a name if his a guy i will name him "zildjian" it's an Armenian name. visit google for the meaning.hehe!

L - Life Is Incomplete Without? - "L♥ve" thats what my mom said.haha!

M - Marriage date? - later. the question is am i going to get married?.LOLZ!

N - Number Of Siblings? - 1 brother and his older than me. his name is Richmond.

O - Oranges Or Apples? - Oranges. I will just make them as a fresh fruit juice.voila!hehe..

P - Phobias/Fears? - cockroaches and some snakes.ewww!

Q - Favorite Quote? - "What ychel wants, ychel gets." by me. =)

R - Reason to Smile? - simple things.

S - Season? - Spring! i love the weather not too hot not too cold. u can see the flowers bloom and u can dress up lightly.

T - Tag people? - hmmm...? *think, think* aha! astrid tsuri!, glenna...enough!

U - Unknown Fact About Me? - i hate pickles! =D

V - Vegetable you don't like? - cucumber?is it a veggie?=P

W - Worst Habit? - im an OC?..haha...obsessive compulsive!slight.tsk!

X - X-rays You've Had? - Hips. i got an accident when i was in college and needed to get my hips x-rayed. well, its not bad at all.the doc even told me that i've got a great hips.lolz!

Y - Your Favorite Food? - Coffee.(cappucino or espresso). pasta.shrimps.ice cream.

Z - Zodiac Sign? - Capricorn! ...WE RULE!!!hehe.=D

There you go..finally i'm done with this. =) i can't think of anybody to tag too..so i just tagged two fo my blogger friends.

So, till my next post guys. take care and have a good sunday!mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-03-09T23:16:00.000+01:00

Yesterday we have our dinner outside. Papi treat us because we were celebrating "festa della donna", "Womans Day". He said its our day and will be going out to eat.haha! There in the pic is my mom and of course me and my italian dad. What do you think? Do i look like him.lolz! Papi always tell me that his my real father eventhough it's not true, but we almost have everything in common. It's funny! I've eaten too much shrimps last night.lolz! I ate fried shrimps, "ravioli al vapore di gamberetti"(gamberetti is a shrimp), grilled shrimp and fries.haha! I just love shrimps.=) And after that we have the desert, two kinds of cake the pinkish one is "strawberry sponge cake" and the other one is "ice cream cake flavored hazel nut". yuummm! =D Then the white one there is a "coco ice cream"..ewww, i don't like the taste.

I really don't have anything to say or a story. I just want to update and put this pictures. I'm supposed to posts this last night but i fall asleep. And yeah, i really have a bad dream again. che cavolo! I woke up at around 4am and wasn't able to sleep again. I was sweating and really nervous because of my dream. Well, i'd rather just keep it im sorry i can't tell you about it. =(

Hayyy! finally its weekend. I still don't know if we will be going out of town again. I didn't prepare anything at all. And i dont want to get surprised tomorrow, that i need to pack up my things in 15mins. HA!!

Bam, sorry i still haven't posted yet about the tag thingy. I'm tired and not in the mood, but i promise im gonna do it.ok! =) Have a great weekend guys! take care..mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-03-06T19:59:00.000+01:00

I got tagged by BAM d' great.hehe!

RULES:
"Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!"

1. It took me years inside the bathroom...haha!kidding..no just half an hour to 1hour. =D I don't know what took me so long when taking a bath. I enjoyed staying there, singing and pampering myself. Don't think of anything else ha.*raised eyebrows* I consider it weird but i know there are some others that can even stay there for 2hours.haha!

2. I'm an Obsessive Compulsive. dang! i know its wierd. I dont like leaving undone things and i always go beyond from whatever i need to do. Like at work, when i'm asked to do this i will finish it and expect that im gonna do more than that. If i still have time, im gonna do some more extra work. And at home, im not gonna stop until i finished all my chores. I should do everything that i have planned, if not i get soo disappointed. errr!

3. I have invented this, my own quote. "What ychel wants, ychel gets!". haha! kindah strange.lolz! Well, im not gonna stop unless i got what i wanted. If i have to get it then i will, if i have to do it then i should do it. If i have to buy those, im going to buy them. And if i want you, i should have you!hahaha..lolz..Sometimes it works, sometimes not.

4. I used to eat "Jack n' Jill CHIPPY" together with some rice and sometimes pringles. I don't know i just like the taste. so what can i do? try it and you'll gonna love it.haha!

5. How about eating rice with gravy, i mean lots of gravy..yummy! I used to put gravy on my rice just like a soup.haha! It really tastes good. Especially when it is KFC's gravy. Damn...i miss KFC soo much.

6. I can kill myself by my "morbid thoughts".(from arianne) I think harsh things..really harsh until i got scared by my ownself. Like when I travel everyday and used to ride the Metro.(underground train) I will think that there would be something bad that will happen like someone will gonna leave a bomb, it will explode and then everyone's gonna be dead including me.haha! Or somebody will gonna push me on the train's railway while it is about to arrive at the station and will find myself on the ground into pieces. *biggrin* haha..forget about this one.lolz!

7. I used to talk to myself alone, like bam. I can even make a story and do my own dialogue just talking to myself.haha! I can make a scenario the exact time and date an introduction of the story and its ending. Or maybe just a plain talk to my conscience or myself. Thinking of what i need to do for the whole day, what happened and preparing for whatever can happen. I dont know if it is normal but yeah, there are other people who does it too. right?

8. I'm scared of reptiles like snakes, crocodiles and the likes. But when i was in my sixth grade i was able to touch a phython at the zoo. You know, that snake that is big as my legs(just imagine how big my legs are.haha!) and is long as 2 to 3meters.*biggrin* And oh, i even owned an iguana. Yes, i took care of a little iguana it was a bday present of a friend. She was named as "spice" with that beautiful spikes at her back and her long tail. I used to feed her with live cockroaches and she loves it. And since nobody likes to take care of her at home i always bring her at school inside my bag and hang her on our green curtain.*devil's laugh* Nobody will notice her because of the "comuoflage" thingy. did i spell it right? correct me if im wrong. =P

9. When i was in college, i like to rush. All my plates are rush and when i have tests or quizzes i dont study ahead. I will have to read my notes 20minutes before the exam. I will browse them and look at them one by one then...im ready! haha. When it comes to doing my artworks, i used to do them the day before the deadline even my professor gave it 2 weeks ahead or a week ahead. Ideas kept on coming and is better. I would even get drunk and or be restless to have it done. Lack of time gives me challenge, motivates me and give me more determination to finish and do it better. But i think it is really one of the attitudes of an artist.hmm..what you think?

10. Ahhh, finally! I consider my laptop as my "boyfriend".hehe! i can't live a day without seeing it or touching it. I would rather forget my toothbrush and other important things when going out of town but my laptop... NO WAY! I'm ready to sacrifice carrying it everywhere "with handle" and no matter how heavy it is. I even miss it if i don't get to touch it for hours.haha!

There you go, ha! It took me a day to think of this things. Because i really dont know what to write and im afraid that you may got scared of me after this.haha! Just like what bam said, i hope we can still be friends after knowing all this "weird" things about me. *biggrin*

I'll see you guys on my next post. Please have time to visit my multiply site, and my friendster profile i just got a new layie and updated it.hehe! thanks...

Enjoy the rest of the week guys! take care..mwahugs♥♥♥

Tagged arianne, romina, astrid, moieee, sherma and lyka

2007-03-05T22:55:00.000+01:00

I spent my weekend out of town. We went to bergamo, at my cousin's place an hour travel from Milan. Actually i didn't know that we were going there. They told me about it when i get home in the morning after my work. I cut my time from work because i was still not feeling that well. hehe! Remember? friday, i got this f%&/in' allergy and untill saturday im feeling a bit dizzy.

But then we still have time to prepare. We ate some pizza first outside then go at our "saturday bazaar". I told my mom i don't want to go with them because i dont have money or it is the fact that i don't want to spend my money at all.errrr!

My cousin's husband is supposed to pick up us here but then he can't leave the kids to his neighbor because of certain reason. So, we hurry up and got the ticket as soon as possible. We wanted to get the bus that will arrive as early as 7pm. It will took us an hour to reach the Bergamo's station and there he will pick us up. Anyways, we made it. =D

The time we get there, papi told me that we will be going to have dinner at the neighborhood.hehe! They are celebrating some birthday and some guests were not able to come so maybe we can replace them.lolz! Upon entering the neighborhood's door i've noticed the "God Bless America" wood carving hanging up outside. So me and my mom was like, "oh somebody here is from america." haha!

We have met Melissa, she's from New Jersey and was married with an italian french guy. Yeah, because his husband was born in Belgium but then his parents are from Calabria, Italy. She was happy to meet us because she said finally she can talk to somebody who speaks english.haha! You know not all italians speak english or they really don't know how to speak. As far as im concerned, they use french as their second language. So when they hear somebody speaks english they are like "wow! you speak english?!". They are amazed. They even had to study in England just to learn their english, so they don't speak the american way not like us pinoys.hehe! We rock!*devil's laugh*

The night ended like that, we celebrate her birthday with two other guys friend. They have the same age of me, but they don't look like one.lolz! We had a great dinner eventhough there are not much food prepared. We got lots of wine, the red and the sweet wine. Guess its like champagne but it isn't. I enjoyed drinking, hehe! I almost finished that sweet wine while we are eating the cake. But my papi is a bit kill joy, oh well.

I didn't have a good sleep. Maybe because it isn't my bed, you know if only i can bring my pillows and my own bed. haha! that's crazy i know. =P When i woke up they told me to prepare and we will be going to my other cousin's house. We will have lunch there and spent the rest of the day. So, i dressed up quickly and prepared my things so when we get back i'm ready to go again.

I really had fun that day. I spent the rest of the day playing with my little niece and nephew. We played jumping rope, hide and seek and barbie dolls. haha! It was so much fun. I never had a day like that before. I really like spending my time with lots of kids. I even babysit my cousin's baby. I'm the one who carry her and put her to sleep. Well, the baby is soo lovely she never cries she just smile and play most of the time. So, nothing to worry about it.

As you can see in the picture, we really had fun.hehe! The girl's name is noemi, she is 7years old and vincenzo who is 3years old. The little girl is soo sweet and that little boy will give you a headache.lolz! Oh well, didn't we all look great?...hehe!

When it is time for us to go, the little girl is a bit sad. She doesn't want me to go, she asked papi if i can stay there and sleep with her.haha! She said she had a great time with me playing and from then on she will treat me like her sister.awww! isn't that really sweet? Well, i just don't know why i can connect that easily with kids. Maybe because i put my heart on them. I mean, it is not only playing with them but acting like one of them. Like if they run and jump i will do the same and i don't care whatever i look like.hehe! I just like remembering how is it being a kid and i'm getting ready so when i have my own i know how to deal with them.haha! kidding=D

So we left the place and go back in Milan. My cousin told me that we will be back again there this weekend. errrr! It is not that i don't want but i really don't have anytime to rest and do other things here at home. Saturday and sunday are the only time that i can stay home and will be able to manage some things. But oh well, then we will see what will be my mood. If i don't want then i will just act.haha! *devil's laugh*

There you go, im sorry if im not posting that often like i used too. Im always tired after work and was sick the past week. And for my blogger friends, thanks for those sweet "get well soon" tags and comments. I'm trying to recover, dont worry. The allergy was not that really serious. I mean it's not measles or anything bad. I always just had this bad headaches and bodyaches that makes me feel really tired most of the time. Thanks for all the concern guys and actually im missing all of you. I will make it up! I will drop by to your pages as often as i could like before.

Time for me to go! Till the next post...take care guys and have a great week! mwahugs♥♥♥

2007-03-02T23:36:00.000+01:00

I go to bed as early as possible last night, at around 1:30am. At pass 3am i was awaken, im feeling irritated. I thought i was just dreaming about it, im scratching my whole body and felt something wrong is happening with my skin. waaaa...i opened my eyes and have seen this small red spots on my arms, legs, neck, and my whole back. I got nervous, i used to have an allergy but not like this one. So i helped myself i got my ass out from my bed and go look for some medicine. But damn while im looking for some meds i suddenly felt im gonna throw up and im feeling dizzy. i dont know why.

I called mami and told her about how i am feeling. I said im having a bad headache and i can't breath well. Papi got worried, without any second thought he called up a doctor on call. They wanted to bring me at the hospital. But papi have just decided to talk to a doctor and just ask what we can do for the mean time.

After 45minutes the doctor arrived. He asked me to show him this small spots all over my body. Im a bit shy though.hehe! Because most of the spots i've got is in my butt so what do you think? I dont want him to see my butt.lolz! Well, after some blah..blahs.. he said he will give me a shot. errr! i haven't got any shot on my butt before so im a bit afraid. I know it doesn't hurt but..hmpf! nevermind!

Well, theres nothing i can do. After the shot, he gave me the medicine that i have to take. I've asked him if is it ok if i go to work immediately, he said its not that bad anyway. But if any fever will occur he told me that i need to go at the doctor or at the hospital immediately. Because it might be something serious.

After that, i took my shower and prepared myself going to work. As im working, im starting to feel some headache and its like im throwing up. Im supposed to work the whole day today but i decided to just go home this afternoon. Im afraid that something might happen to me. haha!

I think it is the effect of the medicine that the doctor gave me. Even papi told me that it would be possible for me to vomit or will have some headache. I called my boss and told her i cant work anymore at the afternoon because im not feeling well. When i arrived home, my body is really feeling soo heavy. I need to eat my late lunch and take my medicine. Papi prepared something for me i ate and then talk to somebody on the phone for a while. *biggrin* Then i climb up to my bed.

As i remember, i fall asleep at 5 or pass 5pm then i woke up at around 9:30pm. yeah, i really had a good sleep. It's funny i even thought that it was already morning and im already late for work but then i've seen on my clock 21:35, i laugh at myself.

There you go, just another day passed. Its already friday once again, i hope i could find more time to rest. So, i better go now.

Thanks to my very loving blogger friends.♥♥♥ hmm..bry, i can't see you! where are you?lolz...

Have a good weekend everybody! Take care..mwahugs♥

2007-02-28T21:47:00.000+01:00

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

This is the song i used to play when i miss my grandpa. It strikes my inner feelings when i hear it. It has been 3years since he died, but for me i always see him still alive. I always dream about him and he never fails to hug and tell me that he is always around to guide me, to help me and love me like the way he used too.

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

I really just missed him. Maybe because finally we will go back home this year and there will be no grandpa around. I'm excited, soo excited because grandma is there but of course nobody's like my grandpa.

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel
I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

Nobody knows that it will be the last time that im gonna see him, hug him and see him smile. I can see it on his eyes, his sad but then happy at the same time that finally we will travel and will finally get our dreams.

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

The memories still lingers on me. I still can't believe that he left, but i know He wants something better. There are reasons, reasons that only Him knows about it. For I know, grandpa is happy wherever he is now.

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

You will always live in my heart. You will be my one and only grandpa. The greatest grandpa that i've ever had in my whole life.

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still
And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will

I miss you alot Grandpa! I will always wait for you in my dreams. Thanks for letting me feel the greatest love and showing me all the care i need. I miss you...I love you so much!

Oh! so much for that. I'm sorry about that, i really just can't help it. I don't have to explain because it explain everything. Oh well, as you can see i've got my new layout. weeee! Of course, the model is me, haha! I hope you like it. *wink*

I'm sorry, i guess im still not in the mood to blog.lolz! Still busy at work and i still need some more time to rest. My "morbid thoughts"(from arianne), my body and need to recover about my probs around here. Too many things are happening, but dont worry ill be fine.

I want to thank my beloved blogger friends who are always there to support.awwww! and as well as other people who are concern about me (if there are any!). Thanks from the bottom of my heart.

This is all for now. I'll be back as soon as i can. I miss you all and i he♥rt you! take care...mwahugs♥♥♥

**if you want to hear the song just CLICK HERE!

2007-02-24T23:19:00.000+01:00

THANKS A LOT!!!

Hi guys! thanks a lot for the concern. I didn't expect that you'll gonna miss me that way too, like how much i missed reading all your blog posts and leaving you comments and tags. I really appreciate it! Im sooo touched...I even cried though. true..im not getting exaggerated but i really felt that way. Crybaby! but that means im happy because i know i have you all here, always. thanks from the bottom of my heart.

I got depressed this week. It started with a bad dream that made me felt really bad. I checked what those dreams meant, i got disappointed and take it seriously. Which i should not be. Should have taken it as a my guide, but i'm sorry i can't help myself from thinking about it and getting paranoid at the same time. Sometimes i really just have this freaking mind that can kill me!

Then everything was followed by lots of STRESS. Stress from work, from my environment and lots of pressure. Which made me feel really tired. My brain is drained and i cant think of good things. All i have in my thoughts are negative. My "morbid thoughts"(from arianne) that almost kill me.

I'm really sad. I really felt that the world is eating me little by little. No hopes, no love, no..nothing! But God is really great and wonderful. He never fails to check and remind me on how to deal with life. He gave me "you", "my blogger friends", and everybody around me that reminded me how much they care. Thanks a lot for the kind words and the courage you have given me. Im really so touched! That eventhough we all met here through our blogs we have this affection and the means of caring. Thanks again!

I'm not really feeling that well, but i think im feeling better. I've got lots of stories to tell and i will just post them next time. im sorry i have a really bad headache now. i don't know why. Still have a hangover from this stressful week.

Im gonna put some pics of me and my girlfriend's hangout today, but next time.lolz! and i cut my hair last week, ill show them to you next time.hehe! I'm gonna change my layout too, very sooonnn. =D

Have a good sunday to all of you! I love you all! mwahugs♥♥♥ take care...

2007-02-23T21:57:00.000+01:00

I'm sooo f%&"in' TIRED!!!

DEPRESSED!!!

My HEAD is ACHING!!!

I'm SORRY... i can't blog for the mean time.

I'LL BE BACK ASAP!!!

I MISS YOU ALL GUYS!!!

Mwahugs♥♥♥

**inspite of this, im doing fine. dont worry! *wink*

2007-02-20T19:53:00.000+01:00

Why do i tend to hide when i feel like this way?

...I don't know what's the answer. I don't know how i am going to answer. I don't what i'm going to think. I don't know really what to do. I don't know..i don't know..i don't know...

I wanted to be alone for a while. I feel like all of them hates me. I feel like i'm the only person in the world. I'm the only one who is feeling this way. Confused, sad, depress, frustrated.

I'm beginning to lose my hopes again. I want to give up! I want to just leave without anybody knowing it. I want to escape this hurt and pain.

I always find myself crying in the middle of the night. My bad dreams keeps on haunting me most of the times. Im feeling cold, im trembling and im afraid..so afraid!

Im like a candle. I'm melting slowly, little by little.

I want to hold you, i want to keep you in my arms, i want to give you everything i have , i want you to feel me in you, i want you to know i care for you, I want to tell you over and over again...I love you...i love you...i love you so much.

I'm afraid of losing you now. Just don't leave me, please! Don't hate me. I need you. i♥u...

**im pissed! COPYCATS backoff!**

2007-02-19T23:52:00.000+01:00

hi guys! Since i dont have any interesting stories for now im gonna try this one. I've seen this post from TINA .

15 simple but amazing facts about me. All you have to do is to post random facts and make it as interesting as possible. The facts doesn’t have to be positive attitudes, this will just widen the knowledge of the readers about you. You have to tag 3 more people after this. Goodluck!

I really don't know if this 15 facts about me is really amazing...but i will try my best.lolz! Here you go:

1. When i'm about to enter my college i'm really decided that i want to be an HRM (Hotel&Restaurant Management) student. I have taken the entrance test at University of Sto. Thomas. hehe! I didn't pass it though.

2. I have discovered after a year, as a student of Advertising Fine Arts, i really have this passion to ARTS. i have this hidden talent.bwahaha! i L♥VE painting.

3. I'm a crybaby. Like tina, i cry when im angry, sad, happy and everything.

4. I L♥VE chocolates eversince.

5. I'm soooo MOODY! I can change my mood every hour. it depends.haha!

6. I L♥VE beach. But then i dont know how to swim and when i was little im afraid of water.*biggrin*

7. I'm an accident prone person. I used to get accidents especially when i was in college. I got robbed by this two person, but they were caught and put into jail.*biggrin* I met an accident from falling down on a jeep.grrr!*shyness*

8. I DON'T like pickles.

9. I used to play "bandurya". Its like a small guitar with 9 strings. I started playing it when i was in my 4th grade untill my 6th grade. And i used to perform during sunday mass.

10. I L♥VE hanging out with my friends! I love to dance and drink.hehe! I can stay in the dance floor until 5am in the morning dancing, dancing the whole night away. *biggrin*

11. I'm a computer buff. I can stay straight 12hours in front of my computer, even a day!haha!

12. I can stay in my bed for even the whole day without eating.

13. I don't really know how to ride a bicycle.

14. I'm a WORKAHOLIC and at the same time a SHOPPAHOLIC no doubt about it. *biggrin*

15. I'm TALKATIVE! I can talk over the phone for 3 to 7hours long even 10hrs.(im not exaggerated,its true!)

There you go, i know some of the facts are kindah weird and not amazing.lolz!

I'm not feeling well today. I've got a headache and my knees really hurt. I'm really tired today. My boss went out of town but left me loads and loads of work. I climb into my bed when i arrived home and try to rest for some hours.

Oh well, this post is soooo random. I'm gonna tell you stories some other time. Thanks for my beloved blogger friends who always leave tags and comments.mwah!

Hmm..i don't have any idea who to tag. ARIANNE , BRY a.k.a imbisibol man , LYKA .

Take care guys! mwah...

**i miss you boo.mwah**

2007-02-18T20:36:00.000+01:00

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI!

Happy new year to all the Chinese peeps!..hehe! since its Chinese New year im gonna post something about them. I mean the Story how they get to celebrate their New years and then their traditions and the foods. I know we Pinoys used to do some of them, we have inherited some of it since we were ruled by them for some years. =)

The Chinese New Year Story

Long ago, the world was not a safe place; monsters dominated the world. There was one horrifying monster that came out on the same day each year to eat people. This monster was named Nian, and the people marked the end of a year by his visits to the human civilization. That is where the Chinese word for year came from.

This monster was the most feared by the people because every time it came out, whole villages would be destroyed at a time. So, every time the monster came, people would huddle together in their homes and stay up all night, wanting not to be eaten. This happened for many years until a wise man thought up a plan to scare the monster away.

This man proposed that the people should light bamboo. The bamboo would crack and make a lot of noise, possibly scaring the monster away. The villagers thought this was a very good idea and started to light the bamboo. The noise was tremendous. The monster was scared by the loud noise and ran back to its cave without not eating any people.

The next morning, everyone was present. They were all elated. The people congratulated each other for executing the plan effectively. So, from then on, people stayed up late, lit firecrackers (to simulate the lighting of the bamboo), and congratulated each other when the new year came.

Preparations for the New Years:

-Clean the house meaning a "general cleaning" for the house is needed. To take away all the bad spirits and bad luck form the past year.

-Paint all the doors, windows and walls. hmm..paint them with all red.lolz!

-Decorate the house with all the chinese things that gives "fortune", "happiness" and "luck".

-Hang or put some oranges and mandarin around the house as a symbol of happiness and good relationships.

-Hang red lanterns around the house.

Foods for the New Years:

-Melone candito for abundancy and good health. Melone candito cooked in oven with sugar. In short dried melon. =)

-Seeds of watermelon (butong pakwan in pinoy) for happiness, the truth and sincerity.

-Lychees for the family.

-Arance nane for prosperity. hmm..arance nane is like mandarin oranges they are small.

-Coconuts for a more stronger family ties. Which we pinoys value that much.

-Hazel nuts for a longer life.

-Semi di loto for more children. Loto is a kind of a chinese flower.

-Fish for Happiness.

Traditions for New Years:

-Donot clean the house on New Years day in order not to drive away the goodluck.

-Be sure to pay all your debts before the New Year comes. Or else you will start and end the year with credits. hehe! well, i don't know if it is really true but some of the pinoys practice this.

-Donot cry on New Years day or else you will cry the whole year.haha! It is like what they say that what you do before the New Years day you will do it the whole year. And for other people its better to be with your loved ones so you will be together the whole year.

-To see and to listen with a bird in the day of New year brings goodluck for the whole year.

-Dressing up in red can take away bad spirits!

There you go guys, those are some of their traditions that they usually do before the New years or the day itself. We pinoys used to do them too. Like dressing up in red and with the red polka dots will bring us more money for the whole year. My mom used to open our windows and put lots of coins on it. Then in the next morning me and my bro will collect them. Whoever wakes up early then the more coins you will get.lolz! Also putting round fruits around the house and preparing 12kinds of fruits in the table on the day of New years will bring goodluck for the 12 months of the year. hehe! What about jumping so high so you will get higher for the next year.lolz! And putting lots of coins on your pocket then shake them on midnight while having the fireworks. Then after 6pm, my mom tells us not to break anything fragile which will bring us badluck for the whole year.

Hmm..i guess those are some of the traditions we used to practice. Traditions and beliefs we have inherited most specially with the Chinese people. But i guess we pinoys just getting exaggerated sometimes.hehe!

I better go now. I'll see you all on my next posts. Thanks for all the comments and tags. Keep it coming. =P

Happy 81st Birthday to Boo's grandma. More happiness, good health and long life!

Have a good week ahead guys! =)

**I want some tikoy.lolz! Anybody there who can give me?bwahaha. *devil's laugh*

2007-02-16T23:28:00.000+01:00

Friday once again! haaayy..finally time to have some rest again..REST? haha..big question! i guess not.lolz...because what makes me feel contented about my weekend is sleeping until late, staying in my bed until 12noon or 1pm.*biggrin* But chores at home haunts me all the time..err..i just cant help myself from doing them or lets say im just a real "OC" obsessive-compulsive. damn! im afraid for my ownself.haha!

I've got no topic or story to tell in particular i just blog hop and leave my blogger friends new tags and everything. But i 've seen this kind of a game or survey at bry's and tina's page recently. it's kindah fun i guess so im gonna try it. bwahaha! Whatever! *devil's laugh*

Put your music player on shuffle.
Press forward for each question.
Use the title as the answer to each question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING

How are you feeling today? "My humps! (remix)" yeah, my humps kindah hurts.lolzzz!

Will you get far in life? "don't phunk with my heart!"..bwahaha!

How do your friends see you? "Shut up!" yeah i guess i need to shut up!haha!

Will you get married? "Pump it!" dang! whats wrong with my ipod! lolz!

What is your best friend's theme song? "don't lie!" hmm..kindah good ah!

What is the story of your life? "look me in my eyes - Blast feat. akon" yeah just look into my eyes and im gonna tell it to yah. =D

What was high school like? "Jamaica Rum - bob marley" yeah, ive learned how to drink and get drunk by then.lolz!

How can you get ahead in life? "baby i love your way! - bob marley" hmm..loving the way it is...Whatever!

What is the best thing about your friends? "turn your lights down low - bob M." hehe! dont know what to say..lolz!

What is today going to be like? "take the lead - bone thgs n harmony" hmm..to shopping? =D

What is in store for this weekend? "Runaway - NB Rydaz ft. Angelina" hmmm..were running away for ravenna! haha...

What song describes you? "Stronger - britney" oppss! well, it explains everything.

To describe your grandparents? "Heaven - bryan adams" im thier little angel that was sent from heaven. *biggrin* they let me feel like im in heaven when they took care of me. I miss both of them! =(

How is your life going? "Bonanza (belly dancer) - Akon" haha! "aha! aha!..shake your body like a belly dancer"...

What song will they play at your funeral? "Again - Lenny kravitz" *i wonder if i'll ever see you again?* maaa..im dead!

How does the world see you? "Stars - Calla lily" wow! im like a star?*biggrin* i love it!

Will you have a happy life? "answer the phone- sugar ray" hmm...answer the phone,i want to do it again..again...oh! what you think?

What do your friends really think of you? "12 M's - crash test dummies" haha! no comment!

Do people secretly lust for you? "especially for you - MYMP" wow! cool! =D

How can i make myself happy? "Summer of love - 311" hmm..i love summer and that makes me happy =)

What should you do with your life? "If i ain't got you - alicia keys feat. usher" yeah, i cant live my life if i ain't got you.*wink*

Will you ever have children? "Saturday - fall out boy" ha? am i going to give birth on a saturday? haha..lolz..

There you go...dang! this freaks me out..wierd! some are good, some really doesnt have any connection. but its fun..funny and cool!haha...try it if u want!

Happy 80th Birthday to my grandpa! wherever you are i know your happy now, i miss you alot & i love you tatay!

Have a great weekend guys! take care...mwahh!

2007-02-15T20:56:00.000+01:00

How's your Valentine's Day guys? Did you enjoy your dates?bwahaha...*devil's laugh*

I did not have any date yesterday but i recieve something that really makes my heart cry because of happiness and its the sweetest thing that i've ever got from my previous valentines.lolz! hmm..it's special because it was given by my special someone and was really touching. =D yeah, it is the card that you see up there in the scrolling pic. He even told me that he skipped his class just to finish writing that letter and mail it so it will arrive on time.soooo sweet! Arianne was here and she have seen how happy i was.lolz! She even see me cry while reading it, saying "go cry so you can really feel it, if i were in your place im gonna cry alot!".haha! Im not getting exaggerated about it but just like what i've said "i love simple things" so it explain everything. (oh! the card is really cute! soo lovely and cute!*wink*)

I met arianne after my work then we stayed here at home and eat our late lunch. Papi cooked something for us, pasta with cauliflower and nuggets? haha..Chill here at home for a while then her mom called her up saying she needs to go home.ahihi. I didn't know that it was her bro's birthday. So, she go ahead first then i followed her after. Yeah, what you see in the glass in the pic is beer.*biggrin* And the guy there beside me is her brother, his younger than arianne though.=P I've eaten some pinoy food again and her mom baked a cake. yummm...

None of my friends in the Philippines greeted me except for my bestfriend. I guess its not really a big deal for them. Anyway, for me its ok! yeah..not a big deal too! oh, my stalker texted me early in the morning. He is the same stalker that arianne and glenna had before. So it means, the three of us had the same stalker.haha!...ewww!

I'm supposed to write this last night, but then i dont know what happened.lolz! After chatting with boo i told myself im gonna lay down on my bed and rest for a while. After an hour, i woke up and have seen the light coming from my laptop but then i closed my eyes again and sleep.hahaha! I dont know why i feel so sleepy and tired because it will be a real miracle for me to sleep that early how matter how tough my day was.

Anyways, im feeling sad right now. I can't chat with him now, not like how we used too. But its ok, i understand. Sometimes there are certain reason that we really have to accept. This time its for real! =( hayyy...

I better go now, i need to pack my things. Will be out this weekend again, gonna spend it with my half sister in Ravenna. arrggh! 5hours of travel from Milan to Ravenna, my ass will gonna be sick again for the long hours of sitting. mamma mia!

Have a good friday! hmm....and weekend too! =) I would like to thank my blogger friends, those who greeted, tagged, commented and visited my blog. And thanks that you all liked my new layie!bwahaha..im gonna leave it for the moment. I'm still thinking what will be my next layie. Thanks guys! mwahh...

thanks to karen for this gift...

Excess: *i miss you =(...love you!*

2007-02-13T00:02:00.000+01:00

Happy Valentines Day!

haha...I've got a new layie again. But..i guess it will only be for the Valentine's day!lolz. Just feel like making one. Hope you like it guys! *wink*

Who has a date on Valentines day?hmm...i dont have any date, anybody who wants to go out with me?lolz. If im going out that day im sure i'll be going out with yana or my mami and papi. No choice at all!!!haha...poor me!*devil's laugh*

I really dont have much stories to tell or mayb im just being lazy.*biggrin* I almost got an accident today. I was inside the bus and a man entered. I was leaning at one side then the driver suddenly break and damn! the man pushed me. I almost got myself on the floor! Too good there is a lady in fron of me and i got to lean on her. I know she go hurt too, but i said sorry. But the guy who pushed me did not. errr! It's like his saying it's my own fault. ASSHOLE! Anyway, i gave him that *scary look* lolz! I hope he got scared though, but i guess no!haha. Well, i guess sometimes we really need to encounter those "BIG assholes" in the street. So, beware of them guys and don't get hurt. *wink*

Oh, i forgot to tell you about the other story that happened to me last Saturday. I know my other blogger friends still remember about it. About the robber in the bus thing. And now, i've seen another one. haha! Me and my mom where doing some shopping, its like "tiangge" in the Philippines with the "ukay-ukay" thing.lolz. Then there was this black guy who was doing "ukay-ukay". I was looking for some sale clothes on it, i saw him he was holding that bikini set and a shirt i guess. I didn't mind him at all becuase i never thought that he'll gonna do it. But then when i turned my eyes once again "oh! mami, look at the black guy his stealing something." He was looking at me and my mom then he left. Then suddenly my mom: "hey miss, the black guy stole something." And the owner shouted and asked him to go back. They look at his hands and bags but the things aren't there anymore. Well, what he did is he threw the things on the ground. They didn't say anything or did anything to him they just let them go. Then a passer by have seen and took the things from the ground. And take it to the owner. Oh well, im really a magnet to those "robbers" and "shoplifters" or maybe im really just a "keen observer".lolz

I'd like to greet TINA a very Happy beeday! Goodluck to your thesis. I believe you'll gonna make it then you'll gonna finish your studies. awww! Wish you all the best sis! take care always and May God bless you and your family.mwah!

That will be all for now. Have a good week ahead of you. take care and enjoy!

Happy Valentines day!

**im gonna miss that "to the left, to the left..." i always got this last song syndrome, but i need to change the layie.**

2007-02-11T01:13:00.000+01:00

Finally! I got the chance to touch and sit in front of my computer. It's been a really busy day. =)

I worked this morning and told my boss im going to leave work early.haha! I told her i've got some business to do outside.lolz! Honestly, i talked to my mom friday night and asked her if she can go with me you know...to SHOP! awww... because it will be the last days of the winter sale. But before going out we called up the Philippines, talked to my grandma. She's doing fine and my bro is there for almost two weeks now. I told grandma that im gonna play lottery this week.haha! It will be my grandpa's birthday and i will try to bet his numbers.lolz! Well, i used to do that because i used to dream about him before his birthday meaning im going to church to offer some candles for him and a prayer. And im gonna bet some for the lottery, i already won some from the past years using his number. Im really just a lucky dog!*biggrin*

We did alot of shopping today! =D I guess its my lucky day. I have bought lots of things today that i really wanted to buy. Like the Converse shoes, most of the stores doesnt have the sale price for it because the shoes is on season for the spring and soo in demand for everybody. I tried looking for it in every shop i passed by. And yeah, i found a good one!haha..and damn! all different styles and color are there...and lucky me i got that one with a good sale price! weeee... Then finally after waiting for some weeks i was able to buy that sweat shirt. Stars are everywhere soo soo in demand. Shirts, earrings, shoes, headbands, bracelets and other things. And luckily again, i've got that one in a cheaper price!lolz. "patience is a virtue".haha! I have spent a lot today buying all my stuffs, but then i guess its all worth the price. I just knew it mah boo is gonna ask me "i thought your broke, and how come you were able to buy all those."*raising his eyebrows* oh well, girls...girls..girls..are really "shoppaholic"...period! *devils laugh* yeah, you see im wearing those glasses already. I've already wrote about it on my other post. I need to put them when im using the computer which is i "ALWAYS" do. I used to spend the rest of the day just in front of my lappytappy. Chat, surfing and updating my sites. hmm..it helps though because i dont really feel like my eyes are that tired anymore. I just hope that i will still maintain my good eyes sight. Because i really dont like to put glasses either contact lens. My eyes are so small and i feel irritated with those.

After the shopping galore, we ate dinner and i started doing some chores. It's funny though because at pass 11pm i've got this mood to clean our bathroom. I thought of doing that because tomorrow will be sunday, i really dont have any plans to go out. It will be a 100% sure that my ass will be out of my bed really, really, really late. lolz! Sunday is the only day that i can have rest soo nobody really disturbs me.hehe! And arianne will be coming here so i need to accomodate her. I invited her to have lunch with us and then another friend of papi will be coming over too. Soo crazy me! when i feel like doing something i really have to do it especially when it comes to chores. Even if its already midnight i tried to finish everything. "Just do whatever you can do today, than doing it tomorrow!". ampf! i really dont kno if the quote is right..haha! im sorry guys, my mom is already sleeping so i cant ask her about it. Just correct me if im wrong. LMAO!

My half sister is supposed to be here tomorrow, i called her up and said they can't come. Oh, thank God! Its not that i dont want her to be here its just because we have just a short time to be together and i know it will be hard for her also. She has two kids and it took them 2hours and a half to reach Milan. So I know it will just give them a lot fo stress. Well, papi have decided that we will be the one to go there and visit them at Ravenna next week. Yeah, next week will be stressful...from work then need to travel.

By the way, thanks for those who have left their comments and those who tagged. I really appreciate them! Thanks for reading my posts and for all the understanding and patience you showing me. thankss a lot! Hope you all always come back to my site and visit it. mwaah!

Time for me to go. Haven't talk to my mahboo yet. I know his having his test for now and i wish him goodluck. I miss you boo and love you. mwahh..Hope to talk to you soon.

Take are guys! Have a good sunday! Keep on rockin' <3

2007-02-08T00:27:00.000+01:00

weee...this is my 50th post since i started my blog last October 2006! =) it could be more i guess if im not that busy and always tired of my work. And im gonna keep on writing whatever happens.

I really don't know what to right now, but i will try to make it worth reading for.hehe! I dont have much stories or maybe im not really in the mood to write one recently thats why it took me some days to update this again.

My wednesday morning is kindah disaster.haha! I forgot to put my alarm last night, so meaning i woke up late. VERY LATE! errr... I'm supposed to wake up at 6:10am but then i was awaken by the voice of my mom calling me "ychel, ychel, wake up!". I open my eyes an darn! 8:13am..wtf?! I really don't know what to do first..this is the first time to happen to me.i never wake up this late for work. Oh well, there's always the first time!grrr... What i did is i called up my boss and tried to reason out. I told her i'm gonna be late for work because i really had a bad headache this morning so i was not able to wake up early.haha! lolzzz.. But then she replied: "its ok ychel, you can come anytime you want. You can come even a bit late if u want." haha! damn, im really lucky to have a boss like her. what you think?

It will be my grandpa's birthday on the 16th of February. My cousins have just celebrated it last sunday at our house in the province where my grandma lives. For me, its really sad. Why? My grandpa died 3years ago. We are already here when he died and we cant go home that easy by that time. =( Im a grandpa's girl and im his favorite of all his grandchildren. I remember my mom tellin me, of all the grandchildren i was the oly one whom he took care of when i was little. I'm the only baby whom he carried on his arms and cradle me to sleep. When my grandma needs to go to the market she will just leave me to my grandpa and he will watch over me. He make sure i dont cry. I grew up together with my cousins in the province for 3years i guess, then transfer to Manila and live my whole life there till i get my ass here in Italy.

Grandpa stood up like my father since i dont have it after i was born, or i mean his not always with us. He makes sure grandma gives me everything i want, every little thing i want. They treat me like a princess, maybe because im the youngest in his first set of grandchildren. I can say i've enjoyed my childhood years i experience those things that normal children does. Run, eat, play and cry in the street with my childhood friends. Play in the morning, siesta in the afternoon, have my snack ready when i woke up and then play again. Im not really a grandpa's girl actually, im also grandmas' too. When my grandma gives everybody money, she will give them 50pesos and the same with me but she will give me 50pesos twice. haha! and nobody knows about it!shhh..*biggrin* Then my grandpa will ask me if my grandma have already given me the money and if i said yes he will ask how much. Then he will call my grandma and say "give more to my favorite girl".hehe! one of the proof that im a "certified grandpa's girl".

I miss him badly! I told him to wait for me untill i get back and visit him again but he left.=( I know he is happy now wherever he is. But i miss him soo bad! if i only knew that he will be gone that time i should have hugged him and feel him before we leave the Philippines. But nobody knew about it, its Him who planned it. So all i need to do is to accept it even it hurts. He will be 80 years old this year. So i dedicate this blog to him. He has been one of my inspiration eversince and i would like to thank him.

"tatay, thanks for all the love and care you have given me as well as with the whole family. I know you are happy wherever you are now. You will be our one and only tatay, nothing will replace you in our hearts. We love you so much!"

Opppss..im sori, i guess my post is kindah sad again. But i hope you like the story, im not the only one i know. Most of us are grandpa's and grandma's girl/boy. We all have different stories, memorable stories about our grandparents.

I better go now. It's getting late and yeah, i wont forget to put my alarm tonight.lolz! I'll make sure of it this time. haha! Or else im gonna get busted.lolz...

Take care guys...mwah! I miss mah boo =(

2007-02-02T21:24:00.000+01:00

Thank God it's friday!

After a long week of working days..weee...time to relax. Arianne tagged me and in consequence i also have to share 5 secrets ( or more!haha) depending on my mood. So, sit back and relax. *biggrin*

1. I've got this secret scar on my face. Above my right cheek you will see a small scar not that noticeable though. I got it when i was 1year old and a half , my mom told me. =P I was playing upstairs with my cousins (house in our province) and still don't know how to walk that time. I'm still crawling at the floor. They put an empty box over my body, yeah enough to cover me as a whole. They didn't know that i was crawling around i was so fast and without them knowing they have seen me down the stairs crying with the blood on my cheeks flowing.errr! scary! Well, they were scolded by my grandpa, remember im Grandpa's girl. =P

2. When they put me on the table before eating, automatic im gonna pee. haha! unique..right? My mom told me about it and i laugh my ass out. I'm about 8months or older by that time. I need lots of attention because im starting to crawl and everything. Carriers are still not available by that time, so when it is time to eat they have to bring me in the table and let me seat there. But before they eat they have to clean my pee first. lolz! because when my mom puts me there, im gonna start to shower them with my holy water. ROFL!!!! bless them lord....lolz!

3. My mom likes to eat toasted food when she was still pregnant with me. You can see the proof, whatever happens the color of my skin is like a color of a toasted bread.lolz! She likes to eat toasted pandesal, toasted galunggong (one kind of pinoy fish) and hmm..as long as the food is toasted.haha! that's why im the only "negra" in the family. lolz...

4. I was a real "bully" since i was a kid. Me and my bro are famous because my grandpa is known by many people in our place. So, we feel like were superiors in the place. I used to wear babies undies without the top and same with my brother. Were like the "kanto kids". haha! Then when we see a kid crossing the street were gonna spread our arms and say "hey you kid, you cannot pass here this is our place. go away!!!". Then the poor kid will have to find another way crying along the way home.Then we will hide immediately because in a while the mother of this kid will come to our house and tell my grandma about it. lolzzz..

5. I got an award when i graduated on my daycare. The "most healthy" award. *shyness* yeah, its true and i feel really shy about it. I admit im a really cute fatty girl when i was little. They serve food to us at our recess time like gulaman, mamon, champorado, sopas and the like. When my teacher asks "who want more?", im gonna raise my hand and go directly at our teacher to get more food. lolz! Maybe thats the reason why i've got that award. I eat alot and was a healthy little girl. hmm..i deserve it! LMAO!

oppsss...i guess this is enough..but i want to add another one..*biggrin*

6. Like arianne and tina, i used to talk with my ownself. When im alone i talk to myself especially when im at work and doing my things. I dont know, i have too many things on my mind then while im doing it most of the times i talk at the same time. Then there are times when im about to call a certain person i used to make my own dialogue. lolz! but at least im not the only one who does it. =D

There you go guys, those are some of my secrets.haha! If it is possible to write 10 im gonna make it 15. ROFL! jokes....

We will be out of town this weekend, but im gonna bring along my baby with me so i can still update. Don't you worry!*wink* Thanks for tagging me arianne, this was fun and i really thought of what i should write. haha! time to reveal something about yourself.

take care guys! have a nice and fun weekend! mwah...

Im tagging: romina, mitch, peter,lara, lyka

2007-01-31T00:21:00.000+01:00

hi there! how you doing guys?!....

I just want to post the birthday thing and the name thing that i have read from tina's blog.hehe! she tagged me so i guess i need to put my results too. *wink* Anyway, i enjoyed it and was happy on what i have discovered more for myself. Most of them are true. Here it is...

My results: for January 06, 1982

Your date of conception was on or about 15 April 1981 which was a Wednesday.

Celebrities who share your birthday:Joey Lauren Adams (1971) Susan Perabo (1969) Nancy Lopez (1957) Rowan Atkinson (1955) Syd Barrett (1946) Bonnie Franklin (1944) Vic Tayback (1929) Sun Myung Moon (1920) Loretta Young (1913) Danny Thomas (1912) Kahlil Gibran (1883) Tom Mix (1880) Carl Sandburg (1878) Joan of Arc (1412)

Top songs of 1982I Love Rock `n' Roll by Joan Jett & the Blackhearts Eye of the Tiger by Survivor Ebony and Ivory by Paul McCartney & Stevie Wonder Centerfold by J. Geils Band Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates Jack & Diane by John Cougar Don't You Want Me by Human League Up Where We Belong by Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes Abracadabra by Steve Miller Band Hard to Say I'm Sorry by Chicago

hmm..Rowan Atkinson. haha! and Joan of Arc. wow! and the songs, i think i have already heard most of them and you also know most of that. Especially "hard to say i'm sorry & ebony and ivory" hehe..just like tina have said..think gonna download them..haha!

Now for the name's generator...

Your number is: 6

The characteristics of #6 are: Responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, sympathy.

Your Inner Dream number is: 3
An Inner Dream number of 3 means: You dream of artistic expression; writing, painting, music. You would seek to more freely express your inner feeling and obtain more enjoyment from life. You also dream of being more popular, likable, and appreciated. --- i can't believe it! haha! it says all! ive graduated as an advertising student and i really love painting. sooo love it and my passion as well as music..yeah i love writing but im not really good in grammar.lolz! but being popular and likable? hmm..kindah contrary i really dont want to be popular or famous as what i always say..i really just want to enjoy and have fun if people will appreciate the things i have done then thanks, if not then the same.

The expression or destiny for #6:The number 6 Expression provides you a truly outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. The 6 is helpful and ever conscientious, making you quite capable of rectifying and balancing any sort of inharmonious situation. You are a person very much inclined to give help and comfort to those in need. You have a natural penchant for working with the old, the young, the sick, or the underprivileged. Although you may have considerable creative and artistic talents, the chances are that you will devote yourself to an occupation that shows concern for the betterment of the community.
The positive side of the number 6 suggests that you are very loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much sympathetic, kindness, and generosity. The qualities of the 6 make the finest and most concerned parent and one often deeply involved in domestic activities. Openness and honesty is apparent in your approach to all relationships.
If there is an excess of the number 6 in your makeup, you may exhibit some of the negative traits associated with this number. There may be a tendency for you to be too exacting and demanding of yourself. In this regard, you may at times sacrifice yourself (or your loved ones) for the welfare of others. In some cases, the over zealous 6 has difficulty distinguishing helping from interfering. You may have difficulty expressing your own individuality, because of involvement with responsibilities and causes. Like all with the Expression of the number 6, it's quite likely that you worry much too much. ---- AHA! this is exactly how i am..its all me! haha...its like im gonna work in an orphanage soon? what you think ha?! haha.. no doubt..this is how i really am. And you know what? number 6 is really my lucky number.lolz! because when we are getting our numbers for the day and when will be our turn for our thesis defense ive got the number 6. So Ironic! i need to do my defense on January 06 which is my birthday then i am the 6th person on the lists! haha..what a coincidence..i told myself i will never ever forget about that.

A Soul Urge number of 3 means: With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.
You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance. ---haha! this is sooo truee! this is awesome..lolz!

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out. ---yeah, quite true though. Especially when it comes to emotions sometimes i loose my balance.

There you go. haha! its a long post i know but its all about me. so if you really want to know who i am then you can read it. yeah for those who are only interested..not obligatory guys! just browse and see what makes you think the most interesting thing about me.*biggrin*

I would like to thank TINA for this post. hehe! If you want to know about yours then just click tina's name on my link or her name here. You can see the instructions there on how to do it. Im sorry im kindah lazy to do it for you guys!ROFL *biggrin*

I'll see you on my next post. Thanks for those who always visit, leave a tag and give comments. love you guys! and also to those who always votes me! i've seen that im already number 1 on pinoy-blogs.com. Thanks guys! keep on voting. *mwahugs* take care...

2007-01-29T23:22:00.000+01:00

Ola!!! how are you guys? long time no post. hehe! My blog is begging me to update.lolz...so here it is. =)

It's not really that im not in the mood but im always tired from work when i gets home. Eventhough i don't have much work.haha! yeah, its been a week tomorrow since i started to be a BUM. But im enjoying it for the mean time, i guess i really need some time to rest like what my horoscope is saying.lolz! It says "you need a break, have some babyruth."oppsss!haha! Seriously, i really need a break its because i've been working and working all this time. And i guess this is the right time for me.

Last week, on my first non working day i was able to chat with my friends in the philippines. Its really different when you don't work on ordinary days because you will also know what others is doing especially people in the philippines. They are 7hours ahead from here so its like i'm still in bed untill 11am and my friends have already been to work and will just chill at home. So i can chat with them freely while im waiting for my lunch.haha! Well, ive enjoyed chatting with them. REALLY! once in a blue moon.lolz. We have cam to cam conversations and talked about the big changes that had happened to us. Its funny and crazy! Hope we could do that again tomorrow.harrr...

Monday is always been a tough day for me, since its the beginning of the week. You have to think and start again all the work you will have for the rest of the week. But anyways, i can manage im used to it anyway.

It will be payday again in two days, but im so preoccupied about the bills and my expenses.errr! Haven't got yet my salary but everything is already budgeted and it will immediately be out of my hand. 100% sure! Tomorrow i have to pay for my glasses.arggh! I didn't expect that i have to pay that much for those glasses to think that im going to use it just when im in front of the computer. hehe! but it will be worth i guess because im ALWAYS in front of the computer.haha! Then i have to pay bills like phone and internet bills, then i have to pay my ticket fare for the next month and i need to have a part of my salary for our savings. You know, because we have our plan of visiting Philippines this year, if God permits. So we will have our money for our fare and for our expenses. Oh well, i will be broke in a few days and have to survive untill the end of the month. waaa..Oh my God, help me! =(

I've accompanied arianne this afternoon at the computer shop or computer repair shop. Damn, i can feel how sad she is leaving her laptop wit the guy and have it control. Well, we have visited this guy first and ask him about what will be the possible problem of her laptop. Just right when he saw it he said that it is something inside the computer that is not working at all. He told her that she needs to bring it to the company which is "acer" and they will repair everything on it. And when we asked about the price, damn! better buy a new one than let it be repaired. Costs too much!errr... Arianne left her laptop with this other guy, he will be going in Acer tomorrow to ask about what they can do about it. Because there is also this another client who has the same problem. Hope he can give arianne some news about it by tomorrow then she have to decide if she will let it repaired or not. And i hope it will not costs that much. hugs to arianne i know how sad she feels, she almost cried before leaving the shop. Well, if im gonna be in her position im gonna feel worst. As we say, "our laptop is our boyfriend!". haha..crazy but its true! We cant live without our laptop. =( Gonna pray for you arianne. Anyways, you can always come here at home and visit me. yahooo! *biggrin* we will see each other more often.weeee...

I'm kindah pitying myself now and kindah sad. I can't really tell you about it because its a bit personal. oh well...just want you to know my current mood as well. Some things here aren't going well for now but i hope in time everything will be ok. *sigh* soooo sad! poor me! Guess it's my fault. hayyy....what can i do? Im just a human. Honestly, i was crying when i was writing this. The feeling is so intense and i can't stop my emotions. ahhhh! im really just a cry baby!period! im gonna be fine...im gonna be fine...im gonna be fine...im gonna be FINEEEE! =(

Guess i have to go for now. I'm just gonna post some other time. Tell you some interesting stories and not always a bad one like this. But thanks for the patience and the time for reading it. i appreciate it a lot! Just keep on tagging and leaving some comments. =)

Take care guys! Enjoy the rest of the week. *mwahugs*

2007-01-26T00:55:00.000+01:00

hey there! I still don't have any idea for now what to posts. I guess im still not in the mood. I just want to update and let my blogger friends who always have time to drop by here that im doing good.

I want to thank those people who visit often, leave comments and tags. =) so much appreciated! I have lots of things in my mind, i want to write but i don't know how am i goin to start. So i'd rather just take a rest for now. I don't want my readers to get affected or i mean to be sad about what im writing.

I'm just having some "movie marathon" in the past few days. And i'm kindah having fun. And now i keep looking and downloading other films to watch. But whats important is my favorite TV show "Sex and the city". Gonna watch the second season after i finished downloading it then third season is up next.haha! and oh, do you know about the cartoons "Happy Tree Friends"? well, ive seen it first aired at MTV. i find it cool, funny and disgusting!haha... I guess this is the only cartoon that is nt allowed for kids to watch. I warn you its disgusting and so VIOLENT. I just cant imagine why did they did a cartoons like that.haha! none of my business though, but yeah its really not for kids. I tell you!

so, i think i need to go for now. im having some backaches. it's been raining almost the whole day and i hate it! and its really really cold..my ass is freezing!lolz.. guess it will snow soon.errrr! one more thing, im gonna have to wear an eye glasses soon. They suggest for me to use one because im using and staying too much in front of the computer. grrr...anyway, guess its my fault!hehe..

Take care guys! i'll be back soon. thanks to all of you, mwah! have a fun friday! mwah

2007-01-21T23:00:00.000+01:00

"I can't believe! I'm in F&%$ing HELL!"

That is what my status says at my yahoo messenger while i was chatting. Some of my online friends asked me about whats happening or "What is that status about?". They just knew something is wrong and something is happening. oh well...

"I woke up in the wrong side of the bed." somebody told me this doesn't exist. hmm..maybe, maybe not. Wasn't able to sleep well last night, something is bothering me. you know, things that you think but you dont know what it is and why you think of it. My net connection last night really SUCKS! I dont understand why. I have just called up my network provider 3days ago complaining about whats happening about it. An operator told me that is all about the router, blah..blah..blah. So i reinstalled everything and did it myself. Last night, i was chatting and everything got messed up suddenly. Too good, i still have my phone which i used to use before as my modem. I used it so i can chat and do some other things. I want to download everything last night so i can have my "movie marathon" today. but yeah, it sucks!

I woke up late today. I'm hearing noises down there..hayy..papi doesn't stop talking and talking and talking, both of them. Mami wants me to get up because its already late and wants me to do the chores. AS USUAL!!!!hmpf! I need to get my ass off from my bed, lunch is ready. I ate then called up a friend in the Philippines because it is her birthday today. Got to talked with another friend and then with my bro. They told me everybody was not there, kindah sad because i thought i can talk with most of them maybe next time.

I'm feeling depressed and sad the last days and i think i still am. I was able to talked with my bestfriend the last night. We chatted for an hour i guess. I feel happy and at the same time so sad. I miss my friends so much. I miss them badly! i suddenly felt like, damn!how much i want to see them, to laugh and have fun with them again. It's been 5 years ago since i've seen their happy faces, our "tambay" times, our "tomaan nights" and lots of happenings at our "sukob na!". All the memories since we were all little kids running around "home along da riles".haha! Memories that i won't forget wherever i am, no matter how many miles and miles away from you guys. I even cried while we were chatting. sori im a cry baby! She said that eventhough im not there i will always be in their hearts, nobody will ever forget me the one and only "basyang" of their lives. It makes me feel good but damn! it makes my heart melts away.

I can't imagine untill now that i'm going here to battle and leave the place that i love more than myself. But that is how life is i guess. You have to sacrifice one thing for the good of another thing. And now here i am, fighting and battling my everyday life trying to survive in the best way i can do. Never been easy for me! NEVER!...

Have you ever thought of giving up?...ME? yes i did, many times, many, many times. But there is always something that holds me to continue and live my life more. I always fall down on my knees begging for some help, to help me stand and give me strength. I always wanted to stop and just end up my life whenever this things happens to me. I want to kill myself when things fucked me up and shit happens along the way of my happiness. I find it unfair because its like 3days of happiness and a week of sadness and depression. A week of fun and a month of disaster. Damn! am i that bad to have all this kind of things? i dont know, maybe i really deserve all this. but i dont know why. It still remains a big question from me. I can't see any good answer in the future.

This blog is my only way out. My only way to express and take out all what i have in my heart. An outlet to feel better after writing all the hatred and questions that is always on my mind. I dont know how my readers thinks and understand how i feel. But i know somebody have experienced and have felt this way like i did. I'm sorry if i wrote this way most of the time, just try to put yourself on my shoes then i guess you'll gonna understand me.

I started the week bad, stressed out and find myself ending up at the same mood. I hope this week will not be the same eventhough i don't already have my work anymore. Need only to adjust in a span of time then i guess things will be alright.

I want to thank again the people who always are concern to me. Who reads my blog and leave their kind words and advices that helps me to move on and realize things over. Thanks for giving me strength by means of your sweet words. Thanks for always uplifting my spirit. Thanks for the neverending understanding and patience. thanks guys!

I dont know when im gonna feel good again, but i will try. Im gonna give myself sometime to reflect. Eventually, things will be alright and will be back to normal. I'm gonna ask for His guidance. So, help me God!

I want to take my rest now. I'm sorry for stressing you out with this. take care and have a good week ahead of you. love u guys. mwah!