Hi everyone! Its been a while...
Busy?! nah..i just can't think of what to blab about after the last time i updated. And now, its been days that im itching to write something on my "poor blog". Luckily we already have the free wifi here at the clubhouse.
How's my vacation? Well, yeah im still here in the Philippines to inform everybody.haha! Im here now for 3months and 2 weeks?! boh... But definitely im still here and i still don't know how long im gonna stay here. errrr! I miss everything back there the weather since its already summer, my friends, my work?!, the way my life had been for almost 6 years. I miss the persons that is so dear to my heart, but what can i do. Life is full of wonderful things that makes us realize just once in our lives. Unexplainable things happened for unexplainable reasons. Surely, i will continue to survive and be strong.
Vacation with papi and mami here in the Philippines was really fun. Eventhough we were not able to go visit lots of places but just spending time with them and the whole family is really nice. Cooking, making our own pizza everynight and the pasta lovers are just some of the things that we've done to make our days happy together. Going here, there and everywhere...
I don't know where to start, i don't know how am i going to express it with my own words. I'm back to the place where i grew up and the place that i called my "home". Leaving it in the first time was really hard for me, i couldn't imagine myself living in another world. Fears, doubts and hesitations were the things that was kept on my mind. Untill such time, i started opening my mind again and have learned to face the reality. How come it made me think now that i came back "home", but then it seems to be my another world now?...
I tried observing people, places and how things have changed since the time i left. It's completely different now...or it was just me who have changed and have been acting so different? Maybe now i understand, now i realized. I tried to be just the same like the way i used too before, but i was wrong. I thought it will all be the same when i come back from my family, friends and the whole environment were i came from...but no!
My parents just left almost two weeks now. Now is the time for me to prove to myself that i can do it all alone. I'm living at the condo unit of my cousin with her kids. I've got no work just helping her out with her own business and looking for the kids while she's not home. The reason why i was left here in the Philippines is because i've got some little problems with my papers going back in Italy. It would be too long to tell the story and im kindah lazy to write it here.haha! Anyways, im enjoying my stay here for the meantime. We live just right infront of the clubhouse where there is the pool, the gym and the KTV available whenever you want to use it oh, and the free wifi that you can use from 8am up to 11pm. I guess this is the time for me to analyze things. I'm going to start with myself. I used to go at gym at least 3 times a week and go swimming almost everynight. Then we go hear the mass every sunday. I've got my plan A and B because we'll never know what will happen. *wink*
Summer is over and rainy days are coming. For us, its all the same.haha! It was always like raining problems here and there. That for the past 3 months it was full of happiness and at the same time full of sorrows and hatred all over. Maybe i can share it on my next posts. Things that happened so fast and those things that you could never imagine. It's like "telenovela's" here in Pinas.hekhek!
I feel a lot better now. Blogging is just an outlet for you to express your deeper feelings and to minus the burdens that you have inside.
Prayers and Faith just like what Arianne told me. Patience, being happy and being positive is a plus to make it better.
Sorry guys for not updating. I'll try to make it all up when we already have our own DSL connection at home. I miss you all. Take care all of you.mwahugs.