Wednesday, December 06, 2006
"love me or hate me?"
hi guys! nice to be back blogging again!...my post might contain some drama, bad words and stories that you may not like. Anyway, if you don't want to read it then just leave my blogsite immediately without saying anything or leave some tag lovin and love me back, my pleasure. I'm just releasing all this SHIT!
This happens very rare to me, maybe just once in an entire year. Or if it is really bad then twice or more times, it depends. I don't lose my patience easily, i have enough of it. But yeah, shit keeps on coming so this time i've lost it. It has come to an end!
I hate PARASITES! Sorry, i'm starting to get rude i guess. I've been once like that before and i have thought it isn't good. So i tried changing it as soon as possible i could. Damn, being a parasite is annoying! I'm not saying im good or perfect because nobody is! I'm just being real.
I'm pissed, i don't know why. Shit keeps on happening and coming all the time. I just thought of letting it go maybe time will come it will stop on its own. how i wish!
I'm not selfish, im not rude but why there are people who treats me that way. They don't want me to be happy. Want to see me down and falling.
Jealousy, a word that my parents had never ever thought of us. It will lead to a very bad situation if not controlled. It can destroy relationships with friends, with boyfriends/ girlfriends or even your loved ones.
I've never talked to anybody for the last two days, didn't chat and didnt answer any phone calls. I want to keep silent for the moment, i want some peace. There are some certain reasons and i would just keep it to myself. People might think im acting so different, not the way i used too. Because lots of my friends knew that im so open and talk to whatever i am feeling. yeah, but not most of the time. There are very few of them who really knew me, even just a blink of my eye. The way i uttered words and how i simply act.
Im not good enough for myself and i'm not saying for them to hail on me. I'm just being me! I have the right to do whatever i wanted to do. I have the freedom to say whatever i want to. I can act the way i wanted as long as i'm not hurting anybody else. So , just give me my freedom! And i will give yours!
"Life is like a dick, when it gets hard fuck it!" .... yeah, this is true. I've been having this problem about my legitimation papers. My biological father doesn't want to give his consent to do the documents that i need. oh well, im old enough to handle this things. I will ask and do the right actions for this. I dont want to suffer again like what had happened in my past. I want to live a new life that is full of hope and happiness for me and my future family.
For mike and ikay, i did not answer all your calls nor chat with you because i want to be alone for a while. I'm trying to find myself. I know i act strangely towards the both of you. And don't worry, i'll be fine. I'm gonna talk with you guys soon.
Maybe by now, you know who "ychel" really is. Unpredictable and a FREAKY bad ass girl! You will never know what is on my mind. But im sincere, trustworthy and cool! So don't ever JUDGE me! Try digging me up and you'll find out my depth!
True friends will understand me and some others will just think that this is like a drama. oh well, i just can't please everybody! Try to put yourself on my place and try to feel what i am feeling and then tell me how BAD it was.
So, you have two choices: love me or hate me? *wink*
bye guys, i got to go! i'll see you again!...mwah!
Y Make me yours tonight, let me die in your arms;
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