Monday, December 11, 2006
One "F&"3=^%" sunday! =D
Hiers! errr...actually it's already monday morning, 12:35am to be exact. And it was like "HELL" here at home.
My mom was shouting and screaming! She is pissed and was really angry. WHY? she said because of me. Well, i dont know if the reason was really valid and everything just came up and she talks all this shit about..blah..blah..blah...
When they arrived, they were talking if they will still have to eat the dinner. Papi said he just like some milk and the same with her. They were arranging the things that they have bought at the "fiera". They even got pissed on me at first because i dont mind them i just keep on chatting and do my things up here. They said im not really interested about the things that they have bought me. So i just keep quiet, i did not hear papi is calling me and telling me to go down and look what they have bought me.
Finally, they are done. Mami prepared her milk and i go down to eat some pasta. Papi have told her 3 times that he doesn't like pasta because it is already late, even told her 2times that he wanted some milk. W hen mami saw me with the plate of pasta, she said: "oh, why didn't you prepared something for papi?". I've answered her: "You really don't understand what have papi told you? you don't understand nothing!". She goes at the kitchen and prepared papi's milk. I was telling papi that why is mami like that. She didn't remember the things we tell her, and then i've made a joke. "Oh, is it really like that when your getting old?" then i gave papi a biggrin.
When she came back from the kitchen, she was really pissed shouting, screaming and banging all the things. Then she said it is my fault..EVERYTHING! and im the only one who is intelligent, the one who is good and "KNOWS EVERYTHING!". I got shocked, i did not know what she is talking about. She said she got offended on what i have said earlier. Well, honestly i did not mean to offend her. She makes her own problem and thinks of that way. I just cannot think why didn't she understand what have papi said. Telling her 3 times isn't enough? I'm not telling her that she didn't know anything or understand anything. It is her problem, she doesn't think of what papi is telling her most of the times. And im not saying that im intelligent.
Then she brought up everything again. She even told me that papi wants me out of this house. Oh well, it would be really really fine with me if that will happen. Papi is pissed off because where talking in tagalog and he doesn't understand anything. I told papi what mami is saying. Mami said papi is complaining about me, A LOT!!! she wants me to be out of this house long time ago. Telling me im so rude, pretending that im so intelligent and knows everything, im conceited, im not doing anything and im lazy. Im gonna be thankful if im gonna live my own life, thats the truth!
I would love to go out of this house and live my own life. I would feel better if that will happen. I would be happier and contented! I told papi that he should tell me if there is something wrong with me. If he doesn't want me living here then i will leave. It would not be easy for me but i would love too!
Tears just fell down on my eyes. I didn't want to offend her and doesn't mean anything bad on what ive said. She is the one who gives a bad meaning on it. I feel sorry and at the same time mad because i was hurt again. Just this week was really a bad one for me then till the end.
Everybody just shut up immediately! I hope its always like this, nobody is talking now. You will just hear the door banging and the things that are falling down and makes noise. Damn! would you all give me a break and give me even just a fucking second peace of mind. Im hurting...
Y Make me yours tonight, let me die in your arms;
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