Friday, January 19, 2007
Hello there! how's your week been going on? For me, all is SHIT. but, im doing fine don't worry.
I'm about to post something last night. Everything is finished i will just justify it and then publish then suddenly "blogger is doing some maintainance". Wat the F&%£?!!! i've wrote it for almost an hour and a half and what important is the feelings i have put it on there. hayyy..thought it gonna help me but damn! it make me feel worst. grrrr....
I'm sooo tired, tired, tired today. I did lots of work this morning and then was not able to find time to eat my lunch. Because i have to hurry up for another work in the afternoon. All i have in my bag is two pieces of chocolate and yeah it help alot though. I dont know why i was feeling so sleepy most of the time. I didn't sleep good for the past 3 nights. I'm always having this dreams that i could not really explain. I know who are those people together with me and i know whats happening and then when i woke up im feeling bad and can't really remember what happened. Kindah strange! But i kept on thinking about it on a day.oh well....
Errrr! i want to take a rest..i want some peace for a while..i want some silence...but damn! with this two people together with me. duh! even a minute...i always hear somebody shout, talks to loud, and everything. Ahhh..so irritating! but what can i do, our house is small and i don't have anywhere to go. I just hope we could really transfer to a bigger one at least if i could have my own room i could have my time alone and some space and could not hear whatever they are arguing about. "che palle, non finiscono mai di litigare! blah..blah..blah..uffa! sono stuuufffa!"
I'm feeling a bit sad and depressed since yesterday. I have already leave my other work yesterday which made me feel bad too. I've been working there for a year and a month now, but shit really happens sometimes so i better leave. It's just that i hope some of the things that i have done will be appreciated because i did my best in it. Not that easy to find another work for now so im gonna be a bum for the meantime. ahhh! patience is a virtue as what they say. Well, i thank my boss for everything she have done for me for all the help and the shitty things. I have learned a lot from her anyway. And sometimes you really dont deserve what you have so it normal to have changes and to have different style for a while.
I'm missing my grandpa! I was not there in the philippines when he died. I'm a grandpa's girl a 100% grandpa's girl. I know he really loves me so much thats why he never forgets to show in my dreams every now and then. And maybe he wanted to remind me about his birthday because it's quite near. But, of course i will never forget about it. I love you tatay!mwah..i miss you so much...
One more thing, i have had this conversation last time with my boo. I have him in my dreams too and yeah i was thinking of him for the past days. Its all aout him going to the University soon. He needs to finish his Nursing school so byt then he can really move on and make another plan for his future. Im happy for him but at the same time im sad because i know im gonna miss him so much...SO MUCH...SOOO MUCH! Im not used of not talking to him in a day. He is my daily journal, my diary. But i guess it is time for us, for me and him to go on our real plans for our own lives. Anyway, im just here to support and love him all the time. Gonna be happier if all his dreams will come true. and neways, we still have some time to spend we still have time to enjoy and have fun.
"boo, you have reached this far now. I'm happy that your pushing through all of your plans. Im glad you have your strong determination to finish your studies and go to another step. Keep reaching for the stars. I know you can do it. Your family, friends and loved ones will always be at your side so you will never be alone. Move on and i know your getting stronger than ever in every fall you've been through. You know that i will always be here for you, ALWAYS! i'm just a text, a phone call, an email and ym away. i will always be here waiting for you. Believe in Him and He will always help you and will never leave you. Keep your fingers crossed because in the end all of this will paid off. You will get the price that you've been waiting for. Keep on dreaming. Time will come you will get whatever your heart desires. always have fun and enjoy! My prayers will always get along with you. my love will always follow you. im gonna miss you alot, boo. i love you. mwah."
whew! teary eyes...hehe! im sori about that, i really can't help what im feeling. I can't stop my emotions. i really can't! so i guess writing it down here will be a big help. ahh...well, yeah. it helped! =P ok, too much for the dramas....
hmm..what else? am i writing that long now? hope you didn't get bored at all!haha...I want to thank also my blogger friends who patiently drops by most of the time here and leave comments and tags. Im sori if sometime i wasnt able to drop by on yours the first thing is im tired and can't think of anything to say.hehe! I'll make it up to you all whenever it happens. And i want to thank arianne for putting me as her first "featured blogger of the week" at her page. thanks yani baby. love you all guys! mwah...
What about some plans for tomorrow? hmm..doesn't have any for now. Because i've been out with arianne for the past days just doing shopping.haha! and im loving it...were not just doing shopping cam whoring too. hehe! we will see... but im sure im gonna end up looking for other sales stuff around. *biggrin*
Ok, time for me to go. Getting a bit late and need to do other things. =P have a good time and oh have a good weekend to all of you! I'll see you on my next post. take care..mwah
Y Make me yours tonight, let me die in your arms;
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