Thursday, November 29, 2007
STRESSFUL DAYS!!!
I've been waiting for this moment, finally im alone and in a short time im at peace. Nobody is home, i just arrived from work, i ate and sit in front of the computer. Its been a wnile since i last updated this blog. No, nothing bothers me. Im just having this attitude lately that i don't understand. Im not busy, either. I have many things in my mind but i can't put it into words.
I'm having some difficulty of expressing my feelings the past week or maybe im just really STRESSED. Work, home, things and things around me. Just the past days im getting lost again. I don't know what and where is my road will lead me, will bring me and which road to choose. I lost my direction going to the place i wanted. i just don't know where to go. I need a break and i need some time to reflect and think of what is going on right now.
I have different stories everyday, things that maybe happening normally to other people too. It all started last week when i got pissed with my mom.(i guess this is normal) I just want to share it anyway, because up to now i dont understand what she wants me to do. This is my life and i have the right to do what i want. Yes, they are my parents they also have the right to say whatever they want too but not to dictate me and tell me exactly this is what they want for me. No, im not gonna argue again about those things im tired of it. So, i will just keep silent and let them "blah...blah...blah..."
Hopes...hopes...im loosing them day by day. But still, im here. So, i think im not! It's all in my mind. Im giving up, because i dont know what to think and do about with my other problems concerning with big things in my life. I was hoping that after waiting for some months my legitimations papers will be okay. Actually it got worst. I can't have them, papi will not have the authority to do it at the moment. The lawyer here told me to do it in the Philippines because it concerns about the Family code chuva..chuva. wehhh! I dont know! So, just thinking about it gives me big headache and all i can do is breathe hard and say "hayyyyy...is there somebody who can help me?(with my face looking up there and waiting for a miracle)". Im just getting confused what to do. But as what yana have said "things have its own reasons, meaning it will happen in the right time and right place whatever is the situation."
On the other hand, things are doing good. For the mean time, i think its all balance but who knows? I just go out and try to enjoy my day as much as possible. Think positive, stay calm(as possible as i can), eat and sleep, go out and chill. Ahhh! thats how life is! We need to enjoy and live it to the fullest as what they say. Inspite of the ups and downs. The world never stops on turning. Gah! easier said than done ha!
Oh, christmas is on its way and nobody can stop it.haha! I just noticed and think that in a month and so ill be turning 26.hehe! Thank you guys for visiting. I'll hop on your pages soon. For sure gonna update my other sites too.hehe!
Take care guys! have a fun friday and a great weekend ahead! mwahugs.
Y Make me yours tonight, let me die in your arms;
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